My first 2 months of school have been ok I am glad we will be hitting fall break next week. I can't wait until I can sleep in and just be lazy for a week. I am finishing up my test in my last period so I can sit back until school is out. When the bell rang to load the buses I headed to my bus and took my seat. Jonah didn't get on today which I found weird since he has ridden every day and he was on this morning. I thought about going up to his house and checking on him to make sure he wasn't sick or something. When I got off the bus I saw Brooks getting out of his SUV and I walked down the road toward him and said hey is Jonah ok? He didn't ride the bus this afternoon and I just wanted to check on him. Brooks turned to face me and snapped at me and asked why I cared if Jonah is ok and asked why I have been talking to his brother so much. I looked at him and said excuse me but I am his friend and I wanted to make sure he was ok sorry for having a heart and caring. I turned around and s
Finally, it's the last day before break, and I and can't wait. My butt is going to be lazy and sleep in. I am headed into my second to last period to take my test and then sit and do nothing until the end of the school day since I took my test for last period last week. When the bell rang I headed into the hallway and saw Kinzlee. She waved at me and motioned for me to come over to her and I did. She told me she was throwing a little party Friday and invited me. I told her I didn't think I'd be able to come and she said to call her if I could and she gave me her phone number. I headed into my next class and ad sat there writing in my journal until school was over. When I got off the bus I didn't see Brooks's SUV. when I got home my dad was already home which wasn't normal. I walked in and asked if he was ok and he laughed and said he was, then asked me why I asked. I told him it wasn't like him to come home early unless he wasn't feeling good. He told me he came home early to pack. I
I called my dad and asked if he was ok and he told me he was fine. He said he was almost to the Florida state line. I told him to call me when he got there. When I hung up, I went to my room and finished cleaning it. I waited until my dad called and let me know he made it into Flordia and then I called Brooks and told him my dad was in Flordia. He said he was getting some clothes and then he would meet me at the backdoor. When we hung up, I started to freak out a little inside. I went and put my clothes in the dryer and started another load. I figured if I had laundry to put away it would keep me busy for a little while so I wouldn't be just sitting there. As I was coming out of the laundry room there was a knock at the backdoor and I froze for a moment. My heart started pounding and felt like it was going to come out of my chest. I walked to the door and opened it. He smiled at me and said he was excited to spend some alone time with me. I gave him a half-smile and said I was too. He
When I woke up, I smiled because Brooks had his arm over me and was holding me close to him. I laid there for a few minutes thinking about how perfect laying next to him felt. I had to use the bathroom so I lifted his arm and slid out of the bed. He stirred but didn't wake up. I closed the bathroom door and did what I needed to do. I washed my hands and then washed my face to wake myself up a little more. When I came out of the bathroom I looked inside my room and Brooks was still asleep. I went back into my room and got some clothes to change into and since he was asleep, I figured it was safe to change in my room. When I got dressed I turned around and he was staring at me with a smirk on his face. I asked why he was looking at me like that and he said, "you are gorgeous and have an amazing body cutie." I blushed and said you were asleep so I didn't see a reason to change in the bathroom but I will next time and I smiled at him. I asked him if he was hungry and he said yes. I aske
I made us a fried chicken salad with garlic rolls for dinner and we sat down at the table and began to eat. Brooks reaches across the table and places his hand on mine and says he is thankful he gets to spend another night with me. After dinner, we put in a movie and I was laying with my head against Brooks's chest. I must have fallen asleep because one minute I was content watching a movie and the next I was sitting on the ground in the woods from what I can tell and someone was laying on the ground next to me. I leaned over and saw Brooks's face. I shook him but he wasn't responding. I rolled him over and that's when I saw the blood. I screamed out but no one answered. I screamed and I cried. I leaned in and pressed my forehead to his and told him I loved him and I was sorry. I sat straight up and was covered in sweat and had tears running down my face. Brooks sat up and asked what was wrong and I started sobbing. He pulled me close to him and held me until I pushed him away and sa
BROOKS I have never felt something so tight wrapped around my d*ck before. It felt as if Crystal's body was made for me. When she told me it was ok to start moving, I slowly thrusted in and out of her. I could see the pleasure I was giving, on her face. I started to feel a little guilty though. I knew this was wrong and I have been working my way up to getting her in bed. I couldn't help myself though. Crystal looks older than she is and has an amazing body. No man in their right mind wouldn't try to sleep with her. I just happened to be the lucky one, when she moved into my neighborhood. I snapped out of my thoughts and focused on giving her what she asked for. I sped up my pace on my thrust and hearing her moan had me throbbing. I felt like I was going to bust right then but I held back and I kept thrusting while changing my pace. Seeing her innocent facial expressions as I thrust into her, had that guilty feeling stirring again. I knew I couldn't just stop right in the middle of t
