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BROOKS It's been a little over a month since we were together. I have been having dreams about Crystal lately and it's driving me crazy because I don't normally dream and now that I am, I want what I have been dreaming about. I have to get up and go for a checkup at the VA and I don't want to go. I have one every 6 months unless I get sick. I got dressed and called my mom to let her know I was up and going to my appointment. When I got off the phone with her, I got in the car and headed out. As I was passing by Crystal's house, I saw her sitting outside on the back porch. She looked like she was sick. I slowed down and she looked up and gave me a faint smile. I asked if she was ok and she said she was waiting on her dad to take her to the doctor. I told her I was headed to my 6-month checkup and I would be back in a few hours. She said she would call me when she gets home. I blew her a kiss and headed to the VA. When I pulled up at the VA, I took a deep breath as I got out of the ca
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CRYSTAL It's been a week and my viral infection is gone, but I haven't seen or heard from Brooks. I chose not to call him because I was still a little hurt at his relief. I know I am not ready for a baby and I know he could get in trouble if anyone found out about us, but now I feel like he doesn't really want to be with me. How could I have been so stupid? I gave in and gave him what I knew deep down he wanted. I think if he tries to contact me, keeping my distance from him for a while might be a good idea. I sat down on the rail on my front porch and opened my journal. I started sketching the bushes in front of my house and as I was looking at them I saw his SUV. I put my head down and tried to avoid any looks if he was looking this way. I peeked to see if he was gone and the coast was clear. I went back to sketching the bushes and when I finished I asked my dad if I could go for a walk. He told me he didn't care and I headed out the door. I decided to walk down the road instead o
Last Updated : 2022-11-14Us Chapter 23
BROOKSI don't understand why she got so upset at my relief when she said she wasn't pregnant. I mean she is 17 and I am 21, she knows we can't get caught. I know she is falling in love with me but I can't fall for her. This was all supposed to be a lay, and that was it. I don't want to be in a relationship but I care for her and I shouldn't. What is wrong with me? I have never been a relationship guy, I have always been a f*ck them and leave or become f*ck buddies. I have never cared for any of the girls before. I also have never been with anyone younger than me, maybe that's what it is. I'm like one of those mentors who care for their mentorees. No that can't be it because I can't stop thinking about her. This girl haunts my mind every minute of the day. My mom walked into the front door and I said I have a question. She asked me what it was and I said can you tell me what it means when a guy or girl is on someone's mind every waking minute of the day? My mom laughed and told me it
Last Updated : 2022-11-16Us Chapter 24
CRYSTALAfter my run with Brooks 2 days ago, I started to feel a little better inside. I wasn't down like I normally am. He makes everything better. I got on the bus to head home from school and I fell asleep I woke up to Jonah sitting next to me and he didn't say anything. I asked what was up and he just looked at me. It was as if he was searching for an answer without even asking a question. Finally, he said, “Why did you sleep with Brooks?" I sat up from the position I was in and said why would you even ask me that Jonah? He said, “Brooks is acting weird and I can't figure out what is going on." I said well maybe you don't need to try to figure out what is going on with him. I said give your brother some space and let him get through whatever weirdness he is dealing with. He said, “The thing is, he wasn't acting this weird until I told him I poked a hole in his cond*ms." I looked at him and asked why he did that and if he knew what could happen if Brooks slept with someone.
