BROOKSI got a text from Viola saying crystal was on her way. I knew I had to hurry and finish putting everything up. When I finished hanging everything, I heard her car pull up. I took a few deep breaths and calmed myself. I saw the light in the foyer turn on and I knew I was seconds away from either being the happiest man alive or being turned down. I made sure all the baby pictures were in order and I made sure all of our pictures were in order. Jonah was hiding off to the side of the yard to capture the face Crystal was going to make when she saw all of this. I could hear footsteps so I got down on one knee and had the ring box opened and ready. When the door opened she began to cry. I said, Crystal Lynn Martini, I never thought I would ever find someone that I would fall in love with but there you were. You opened my heart to the idea of loving someone and giving them a piece of me that I had never been willing to give to anyone. You made me want to be a better person and be a be
It's 7 am and I have been lying here awake for the last 45 minutes. Moving to a new city has been kind of hard for me. I miss my old friends but my father assured me once we moved here I'd make new ones. We've been here a few months now and I still don't know anyone. School starts soon and I will be a junior in high school. I am supposed to be a senior but I was held back in 6th grade. I am scared that I won't fit in with any of the crowds here because where we moved from was pretty bad, here everyone seems stuck up. I shouldn't care though because I have always been a loner. I get up and go fix myself something to eat and head back to my room. I turn on the radio and listen to music while I am eating. When I finished eating I put a movie in and try to get into it so I can try and forget about how bored I am. 3 movies later and I am still bored and there is nothing to do. My father is on his computer chatting away with women from different states. I walk into the living room and tell
When I woke up this morning I had a big smile on my face. I was replaying yesterday in my head. I kept picturing his smile and every time I did, I would blush and my heart would race. I figured I'd go for a walk since it was something I did when I was bored so I put on my sports bra and my thin workout pants and headed up the street. When I turned at the first stop sign my heart started pounding. There he was outside with some kid I am going to guess is his brother or cousin playing basketball in the driveway 2 houses from me. I thought about turning around and going back home but decided to go ahead and go on my walk. As I passed by him he stopped and smiled at me. I smiled back but kept walking and when I turned to look at him and he was standing there with his arms up like where are you going. I held up my finger telling him to wait and I kept walking. When I came back around the other side of the neighborhood I debated on going home but I ended up going back over there to see what
When I woke up this morning I had another big smile on my face. I had a really good dream last night about Brooks. I don't know what has come over me, I don't normally dream about stuff like I did last night but something about Brooks just brings all of those thoughts out to where now I am acting on things in my dreams. I rolled over to get up and decided to go clear my head by walking. I thought surely he wouldn't be outside right now since it was 9 am on Saturday. I got dressed and told my dad who was sitting at his computer like always that I was going for a walk around the neighborhood. I headed up the street and when I got to the stop sign I thought about turning the opposite way and coming back around by his house just in case he was outside. I looked down towards his house and didn't see his SUV in the driveway so I figured I was safe and headed that way. I made it past his house and let out the breath I was holding. I was supposed to be clearing my head but I couldn't get the
I don't know what time it was but I heard something and it startled me. I looked in the living room window and saw that my dad had gone to bed. I guess he forgot I was outside. I turned around to see if I could see where the noise was coming from but it was too dark on that side of our house. I was about to go inside when I heard "cutie" I said Brooks? He stepped out from behind a tree and said he was sorry for scaring me. I told him it was ok and asked what he was doing. He said he couldn't sleep and was sitting out back when he decided he would come down here and see if I was ok. I told him I was fine and said thank you for being concerned since obviously my dad wasn't when he decided to go to bed. He asked if he could sit with me for a little while and I said that was fine but we had to be quiet. He sat down on the ground on my pallet and I sat in the chair with a blanket covering me. He scooted my chair closer to him so we wouldn't have to talk as loud. He asked me what I liked to
It has been a week since Brooks and I kissed on my patio and I have tried not to make it too obvious I really like him, so I haven't been walking as much. Today will be my first day walking in a few days and I am kind of nervous to see him if he is outside. I slipped my tennis shoes on and headed out the door. When I got to the stop sign I saw his SUV but I didn't see him. I walked past his house and before I turned to go down the road I heard my nickname being called. I turned to see him walking down the stairs from his front porch. I felt my cheeks getting warm and I knew I was blushing. When he walked up to me he asked what was doing and I laughed and said well Brooks, it seems I am going for a walk. He called me a smartass and asked if he could join me. I said that was fine with me and we walked down the road. It was awkward at first because we were both quiet but he broke the silence and said, “about the night on your patio, I didn't mean to upset you, Crystal." I said you didn