CRYSTAL My dad is home and I haven't seen or heard from Brooks since the day he left. I have tried to call him but no answer and I even walked twice in 1 day over the past 2 days to see if I could see him outside. I haven't seen his SUV either. I hope he is ok and I hope I didn't do anything to make him mad. I tried to keep my thoughts at bay and act like I normally would but it was hard to do. I mean I just lost my virginity to him and now I am getting nothing. My dad calls me into the living room and asks me what all I did while he was gone and I told him I sat around and watched movies, slept, and did my chores. He told me he was going to take me shopping tomorrow and I was able to get whatever I wanted without him butting in. I laughed and said thank you and gave him a hug. I went back to my room and grabbed my journal and headed outside to sit and write. I don't know how long I had been sitting there because I was lost in my journal and had written 4 pages so far. I looked up a
BROOKSWhen Crystal left, I sat in my explorer and thought about everything. I feel so damn bad for doing that to her. When I found out she was 17, I should have stopped thinking about sleeping with her. She is still a kid and I am a man. I shouldn't be feeling the way I do about her but I can't help it. There was something about her but I couldn't pinpoint what. When I was on my way home today, I turned the radio off and sat in silence trying to think and it hit me. I actually have real feelings for her. It wasn't the fact I wasn't getting laid that kept me from sleeping, it was not being close to her. I have to be close to her to function. I can't think unless I am with her and when I am not with her, she is all I can think about. I've been gone a week trying to distance myself from her but yet she has been the only thing that is on my mind. That's why I decided to talk to her when I got home. What in the f*ck am I going to do? I can't just walk up to her door and her dad answer an
BROOKSI got a text from Viola saying crystal was on her way. I knew I had to hurry and finish putting everything up. When I finished hanging everything, I heard her car pull up. I took a few deep breaths and calmed myself. I saw the light in the foyer turn on and I knew I was seconds away from either being the happiest man alive or being turned down. I made sure all the baby pictures were in order and I made sure all of our pictures were in order. Jonah was hiding off to the side of the yard to capture the face Crystal was going to make when she saw all of this. I could hear footsteps so I got down on one knee and had the ring box opened and ready. When the door opened she began to cry. I said, Crystal Lynn Martini, I never thought I would ever find someone that I would fall in love with but there you were. You opened my heart to the idea of loving someone and giving them a piece of me that I had never been willing to give to anyone. You made me want to be a better person and be a be
CRYSTALToday is the day I graduate high school. My adult life begins tomorrow. I have worked my ass off to be here today. I am super excited to walk across that stage when they call my name. I know my mom is up there smiling and is proud of the young woman I have become. I already know my dad is proud of me. He reminds me every chance he gets. Everyone who means something to me will be here. Kinzlee and I are sitting together since our last names are close to each other. She was shocked to see me when they called for graduation rehearsals. I explained how I ended up getting to walk the stage with them and she told me she was proud of me. She asked about Brooks and I and I smiled when I showed her the promise ring he gave me. She said she was happy for me and said she and Brent were talking about moving in together. I told her Brooks wanted me to move in with him. When everyone was seated, They began their speeches and I tried not to laugh at Brooks making faces at me. When My row was
BROOKS 3 months laterIt's been months since I touched a bottle of liquor. I have kept my promise to Crystal and I have talked to her when I get the urge to drink. It definitely helps. Crystal graduates in 2 days. I am so proud of her for all the hard work she did to get here. My mom, Jonah, and Ray were invited to the graduation and she even invited Viola. A month ago, Crystal's dad had me come to the house so he could talk to Crystal. He knew this talk was going to be a big one and knew she would probably take it better if I was there. When he sat her down, He told her he was ready to take the next step with Viola and ask her to marry him. Crystal freaked out at first but after I calmed her down she told her dad it was ok. Since then she has been trying to spend a little more time getting to know her soon-to-be stepmom and I have been able to spend more time with Jonah and even spend time with my mom and Ray. Every time I take my shirt off and see the birthday gifts Crystal had don