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CRYSTALWhen I woke up, I kept telling myself it was just a nightmare and that Brooks didn't really come here last night and tell me all that. Deep down I knew it wasn't. I got up out of bed and jumped in the shower. I needed to wash my face really good and try to relieve some of the puffiness from my eyes so I could go to school and not look like I was having an allergic reaction to something. Once my puffiness had gone down, I put some makeup on to try and hide the rest of it. It worked for the majority of it, but you could tell I had been crying. I knew what to tell my dad if he noticed. I'd say I was thinking about my mom. I fixed myself some toast with butter and got my books in my bookbag and headed out the door. When I got to the bus stop force of habit kicked in and I looked that way. I saw his explorer was gone and I turned around and waited for the bus. Jonah walked up behind me and said hey. I turned and was about to say good morning when I saw he had been crying. I asked i
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**Trigger Warning** This chapter hints at self-harm. BROOKSI heard my phone ring and when I looked down I saw it was the house. So I ignored it. After the second time, a voicemail popped up and I figured it was mom or Jonah begging me to come home. I just ignored it. I got up off the ground and went and grabbed another bottle of Liquor I bought when I got up. I actually bought 5 bottles. I opened it and tilted my head back. It burned going down but at this point, I didn't care. I wanted to get so f*cked up, I forgot everything. I was halfway through the bottle when my phone rang again but it only rang once and stopped. I looked at the number and it said restricted. I went back to drinking. I finished the bottle and started walking well stumbling around and the anger towards myself flared up and I began hitting a tree. Over and over and over again my fist connected with the trunk until I heard a crack and felt the pain instantly. I knew I had either fracture it or broken it but I d
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*** Trigger Warning*** This chapter talks about a suic*de attempt and self-harming. CRYSTALWhen Jonah left from my window, I sat back against the wall with tears rolling down my face and grabbed my bottle of anti-depressant medication, and took 4 of them at once. I closed my eyes and tried to picture my mom holding me when I was a kid but I couldn't. I kept seeing his face and hearing him in my head admit everything, hurt so much more than the night he told me. I took another pill and picked up my pocket knife and cut another line into my wrist then another. I was done with all the pain I have had to go through in my life. I didn't want to live anymore. I cut a couple more lines on my wrist and then everything went black. All of a sudden I could hear people talking but couldn't open my eyes and I couldn't speak. I felt like I was choking on something. I was choking on my own vomit. I heard someone telling me it was ok and to relax but I was freaking out. I finally opened my eyes
Last Updated : 2022-11-24Us Chapter 28
BROOKSWhen we left the hospital, Jonah looked at me and said, “What in the hell did you do to my friend Brooks? What happened before you called me and told me to go to her window? Don't say nothing, because your hand is fractured and she is in the hospital with bandages on her wrist and talking about anti-depressants, and before you say it, YES I know what they are." I looked at my 14-year-old brother and said when in the hell did you become so grown? He said, “I kind of had to grow up because I have a dumbass brother like you, who likes to share details on the girls he has slept with and doesn't know how to deal with his mistakes so he comes to me." I said Jonah watch your mouth. He laughed and said, “Why? It was ok for you to curse at my age. Why should I watch what I say? It's not like I am cursing mom out like you did. I am more mature than most 14-year-old boys and believe I have the right to act like an adult because you sure as hell don't." I said text mom and let her kn
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BROOKSI got a text from Viola saying crystal was on her way. I knew I had to hurry and finish putting everything up. When I finished hanging everything, I heard her car pull up. I took a few deep breaths and calmed myself. I saw the light in the foyer turn on and I knew I was seconds away from either being the happiest man alive or being turned down. I made sure all the baby pictures were in order and I made sure all of our pictures were in order. Jonah was hiding off to the side of the yard to capture the face Crystal was going to make when she saw all of this. I could hear footsteps so I got down on one knee and had the ring box opened and ready. When the door opened she began to cry. I said, Crystal Lynn Martini, I never thought I would ever find someone that I would fall in love with but there you were. You opened my heart to the idea of loving someone and giving them a piece of me that I had never been willing to give to anyone. You made me want to be a better person and be a be
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CRYSTALToday is the day I graduate high school. My adult life begins tomorrow. I have worked my ass off to be here today. I am super excited to walk across that stage when they call my name. I know my mom is up there smiling and is proud of the young woman I have become. I already know my dad is proud of me. He reminds me every chance he gets. Everyone who means something to me will be here. Kinzlee and I are sitting together since our last names are close to each other. She was shocked to see me when they called for graduation rehearsals. I explained how I ended up getting to walk the stage with them and she told me she was proud of me. She asked about Brooks and I and I smiled when I showed her the promise ring he gave me. She said she was happy for me and said she and Brent were talking about moving in together. I told her Brooks wanted me to move in with him. When everyone was seated, They began their speeches and I tried not to laugh at Brooks making faces at me. When My row was
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BROOKS 3 months laterIt's been months since I touched a bottle of liquor. I have kept my promise to Crystal and I have talked to her when I get the urge to drink. It definitely helps. Crystal graduates in 2 days. I am so proud of her for all the hard work she did to get here. My mom, Jonah, and Ray were invited to the graduation and she even invited Viola. A month ago, Crystal's dad had me come to the house so he could talk to Crystal. He knew this talk was going to be a big one and knew she would probably take it better if I was there. When he sat her down, He told her he was ready to take the next step with Viola and ask her to marry him. Crystal freaked out at first but after I calmed her down she told her dad it was ok. Since then she has been trying to spend a little more time getting to know her soon-to-be stepmom and I have been able to spend more time with Jonah and even spend time with my mom and Ray. Every time I take my shirt off and see the birthday gifts Crystal had don
