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CHAPTER 32- BLOOMING FEELINGS
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2024-10-29 19:42:56It has been close to four months in this school and a lot of things have happened. Apart from the responsibility of being the Class Representative, I have been sinking in books. Understanding, Assimilating, and la cram la pour.
Things have been a complicated part for me as I am attracted to Christopher. I can't help but feel angst about this, that feeling of uneasiness along with the butterflies in my tummy when I am around him.
He is a jovial, caring, and loving type. Apart from his handsome features which kept crept into my imagination, I feel my stomach churn with different emotions around him. He acts perfectly well in all areas, in preparing a delicious meal, behaving like a big brother, or being sassy sometimes.
I closed my eyes, trying to jolt down the last piece of writing into my diary. Unfortunately, my head is clouded with Christopher, as I could not help but feel he is hiding something from me.
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