Prologue:
Love is a thrill ride. Love is a battlefield. Love is a fragile flower opening to the warmth of spring
He is a shining star. He is a night owl. His heart is a cold iron.
Our lives came screeching to a halt. Time marches to the beat of its own drum. The words appeared to leap off of the paper as he read the story.
He did not realize that his last chance was walking out the door.
Falling in love with your best friend is challenging.
You fall in love without any reason.
You fall in love with his gesticulations. Sweet gestures you gave intenser meaning.
How about you? Have you experienced falling in love with your best friend? How was it? Is it hard?
Did you try to confess your true feelings? If yes, how’s the outcome? Is your friendship being still okay and strong? Or there are discomfiture and gaucherie in between of your friendship?
If not, maybe you're like me because I've been hiding my feelings for a long time. Why? I have countless reasons.
I was frightened he might get away when he found out.
I fear that our one-year friendship might shatter.
I am afraid of people's judgment.
The most difficult is when I gradually fall in love with my friend. It's even harder because as time goes by I can’t control my feelings anymore...
He’s just nothing for me before. He’s only just an acquaintance. A classmate. But I didn’t notice that my feelings commenced developing.
The wind shifted. I ate what I’ve said before. I don’t know why I treat him differently. I don’t know why I fell in love with him.
Maybe it's because I knew he was a genuine and generous man and I had a chance to investigate his traits. He has the qualities I’ve been looking for in a man.
I did everything for him. He makes me happy, he helped me with my studies, he gave me a reason to fall in love with the most sensible person I know.
But...
I fell for him but I didn't know my friend had fallen for him either.
This is my fault why my friend fell for him. I introduced my friend to him and I never knew my friend would like the person I love.
It was great at the very start
Even when I know it's wrong, tell me, how can I
keep holding on?
I’m scared to be lonely.
I will not force my feelings if you are not the only one, I will eventually love for the rest of my life.
You are the reason why I get up in the morning, the purpose of my simper every time I am glad and dripping of my tears because of crying alone. If it wasn't for you, then I wouldn't have to try to hope for the two of us.
I cannot control my heart every time you are by my side. My heart pounds aggressively whenever I glanced at you.
I know it's wrong but I'll wait for you.
Hopefully, at the last moment, notice my heart that never stopped loving you.
What if I confess my feelings and you also have feelings for me?
I know it’s absurd and impossible...
Can't say how I feel
Couldn't come, just nervous for what I was undergoing
I can’t move, I can just only gawk. Glaring in your copper-coloured peepers, bushy brows and nice-looking features
I will never forget the appearance of your face etched into my cognisance. You are the light in the gloom, the light of the murky world. Light in my restless heart.
Welcome to the story of unspoken truth and hidden feelings, pain and regrets.
CHAPTER 1.1Lou’s Point of View“It’s so hot in the Philippines! What the heck! I hate the summer season!” I said while wiping my sweat.
CHAPTER 1.2One week before the classes, I went to school before going to the mall to buy school supplies. I know it’s a rush since the vacation will be over next week. For sure, there will be a long line on each cashier.There is an event currently in our school. It’s a one-week event and usuall
CHAPTER 2.1Lou’s Point of View*ting-ting-ting-ting*I opened my eyes as I heard my alarm clock. I can’t believe today i
CHAPTER 2.2I stood up and greeted them. “Hello, freakin’ classmates! It’s been a while since the last time we’re in the same class!” The last time we’re in one class is on 8th Grade.“You’re so stagy!” Cecilia said while her eyes are wide.
CHAPTER 3.1Lou’s Point of View2 weeks after...
CHAPTER 3.2“Since we don’t have no remaining time left, be ready for the quiz! Goodbye, 10 Locsin!” He leaves our classroom and Ma’am Pescadero---our English teacher entered.“Okay, good morning 10 Locsin! As I said yesterday, you’re going to present your assignment in front of the class. I will call random students using your index cards!” tha
CHAPTER 4.1Lou’s Point of ViewToday is Friday. Most favorite day of mine. Thank God it’s Friday!!! I can rest from tasks.
CHAPTER 4.2We went to the canteen to buy a footlong with a bun. We call thisfootlong sandwich.“Thanks!” and he smiled at me again.
FINAL CHAPTER – THE HIDDEN TRUTHTHE CONFESSIONLOULiezel and I went home late. Since our meetup at Caye’s house is later at 3 pm, I went home at 1 pm. I still have a lot of time to prepare today.I went directly to the comfort room to take a bath. We will be also going to celebrate the release of the music video. I am a bit nervous today but I shouldn’t waste this chance anymore.I feel bad for myself for not informing Eloisa of what will happen today. Right after this confession, everything will go back to what it used to be.Right after I take a bath, I went to my closet and get the clothes I am going to wear today. I am going to wear a plain black shirt from Uniqlo and monogram pants from Louis Vuitton.I went to the sneaker section of my closet and get the D-Connect Sneaker from Dior. I wear it and looked at myself in the mirror.
