CHAPTER 62
I don't know if I'm now crazy because I am hallucinating too much or anything. I was so sure that someone whispered me that words! Someone's voice entered my mind and whispered! And no one can't do that other than...him.
I closed my eyes intently and stared at the ceiling of my bedroom.
'I love you...my luna'
I am sure that it was Alqamar's voice. It was Alqamar. He said luna. It means moon! I shook my head and erased that thought.
It's impossible! All these years...I believed that he left this world already. I saw him soaking with blood five years ago. He was...there...lying...
I stopped thinking about that and shook my head more. I don't want to think about that anymore. The more I think about it the more pain I will felt. So I have to stop right here.
I didn't get enough sleep because of that. That's why I scheduled an appoinment to my therapist again.
"What's the problem this time?" She asked. I sighed a
CHAPTER 63Ronald never leaves my mind after that and the fact that Cristine here in the city makes me awake at night. I still remember the last time we see each other. Her eyes were full of anger and hatred towards me. It was understandble because she likes Alqamar for a long time.The next day I went to work early so that I can have time to think about everything and to wait for Ronald. I have to know where is Cristine right now. Cristine might be still angry at me but I have to talk to her. I want to know about Gray, Fin and Rael. I've been thinking about them these past few years.I was in a deep thought when I saw Ronald putting his white coat on him."Ronald!" I called him and stood up. He looks at me. He smiled shortly and went to me. Ronald changed a lot. Everything in him is now different. Ronald is now a hot bachelor. A hot doctor."You wait for me?" He asked. I nodded."You said that you're chasing for Cristine-""So you kn
CHAPTER 64Everything is new to me in this place. I feel unfamiliar but I am happy to see new things in my life. Somehow I feel happy. A tour guide was guiding us to tour around in this place and of course our last destination is in the Himalayas where we can see the highest mountain in the world, the mount Everest.The tour guide introduced us the different culture and beautiful destination here in Nepal. I took every pictures in every destination we went."What is this?" I asked when I saw a beautiful painting, though it's a bit confusing because of an undefined usage of the shapes. But the colors that used was spectacular."Are you asking about the painting's name?" The tour guide asked. I nodded while still staring at the painting. The painting has a color gray circle whirls in the middle and below that whirls is a confusing shape with different colors. The painter is amazing."It's called 'the full moon'," I blinked twice. My brows furrowed wh
CHAPTER 65I keep asking myself if I am just hallucinating or what? I saw him right with my two eyes. It was him. I couldn't be mistaken. But what if my eyes are just playing tricks on me? I would be broken hearted again. I would miss him again. I would find him again. I would seek for him again.I opened my eyes slowly. I felt weak after waking up. My head hurts as soon as I sat down on the bed I am lying. I held my head and stop for a while. Wait. On the bed? I roam around my eyes and realized that I am now inside my hotel room!My heart boomed loudly. What am I doing here? The last thing I remember I was in the mount Everest...I lost my way...and then...I closed my eyes when I remember Alqamar again. It can't be. Maybe I was just imagining that time because I was in the edge of dying. My heart hurt thinking that it was him I only think before I lost my consciousness.But...who found me in that mount Everest? Did the tour guide search for me and then se
CHAPTER 66Trust? Who?I can't understand what Gray were saying. I am trying to process everything but what he meant is beyond me.Gray left me with questions in my mind. Who do I need to trust? Who's that person I needed to trust?I want to find Gray and ask for more but I don't have any means to contact him. I can't approach or talk to Cristine because she was busy and...I know she's angry at me. She's blaming me for what happened. I am also blaming myself and I really am guilty for everything so I couldn't find any reason to get mad at her. Because she has all the means to hate me. And I understand her.I continuously did my work and day by day Gray's words are making me confused. I can't let it pass. My mind is still processing that words but it was like a puzzle and even though I am nearly getting it in a whole there's still a missing pieces.As usual I overtime to my duty because I have to be. My shift now is in midnight so I have to c
CHAPTER 67It was him. It's Alqamar. Well and alive in front of me. My heart beat faster as our eyes met. I can't keep my eyes away from him. I can't help but to stare at him, watched him and gaze my eyes every corner of his face.But his warmth feels just like second when he pulled me away from the tree and make me stand there. He looked at me straight through my eye. I swallowed."Stay here," his voice echoed in my ear. I feel like it's been a million years since I last heard his familiar and soothing voice. At last, I feel like home. At last, I found my home.I didn't had the chance to talk to him when he just walked away from me and turn himself into his wolf form and attacked the wolf who was been hurting Cristine.Tears rolled down my eyes because I am seeing him again fighting with his kind. I can't stand watching him like this. I gritted my teeth as they keep fighting in front of me.My hands are cold, my feet are pinned onto the gro
CHAPTER 68Maybe some time I'll find a way through him again. Maybe some other time we'll find each other again. I wanted so much to touch him and hugged him like I used to do. But how can I, when I know danger is coming whenever I get close to him?I am always the reason. I always put him in danger. Before, I was the reason why people found them in that forest. Dad was so protective of me and I was stubborn. That's why it happened. And now, I am greedy and weak, so he protected me even if it means putting himself in danger again.I always cause him trouble and I don't want it to be that way. So it's all over. I should stick to my decision and stay away from him because the more I get close to him the more he'll be hurt.It was a painful decision. I was waiting for his come back. I was hoping to see him alive again...but now, he's alive and finally saw him again, I have to stay away from him. Maybe the Goddess of the moon got mistaken for making me as Alq
