Craving her.

~I woke up wet this morning.~

Xavier POV:

Couple of days ago, Dad told me he is dating someone with marriage in his mind and I don't care. I seriously don't. My Dad was never married. He had me while he was dating and that woman, whom I should be calling mother, gave birth to me and left.

I have never seen her nor she showed up. It has always been me, Dad and his work. So, now when he wants to find happiness for himself, there is no way I am going to be a hurdle in the way of his happiness. 

"Sure, Dad. If this is what you want, I am there for you. I will be your best man at the wedding." He flashed me a bright smile. My heart instantly swelled into happiness. I want to see him happy, he deserves it.

His life has been circulating around me and now I don't want to be the center of his life anymore. Most importantly, he has provided me with everything. He has fulfilled my wishes before they would come out of my mouth and this is the least which I can do for him. 

"Thank you, son. Thank you so much." He got up and hugged me really hard. "I will introduce you to her soon. She is a really nice woman. I am sure, you won't be disappointed."

"I have no doubts about your choice." I assured him. 

However, the next day I couldn't be happy for Dad as I was for him last night. 

Arcane Miller came to talk to me for the first time. She has always been in my head. Her pale skin, those dark hair and the bangs which cover her forehead, her thin lips, everything about this girl is beautiful. Furthermore, she keeps me on edge. She is not like those girls who go around flaunting their bodies. Instead, she keeps everything hidden in those jeans and hoodie. Those baggy clothes make me even more curious about what she is hiding underneath them. Just from seeing her face, I can tell that she is gorgeous. Whatever she is hiding, it is worth hiding. 

I pushed Ashley aside. The nervousness, the fiddling of fingers and when she bit her lips, everything started to make me hard. 'Fu*k.' I cursed myself and put my hands in the pockets to adjust the ever growing erection. I don't want others to know how much of an effect she has on me. 

I held her hand and dragged her out of there. She is the only girl in this whole damn school who never came to me. Deep down I was disappointed. 'She is no different from others. She also cares about the looks and my money.' I thought. 

"Speak." I could not help but get rude with her. Her whole body trembled at my tone and I felt bad for scaring her. 

''I don't know if you are aware...." She started speaking. There was so much hesitation behind her words that it frustrated me. ''Our parents.... They are marrying-" 

'WHAT!!' Something shattered inside me. It was a relief that she wasn't looking into my eyes otherwise, I am sure she would have seen all those broken pieces of glass. 

''And what does this have to do with me?" My jaws ticked. She has been like my dream girl and what the fu*k is she saying? Her mother..... our parents, are they getting married? And she is going to be my what?? Stepsister?

''Listen, I don't know what your name is-" I couldn't help but pour all of my frustration onto her. This isn't how this is supposed to be. I just started dreaming about her. Why does everything have to turn out this way? 

"I don't care what my Dad does. That's his goddamn life. As long as I can have fun and a luxury life which I need, it doesn't matter. You and your Mom, both of you are going to be a mere addition at my home. Live quietly, that's all I am gonna ask for." 

I don't know what was going through my head at that time. This isn't her fault but I was hurting her. The red and swollen eyes were making me anxious. I wanted to get over this conversation. Most importantly, this is about my Dad. He is getting married soon. While I never made any promises to her before. There was nothing between us and I can get over it. I really can. 

"If anyone will get a whiff of what you are going to be... Trust me that will be your last day in this town. I will show you a true hell.'' I rudely said to her. I don't know what she will make out of my words but I said all of that for her sake. If anyone at school will get to know about this relation between us, her life will get tough and this is the least which I can do for the mere likeness which I have for her.

However, she proved all of my thoughts wrong at the dinner. The way that white lace dress hugged her figure made me gasp. I knew she was beautiful but never realized it would be to this extent. Her boobs were perfectly full and they were big enough to grope while when she turned around, I saw a glimpse of her ass. She was even more perfect than Kardashians. Everything about that girl was flawless. 

During the whole dinner, I could not take my eyes off her. Even her minute movement was grabbing my attention. 

'I don't think I can stay with her.' My inner voice whispered. The temptation of making her mine was too strong that I had no idea what to do. 

"What do you think of Melissa and Arcane?" Dad asked for my opinion while he drove us home. 

"Melissa is great. I like her." I told him but I did not know what to tell him about Arcane. I can't tell him that my stepsister is tempting me to do other things with her and my head is now getting filled with all the thoughts which I shouldn't have. 

"And Arcane? You guys go to the same school. I had no idea." He was taking it as a pleasant surprise. But I think it is unlikely. 

''There are so many students at my school, Dad. I also did not expect my classmate to become my stepsister." Saying it aloud felt more weird and disgusting. 

The smile which Dad was wearing on his face, it faded, "Are you uncomfortable with this?" He asked me seriously. 

"This is a bit shocking." I tried to gather myself, ''And I can't say I am okay with this completely either. But I am trying here Dad." I assured him. 

"Now, I get why Arcane was throwing such a huge tantrum." He murmured to himself but it was loud enough for me to hear and at the mention of Arcane my ear perked up. 

"What do you mean?" Then, something clicked in my mind. Today, she came to me and started a conversation about our parents.... I thought she was trying to get under my skin for the money and status... secondly, I was so hooked on my thoughts that I never put myself in her shoes. If I am okay with their marriage then it doesn't mean she is fine with it also. 

"Arcane does not want her mother to remarry. I talked to Melissa and she told me that her ex-husband was really abusive. After getting drunk, he used to beat Arcane a lot. That's why she is traumatized and that person was her biological father, while I am not. She has her own share of insecurities and concerns. I understand her. So, I have to make efforts to let her know that I am not like him." Dad was telling me the details and never in my wildest dream I thought that she might have faced something this terrible. I felt really bad.

"You should also try to take care of her at school. Show her how much of a gentleman we can be." Dad smiled at me as he said while I nodded my head. 

I seriously don't know what I should be doing. I want to keep my distance with her at the same time, I want to be really close to her. So close that no one has ever been nor anyone will ever be.

I want to be good to her but then I am scared of my feelings that are asking me to do other things. In the battle of heart and mind, I was torn apart. 

"We are home." Dad said to me and only then I realized we are home. 

I stepped out of the car, "Good night, Dad.'' I said to him and went to my room.

I started stripping out of my clothes and stood under the shower. The warm water loosened my tense muscles. I placed my hands on the marbled wall and closed my eyes. Her quiet and soft features flashed by my eyes. The way her thick butterfly-like eyelashes would move up and down, the way she speaks and how the color of her cheeks change, furthermore, her eyes.... they carry a whole fu*king world in them. The tears in those black eyes caused a painful wave to move through my heart. I was the reason behind them and I hate myself for it. 

I looked down just to find myself as hard as a rod. The effect she is having on my heart and d**k that can't be neglected. Absently, my hand moved down to grip my member and I started to pump it up and down. A groan of pleasure accelerated from my throat as I pictured her face, flushed with pleasure. Her eyes rolled up, her face and body sweaty while moans continuously coming out of those pretty lips of hers. 

I sped up. I needed this. My grunts got loud and within minutes, I came hard. I saw a long line of thick and sticky substance on the marbled wall. My breath was heavy and then reality hit me. 

"What the fu*k did I just do?" My eyes fly open.