BLAIRWas I crazy for letting him kiss me? Yes.Did I feel crazy for doing that? Also yes.And will I do it again if given the option? Yes. Yes and yes.I don’t know what came over Lucian but he wasn’t acting like this usual self. There was a stronger aura, some kind of force behind him after he woke up. And while I should have run for my life when I saw how dark this eyes had looked. I found myself wanting to know why that was.So as you can guess, curiosity won and I stayed back.Only, the answer that I managed to get from that was. The reality was far better than my imaginations.Lips locking. Teeth nibbling and biting. Hands, grasping, groping any piece of flesh it could find. He’d roughly asked me.“Couch or desk?”His lips returned to mine, rough and hungry. His kisses were feral. Like he couldn’t get enough. Like the next lip lock between me and him was the breath of fresh air he needed to remain alive. And I very well couldn’t be the cause of the death of a man.I wouldn’t be
LUCIAN“You seem distracted.”Owen pats my back, walking around the bench in the gym to sit beside me. I barely looked at him, my attention not in the room I was in.“Damn. What are you thinking about?” He gives my shoulders a rough shake.Rough enough to wake a damn whale from hibernation. I turned to glare at him. He raises his hands up in surrender, not looking sorry in the least.“What?” I grit out.“What, what?” He asks, stressing the second word.“You’re getting on my nerves. What do you want?” I growled in annoyance. He was more than getting on my nerves.While I’m aware my anger has nothing to do with him. I was just generally pissed off.“Tell me what is wrong.” Owen of course, urged. Never taking the hint or reading the room. “Is it the baby?”I turned, ready to snap at him. But then I saw the worried look in his eyes.I shouldn’t be a dick to him when he is just being nice and being worried about Blair and the baby. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair.“She is fine. The
BLAIRI was on the phone with Sasha. Who was going off about all the preparation she was making for school, when I heard a knock on the door.“Give me a sec,” I told her as I stood up and headed to open it.I forgot to open the door after Jaya left. I have been closing it for the past three days. Since after what happened in Lucian’s office.I have tried this before and it didn’t work, but now I’m going to make sure it works. Which is why I’ve been trying to desensitize myself against Lucian and anything related to him. You may think I should be doing this by working closely with him, to be sure I won’t fall for him again.Self reflection and admittance made me accept, I can’t do that. I lose all my senses and control when he is near. I’ll do this from afar and just hope he stays away from me forever.It isn’t a solid plan, but it is all I have right now.When I pulled the door open, I wasn’t expecting the last person I wanted to see to be standing right outside. I thought Jaya said s
BLAIR“Honeymoon?” I urged my voice to come out calm and Lucian nodded, affirming what I heard.There had to be some kind of language barrier because why would he suggest that.“Why?” I blurt out without thinking.He knows this marriage is just on paper. Okay, maybe not entirely but we don’t like each other.I always thought a honeymoon was something people who were actually in love and happy to be married looked forward to going on. We were always fighting and we didn’t like each other. I can’t stress this enough.Or did I miss something?The thought of this being more than what it seems has my stomach knotting in anxiety. Lucian doesn’t share the same sentiment because he looks as cool as a cucumber.How could one person wreck me with words, without even having to do much and he just sits there. So relaxed while I’m silently going crazy?“Well, it would be more like a babymoon?” He says, sounding as unsure as I was about everything going on with us.He sounds like he is just graspin
BLAIR“I want you to do this, right but are you sure you want to? With him?” Mikayla asked after we’ve hashed through the plan over and over again.“I’m only going to be married for the first time once. Might as well do it.” I replied with a shrug.She purses her lips thoughtfully before nodding.“I understand,” she says with a small smile. “I know it would be even more amazing than we pictured.”I giggled, looking down at the video I had pulled up on my laptop. She was right, it is going to be the best.“Who would have actually thought you’d be the first one to be married? You were always going on about living life and thoroughly killing your twenties.”I smiled, remembering when I’d made that comment when I turned twenty.Then I never thought I would be here. And if anyone said it to my face, I would have laughed and called them crazy. Then proceed to take them to a psych ward. Heck, even five months ago.How life changes in a very short span was both wonderful and scary.“I know yo
LUCIANWhen Blair walked into my office two days later, I already knew what she was going to say. Call it a hunch, or maybe it was damn obvious. If she wanted to say no, she wouldn’t go through the trouble of coming down here by herself.Since she was still doing everything she could to stay away from me.She looked around the office, her arms wrapped around her with a look I couldn’t place.“Everything okay?” I tried not to sound too excited.Owen has been bugging me to ask her what her reply was. But I told him I wasn’t going to push her. I’ll respect whatever she says. Just like I told her I would. He didn’t like that and I had no idea why he was even so excited. And more nervous too, than I was about this.“Yes, can we talk?” She asked almost hesitantly.I quickly get up from my desk and walk to the couch. Thinking of the last time we were in here together, told me sitting behind the desk wasn’t going to be a good idea. Even if it hid my hard on from her.I suddenly didn’t mind he
BLAIRI didn’t understand why Jaya was acting really weird. And when I asked why she was acting strange, she said it was nothing.I’m not saying she is lying. But I know she isn’t telling me the full truth. Probably trying to protect me because she seemed nervous if anything.“Is the Tribe really that bad?”I asked as she walked back from the closet where she was looking for something for me to wear.“The tribe?” She looked confused. I realized what I’d said and chuckled.“The family.” I mentally call them the tribe.“Oh, not bad per se, just annoying.” I tucked my bottom lip into my mouth, watching her closely.That had been exactly what Lucian said. I was seriously starting to get worried now.“Do I have anything to worry about, maybe something I should do or shouldn’t do in their presence?” She shakes her head.“Just…” she starts then stops and turns to me. She does a slow perusal of me from head to toe then she shakes her head. “Lucian doesn't want them to know about the baby.”“A
BLAIRJaya wasn’t kidding when she said Emily knew how to do makeup. When she was done, she nervously told me to look in the mirror. I’ll admit I was a little scared at first but when I’d faced the mirror, I was pleasantly surprised.The makeup was light and natural. And it was more focused on highlighting my features.“I didn’t know I was this pretty.” I said, still admiring her hard work in the mirror. Emily and Jaya both laughed at that. “Really, Emily, thank you so much. I love it.”I got up and pulled her into a hug.“I’m glad. And you can call me Em.” She smiled. “That’s what family calls me.”I smiled even though my lips wobbled for a reason I couldn’t tell.“Okay, I can’t wait anymore. We need to see the dress.” Jaya claps, making us move back and go to check the outfit.Since the makeup was nude, even down to my lips, we hadn’t bothered to check what Lucian picked out. Somehow I trusted him enough to not even be bothered.If what he picked out for me for the ball said anythin