CHAPTER 122GRADE 7 FRIENDSLOUTime passes fast. One week has been passed since Jane’s birthday. I edited the music video within one week and thankfully, I finished it on time days before the confession.I already uploaded it on YouTube and set it to be published on April 24th. Two years ago, the same day, this where Gio and I talked about Saint George Academy. We had a deal that he will take the STEM strand while I’ll go with the HUMSS strand.On April 30th, it’s the two-year celebration of the sign I wished that if I will be able to get into that school, I will confess my feelings to him after two years. Now, it is real
CHAPTER 121.2LOU“Let me placed my bag there,” I told them and put it on the vacant space. Gio looked at my bag and he gets it.“Woah, this is heavy. What is the stuff inside?” he questioned and opened it. His eyes widened when he opens the bag.“It’s just a phone and wallet? Why is this heavy?”“It’s because it’s a leather bag and expensive” Eloisa replied to him.“Why leather is this? Answer it if you know” Joshua teases Eloisa that makes her silent.Gio gets my phone and as usual, he’s going to have a photo again. “Let me have a picture here huh?”“As if I can do something since you’re already holding it” I replied to him casually and everyone laughs.I get some pasta, rice cake and a pizza from the table. When I saw there is a barbeque, I get two sticks as
CHAPTER 121.1JANE’S DEBUTLOUCaye: So, when will you confess your feelings, Lou?I think for a while before responding to her message. The next chance that we will be able to see each other again will be on Jane’s birthday but I am still doubting about it since Eloisa will be there that day.Lou: I will try it on Jane’s birthday. That might be our last meetup before I leave Laguna.Lester: Make sure that you’re going to do it that day or else, I’ll be the one who will tell Gio about it. This is a challenge for you.Lou: All right. I’ll be doing it once Eloisa isn’t there.Caye: Why don’t you say it to her as well? Maybe she would support you?Lou: This doesn’t mean that I don’t trust her. I am just un
CHAPTER 120THE MUSIC VIDEO SHOOTINGLOUAPRIL 2021“Help me Pia with the green screens,” I told Pia who is assisting me today here in the studio. We are going to shoot here some green screen footage. We are also set up another green screen on the veranda for later.She helped me with the green screens. While she’s doing it, I went to the lights and plugged it on the socket to see if there’s any shadow once a subject went in front of the green screen. Gladly, it’s not.After a while, it is now finally done. I went to my room to get the clothes I’ll let Gio wear in the shoot. He already used some of it on the pageant in our previous school. Since he doesn’t have any photos of it, I’ll let him wear it again.I am also planning to make him the cover of the story. I asked his permission and he agreed with it. He even
CHAPTER 119THE LAST SHOOT IS HAPPENINGLOUWeeks after, the song was released on digital music services. We didn’t make it before the release of the song the reason I haven’t uploaded anything on that day. In the meantime, we launched several teasers and posters for it while we are preparing for the shooting.Now is April and we will shoot tomorrow. I already informed Gio about everything he needs to bring. That would be the last shoot for this music video.The target date of the music video release was any day in May. I need to do have time while I am editing the shots.Since our place has been placed again of Enhanced Community Quarantine, we aren’t allowed to went to different places if not important and necessary. We also have a curfew for each barangay here in our province.We are running out of time so I came up with other methods. The only m
CHAPTER 118DOUBTLOUA couple of weeks after. It’s now in the third week of March but we haven’t continued our shooting yet.We are now running out of time. Our destination for our shoot is Batangas and Alabang. Since I am the producer of this music video as well, I will be the one who’s in charge of the expenses.“What date is now? The music video will be released on the 30th of March. We need to do something since the editing will take a lot of time.” I told myself while looking in the mirror. I get my phone from my table and messaged Eloisa.Lou
CHAPTER 117.2THE CONTINUATION“What is our story about?” Shyra asked.“It’s a unique story for me. You will be found out that too soon!” And he smiled again devilishly.We heard a bell. We turned around and saw an ice-cream vendor passing behind us.“I want ice-cream! Shall we?” Marielle invited.“Let’s go!” Shyra replied and they ran towards the direction of the ice-cream vendor.“Wait for me guys!” Joshua shouted and he runs in their direction.“Wait, I want it too!” I said and went in its direction. Gio followed me. I look in the cart of the dirty ice-cream vendor and I was amazed at the flavors.“Gosh! Cheese, chocolate, and strawberry!” I said in amazement. I get my wallet to bring out cash. When I opened it, I frowned my face afterward. Jeez.“Why, what’s wro
CHAPTER 117.1THE MEMORIES OF THE PASTLOU“You know what, I’ve been dreaming of Gio lately. I don’t know what does it mean” I told Lester and Caye while they are here on our house. They just suddenly pass by to our house because they went to our school during Junior High. They get the necessary and remaining documents they need to pass on their present school.“Maybe it is the sign to confess?” Caye questioned while she’s drinking a juice.“I don’t know either.”“Are you ready to confess any time soon?” I think about what Lester questioned me. Am I ready to confess my feelings to him? Or I am just pressured because of the things happening around me.“I am hesitant though. I am having doubts on my mind”“Why? Are there any problems?” Caye asked worriedly. I sighed d