CRYSTALAfter I got dressed, Brooks and I headed to Roadhouse for dinner. The whole way to the restaurant, Brooks held my hand. I smiled every time I looked over at him. After we were seated, Brooks asked if I had any more plans that he should know about. I laughed and said maybe. He stared at me and said, "What else do you have planned baby?"I said well, after dinner, we are going to the mall to pick out a shirt and pair of pants to go with the shoes, and then we have one other stop. After that, I am all yours. He asked about this other stop and I said I can't tell you. You will have to wait and see. I hope you like the surprise though. I wasn't sure If it was something I should do but I said screw it, we only live once. He stared at me with a confused expression. After our bread and drinks got to the table, the server asked if we were ready to order. I said let me get the 11 oz Sirloin with sauteed mushrooms, a baked potato, and vegetables. Brooks ordered the 16 oz Sirloin with sa
BROOKSSo far today has been a pretty easy day. It's 4:30 and I know I get to go home and see the most beautiful girl in the world soon. I am thankful her dad doesn't mind her spending my birthday with me. I thought about cooking on the grill tonight but I'm not sure what time Crystal will be getting home so I figured ordering take-out would be better. Jonah called as soon as he got off the bus to tell me Happy Birthday and my mom has been blowing my phone up with baby pictures and memories all day. I love my momma and thank goodness she hasn't shown any to Crystal yet. I was such a cute kid but all my poses are very weird. When I locked up the shop, I headed home to take a shower. I pulled into the driveway and headed inside. When I walked into the house, I saw a gift sitting on the island. I walked up to it and looked around to see if Crystal was hiding in the kitchen. I smiled as I read the tag on it. [HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! I LOVE YOU!]I decided to wait to open it until I
CRYSTALWhen I got home, my dad informed me that Viola was going to be moving in soon. I have a week to try and figure out how I feel about it and here I am still trying to work it out in my head that they are together. It's still hard to think about my dad with anyone other than my mom, but I guess I need to just suck it up and deal with it because Viola will be moving in even if I am not OK with it. Tomorrow is Brooks's birthday and I still haven't figured out what I am going to do for him. I figured I'd call Jonah later and ask him what I should do. I did all my chores and finished my laundry. I went and sat outside on the front porch and began writing in my journal about everything that had been going on. When I finished writing, I realized I had been outside for a while. It was getting late and I went inside to start dinner. My dad came into the kitchen and asked if I wanted any help and I told him I would love for him to help me and that I missed us cooking dinner together. He t
BROOKSWhen we left Crystal's dads, Crystal fell asleep in the car. The ride back to my house was quiet except for Crystal snoring. When we pulled up at the house, I woke her up and she asked where we were. I said we are at home babe. She laid her head back on the seat and went back to sleep. I laughed and got out. I walked over to the passenger side and got her out. I carried her inside and laid her down on the bed. I went into the kitchen and got a glass of water and some aspirin. I went back into the bedroom and set it on the table next to the bed. I leaned down and kissed her forehead and before I walked out of the room, I heard her mumble something. I walked back over to the bed and asked her what she said. She turned her head with her eyes closed and said,"I love you so much and I can't wait until we have a baby."I stood there not sure what to say to her because I know she is not in her right mind. I finally said just get some sleep baby. We will talk tomorrow. I went into the
CRYSTALIt's been 2 months since Brooks moved into his house and I love being able to stay the night with him. My dad wasn't really ok with me staying over on school nights but I proved to him I could still go to school every day and be there on time. Brooks and my dad went in together and bought me a car so I could get to school and Brooks not have to take me every day. I waited on the last-period bell to ring so I can get out of here and head to the shop. Until I get the job at the daycare after I graduate in 3 months, I am going to work there and help Brooks out. His card shop has been doing pretty well. I didn't realize just how many kids actually play these card games. Brooks is so good with the kids that come in there. He gives them tips and helps the beginners by having card matches with them. I for the life of me can not understand how to play these games but it melts my heart watching Brooks with the kids. He has been smiling a lot more and his mood has been peaceful. Brooks'
BROOKSWhen we pulled into my mom's driveway, Ray was getting out of his truck and Jonah was standing on the porch. I asked Jonah where mom was and he said she went to the store but should be back any minute. I walked inside with Ray and began taking my bed apart and helped him get my dresser out of the house and loaded up. As we were heading back in to get my bed frame and mattress, My mom pulled into the driveway and got out. She opened the trunk and told Jonah to help her unload the groceries and put them in the back of my explorer. I asked her what she was doing and she told me to hush and said she bought me some food and supplies to start me off. I smiled and told my mom thank you but I didn't need her to do that. She told me to shut it or she would come organize my house and clean it. I laughed and said, fine mom. You win. Thank you for getting me all that. My mom closed the back of my car and walked up to the porch and smiled at Crystal. I said mom, this is Crystal. Crystal thi