School starts in 3 days and I haven't snuck out again to see Brooks since that night. I have seen him a few times while I was out walking and we talked for a few minutes but I have been trying to avoid being alone with him. I know I allowed that to happen but it doesn't mean it didn't scare me a little. I mean so much happened in the short amount of time I was up there and just thinking about it is overwhelming. I went from only a kiss to making out, telling him personal stuff, touching, and saying something that has never crossed my mind to say. I was sitting outside in the yard near the road drawing in my journal Brooks pulled up and asked what I was up to. I told him just drawing. He asked if I wanted to come hang out for a little while since no one was home at his house. I asked if we were going to be outside and he said, “I thought maybe we could sit in my room and hang out." I thought about it for a minute and said ok I will be up there in a minute just let me take my journal
After my dad made me promise to tell him next time I decided to go for a walk, I went to my room and turned on my radio. I opened my closet and pulled out a few outfits my mom took me to get before she died. I was going to start wearing skirts and midriff shirts but I felt like it was something I couldn't pull off. I tried on a black skirt that came to my knee and a black midriff shirt and I didn't really like it. I tried on my green and black plaid skirt with my black off-the-shoulder midriff shirt and I liked how I looked in it. I tried on my tan and brown plaid skirt with my tan half-sleeve midriff shirt and liked it too. The last one I tried on was my black and grey plaid skirt with my light grey midriff t-shirt and liked it as well. I decided I was going to start wearing them when school started and see if changing my appearance would make a difference this year since I have always been a tomboy and wore baggy pants and t-shirts. I was also going to ask my dad if he could take me
BROOKSI got a text from Viola saying crystal was on her way. I knew I had to hurry and finish putting everything up. When I finished hanging everything, I heard her car pull up. I took a few deep breaths and calmed myself. I saw the light in the foyer turn on and I knew I was seconds away from either being the happiest man alive or being turned down. I made sure all the baby pictures were in order and I made sure all of our pictures were in order. Jonah was hiding off to the side of the yard to capture the face Crystal was going to make when she saw all of this. I could hear footsteps so I got down on one knee and had the ring box opened and ready. When the door opened she began to cry. I said, Crystal Lynn Martini, I never thought I would ever find someone that I would fall in love with but there you were. You opened my heart to the idea of loving someone and giving them a piece of me that I had never been willing to give to anyone. You made me want to be a better person and be a be
CRYSTALToday is the day I graduate high school. My adult life begins tomorrow. I have worked my ass off to be here today. I am super excited to walk across that stage when they call my name. I know my mom is up there smiling and is proud of the young woman I have become. I already know my dad is proud of me. He reminds me every chance he gets. Everyone who means something to me will be here. Kinzlee and I are sitting together since our last names are close to each other. She was shocked to see me when they called for graduation rehearsals. I explained how I ended up getting to walk the stage with them and she told me she was proud of me. She asked about Brooks and I and I smiled when I showed her the promise ring he gave me. She said she was happy for me and said she and Brent were talking about moving in together. I told her Brooks wanted me to move in with him. When everyone was seated, They began their speeches and I tried not to laugh at Brooks making faces at me. When My row was
BROOKS 3 months laterIt's been months since I touched a bottle of liquor. I have kept my promise to Crystal and I have talked to her when I get the urge to drink. It definitely helps. Crystal graduates in 2 days. I am so proud of her for all the hard work she did to get here. My mom, Jonah, and Ray were invited to the graduation and she even invited Viola. A month ago, Crystal's dad had me come to the house so he could talk to Crystal. He knew this talk was going to be a big one and knew she would probably take it better if I was there. When he sat her down, He told her he was ready to take the next step with Viola and ask her to marry him. Crystal freaked out at first but after I calmed her down she told her dad it was ok. Since then she has been trying to spend a little more time getting to know her soon-to-be stepmom and I have been able to spend more time with Jonah and even spend time with my mom and Ray. Every time I take my shirt off and see the birthday gifts Crystal had don