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CRYSTALAfter I got dressed, Brooks and I headed to Roadhouse for dinner. The whole way to the restaurant, Brooks held my hand. I smiled every time I looked over at him. After we were seated, Brooks asked if I had any more plans that he should know about. I laughed and said maybe. He stared at me and said, "What else do you have planned baby?"I said well, after dinner, we are going to the mall to pick out a shirt and pair of pants to go with the shoes, and then we have one other stop. After that, I am all yours. He asked about this other stop and I said I can't tell you. You will have to wait and see. I hope you like the surprise though. I wasn't sure If it was something I should do but I said screw it, we only live once. He stared at me with a confused expression. After our bread and drinks got to the table, the server asked if we were ready to order. I said let me get the 11 oz Sirloin with sauteed mushrooms, a baked potato, and vegetables. Brooks ordered the 16 oz Sirloin with sa
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BROOKSSo far today has been a pretty easy day. It's 4:30 and I know I get to go home and see the most beautiful girl in the world soon. I am thankful her dad doesn't mind her spending my birthday with me. I thought about cooking on the grill tonight but I'm not sure what time Crystal will be getting home so I figured ordering take-out would be better. Jonah called as soon as he got off the bus to tell me Happy Birthday and my mom has been blowing my phone up with baby pictures and memories all day. I love my momma and thank goodness she hasn't shown any to Crystal yet. I was such a cute kid but all my poses are very weird. When I locked up the shop, I headed home to take a shower. I pulled into the driveway and headed inside. When I walked into the house, I saw a gift sitting on the island. I walked up to it and looked around to see if Crystal was hiding in the kitchen. I smiled as I read the tag on it. [HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! I LOVE YOU!]I decided to wait to open it until I
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CRYSTALWhen I got home, my dad informed me that Viola was going to be moving in soon. I have a week to try and figure out how I feel about it and here I am still trying to work it out in my head that they are together. It's still hard to think about my dad with anyone other than my mom, but I guess I need to just suck it up and deal with it because Viola will be moving in even if I am not OK with it. Tomorrow is Brooks's birthday and I still haven't figured out what I am going to do for him. I figured I'd call Jonah later and ask him what I should do. I did all my chores and finished my laundry. I went and sat outside on the front porch and began writing in my journal about everything that had been going on. When I finished writing, I realized I had been outside for a while. It was getting late and I went inside to start dinner. My dad came into the kitchen and asked if I wanted any help and I told him I would love for him to help me and that I missed us cooking dinner together. He t
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BROOKSWhen we left Crystal's dads, Crystal fell asleep in the car. The ride back to my house was quiet except for Crystal snoring. When we pulled up at the house, I woke her up and she asked where we were. I said we are at home babe. She laid her head back on the seat and went back to sleep. I laughed and got out. I walked over to the passenger side and got her out. I carried her inside and laid her down on the bed. I went into the kitchen and got a glass of water and some aspirin. I went back into the bedroom and set it on the table next to the bed. I leaned down and kissed her forehead and before I walked out of the room, I heard her mumble something. I walked back over to the bed and asked her what she said. She turned her head with her eyes closed and said,"I love you so much and I can't wait until we have a baby."I stood there not sure what to say to her because I know she is not in her right mind. I finally said just get some sleep baby. We will talk tomorrow. I went into the
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CRYSTALIt's been 2 months since Brooks moved into his house and I love being able to stay the night with him. My dad wasn't really ok with me staying over on school nights but I proved to him I could still go to school every day and be there on time. Brooks and my dad went in together and bought me a car so I could get to school and Brooks not have to take me every day. I waited on the last-period bell to ring so I can get out of here and head to the shop. Until I get the job at the daycare after I graduate in 3 months, I am going to work there and help Brooks out. His card shop has been doing pretty well. I didn't realize just how many kids actually play these card games. Brooks is so good with the kids that come in there. He gives them tips and helps the beginners by having card matches with them. I for the life of me can not understand how to play these games but it melts my heart watching Brooks with the kids. He has been smiling a lot more and his mood has been peaceful. Brooks'
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BROOKSWhen we pulled into my mom's driveway, Ray was getting out of his truck and Jonah was standing on the porch. I asked Jonah where mom was and he said she went to the store but should be back any minute. I walked inside with Ray and began taking my bed apart and helped him get my dresser out of the house and loaded up. As we were heading back in to get my bed frame and mattress, My mom pulled into the driveway and got out. She opened the trunk and told Jonah to help her unload the groceries and put them in the back of my explorer. I asked her what she was doing and she told me to hush and said she bought me some food and supplies to start me off. I smiled and told my mom thank you but I didn't need her to do that. She told me to shut it or she would come organize my house and clean it. I laughed and said, fine mom. You win. Thank you for getting me all that. My mom closed the back of my car and walked up to the porch and smiled at Crystal. I said mom, this is Crystal. Crystal thi