CRYSTALAfter I got dressed, Brooks and I headed to Roadhouse for dinner. The whole way to the restaurant, Brooks held my hand. I smiled every time I looked over at him. After we were seated, Brooks asked if I had any more plans that he should know about. I laughed and said maybe. He stared at me and said, "What else do you have planned baby?"I said well, after dinner, we are going to the mall to pick out a shirt and pair of pants to go with the shoes, and then we have one other stop. After that, I am all yours. He asked about this other stop and I said I can't tell you. You will have to wait and see. I hope you like the surprise though. I wasn't sure If it was something I should do but I said screw it, we only live once. He stared at me with a confused expression. After our bread and drinks got to the table, the server asked if we were ready to order. I said let me get the 11 oz Sirloin with sauteed mushrooms, a baked potato, and vegetables. Brooks ordered the 16 oz Sirloin with sa
BROOKSSo far today has been a pretty easy day. It's 4:30 and I know I get to go home and see the most beautiful girl in the world soon. I am thankful her dad doesn't mind her spending my birthday with me. I thought about cooking on the grill tonight but I'm not sure what time Crystal will be getting home so I figured ordering take-out would be better. Jonah called as soon as he got off the bus to tell me Happy Birthday and my mom has been blowing my phone up with baby pictures and memories all day. I love my momma and thank goodness she hasn't shown any to Crystal yet. I was such a cute kid but all my poses are very weird. When I locked up the shop, I headed home to take a shower. I pulled into the driveway and headed inside. When I walked into the house, I saw a gift sitting on the island. I walked up to it and looked around to see if Crystal was hiding in the kitchen. I smiled as I read the tag on it. [HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! I LOVE YOU!]I decided to wait to open it until I
CRYSTALWhen I got home, my dad informed me that Viola was going to be moving in soon. I have a week to try and figure out how I feel about it and here I am still trying to work it out in my head that they are together. It's still hard to think about my dad with anyone other than my mom, but I guess I need to just suck it up and deal with it because Viola will be moving in even if I am not OK with it. Tomorrow is Brooks's birthday and I still haven't figured out what I am going to do for him. I figured I'd call Jonah later and ask him what I should do. I did all my chores and finished my laundry. I went and sat outside on the front porch and began writing in my journal about everything that had been going on. When I finished writing, I realized I had been outside for a while. It was getting late and I went inside to start dinner. My dad came into the kitchen and asked if I wanted any help and I told him I would love for him to help me and that I missed us cooking dinner together. He t
BROOKSWhen we left Crystal's dads, Crystal fell asleep in the car. The ride back to my house was quiet except for Crystal snoring. When we pulled up at the house, I woke her up and she asked where we were. I said we are at home babe. She laid her head back on the seat and went back to sleep. I laughed and got out. I walked over to the passenger side and got her out. I carried her inside and laid her down on the bed. I went into the kitchen and got a glass of water and some aspirin. I went back into the bedroom and set it on the table next to the bed. I leaned down and kissed her forehead and before I walked out of the room, I heard her mumble something. I walked back over to the bed and asked her what she said. She turned her head with her eyes closed and said,"I love you so much and I can't wait until we have a baby."I stood there not sure what to say to her because I know she is not in her right mind. I finally said just get some sleep baby. We will talk tomorrow. I went into the
CRYSTALIt's been 2 months since Brooks moved into his house and I love being able to stay the night with him. My dad wasn't really ok with me staying over on school nights but I proved to him I could still go to school every day and be there on time. Brooks and my dad went in together and bought me a car so I could get to school and Brooks not have to take me every day. I waited on the last-period bell to ring so I can get out of here and head to the shop. Until I get the job at the daycare after I graduate in 3 months, I am going to work there and help Brooks out. His card shop has been doing pretty well. I didn't realize just how many kids actually play these card games. Brooks is so good with the kids that come in there. He gives them tips and helps the beginners by having card matches with them. I for the life of me can not understand how to play these games but it melts my heart watching Brooks with the kids. He has been smiling a lot more and his mood has been peaceful. Brooks'
BROOKSWhen we pulled into my mom's driveway, Ray was getting out of his truck and Jonah was standing on the porch. I asked Jonah where mom was and he said she went to the store but should be back any minute. I walked inside with Ray and began taking my bed apart and helped him get my dresser out of the house and loaded up. As we were heading back in to get my bed frame and mattress, My mom pulled into the driveway and got out. She opened the trunk and told Jonah to help her unload the groceries and put them in the back of my explorer. I asked her what she was doing and she told me to hush and said she bought me some food and supplies to start me off. I smiled and told my mom thank you but I didn't need her to do that. She told me to shut it or she would come organize my house and clean it. I laughed and said, fine mom. You win. Thank you for getting me all that. My mom closed the back of my car and walked up to the porch and smiled at Crystal. I said mom, this is Crystal. Crystal thi