CHAPTER 69Mom and dad asked me about why I didn't went home last night and where I spend my night. I don't have any choice but to lie with them. I rested the whole day inside my room and think about the whole thing. My mind is in chaos right now. It was haywired. I can't think right. I feel like I am in the middle of the electric wires and it is now ready to strike me any moment right now.Because of too much thinking I fell asleep. When I woke up it's already 5 pm. I have to get up and be ready for my duty. As usual I wore my all white uniform. I kissed mom and dad goodbye before going to work.I focused myself in my work and tried to forget everything. I have to forget everything to go on with my life. If I can just escape time...and go to the place where I can be alone and didn't feel scared.I hope I can. I hope I will.Break time came and as usual I spend it in the rooftop to watched the stars and moon shined from above. I felt at peace whene
CHAPTER 70My mind is not in the right state right now. Something is urging me to go back with him and told him I also want him. But damn...I can't. I just can't.My days went back to normal. One week had passed and I never seen Alqamar again. I saw Cristine once, talking with Ronald but she's not with Alqamar. I shouldn't have searching for him right now. I already pushed him away and seeking for him like this won't make me any better."Did you eat lunch already?" I almost jumped in shock when Ronald came behind me. I sighed heavily. I am here in front of an emergency room, running some errand. I didn't noticed that I already spaced out.."Yes..." I answered lazily. I sighed again. He sat beside me and watched my face. I ignore him and just stare at the white wall of this hospital."You're spacing out these past week. What are you thinking?" He asked. I shook my head and sighed again."I'm fine," I sounded so drained."Is it because
EPILOGUELooking back to all the things that happened, it seems worth it now. After the accident I woke up with a headache and the first person I saw was a man wearing his white lab coat. He told me that his name was Ronald Madrigal, and I had an accident. At first, I couldn’t believe it. How could I have an accident when I know that I have the greatest power among all my pack? And I am the alpha. But then…I noticed how I clearly remember my childhood memories and the night where I saw my parents soaking with blood but other than that…I remember nothing.I feel like I was stuck in that particular memory and it’s tormenting my mind. It was frustrating to only know a bit of yourself. I remember Fin, Gray, Rael and Cristine because they are part of my memories when I was still young but…I didn’t even remember how I got an accident! Damn!“Don’t stress yourself too much, Alqamar. Your memories will be
CHAPTER 120“When are you planning to go back, Alqamar?” I heard Cristine asked while I am watching the trees danced with the wind. It was still vivid to me. The things that happened and how I almost lost my life in that unfaithful night. And…how I watched Lexis cry while darkness is eating my whole system.I had the choice to go back and tell Lexis that I am alive but it’s not easy at it’s seem. I’ve learned my lesson. Carlos is still alive and probably waiting for his attacks if he finds out that I am alive. When everyone thought that I was killed Carlos stopped chasing and targeting Lexis. It only means one thing. I am the only one he needs and my come back is his trigger to use Lexis again as my weakness. So, I have to remain hidden and just like before…watched Lexis from afar.I don’t want to go back to the days where I was still looking at her from afar but it’s still happening right, an
CHAPTER 119It wasn’t easy. Every time she’ll ask about my identity or my past makes me anxious. Thinking that once I told her everything she’ll slip away. And it’s even harder when I found out that Herman and Carlos’ group is planning of an attack against Lexis. So, for the mean time I told Lexis that I’ll leave. She assured me that she loves me. She made love to me, and I know that finally, she loves me back. Finally, I claimed her and she’s officially mine now, forever.“Are you seriously going alone, Alqamar?” Cristine asked me with her raising tone while I am packing my things. I already told Lexis about it and even she wants to know my real reason she still managed to keep herself silent. And I regret that I still need to keep this a secret. Maybe I was just really afraid that she would leave me if she found out the truth.“Yes. I know I can handle them better alone,” I said co
CHAPTER 118I tried to pursue her. Followed her wherever she goes. I wanted to be there for her. That’s why I tried so hard to be near her. I am sure that she’s smart and I didn’t know why she had a low score in her quiz but maybe fate is on my side that I took that chance to get her attention only to me, not with anyone but to me."I'm gonna schedule a tutorial for you so you'll understand-""No!" she cut me off when I tried to suggest that. I just want to help her or maybe I did have a secret intention, but I am serious that I want to help her. Our eyes met. I gave her a serious eye and she was just staring at me like she was in the middle of a deep thought about me. I sighed."What's wrong with that?" I asked. I really don’t get it. It’s more convenient to her."I'll just ask Ronald for it. You don't have to schedule anything," she said.My jaw clenched. I really hate how she’s gotten close
CHAPTER 117The next morning, I woke up early moving forward to the second day of class. I didn’t know that it will be more fun than what I expected. Already carrying my bag and other things when I saw Rael, Fin and Gray inside my house. My new house that I bought last week. I planned to stay here until I am still teaching at the school. I will just visit the village when weekends.“How did you all enter my house?” my brows furrowed while staring at the three who were sitting comfortably in my couch. These three has nothing to do with their lives.“You didn’t lock the doors,” Gray said. Rael smirked at me.“Your house is huge, we can stay here, right?” Rael’s twinkling eyes looked at me. I raised my brow at him, he noticed it that made him looked away.“Yeah right…we can’t,” he answered in his own question.“You’ll work?” Fin asked
CHAPTER 116I parked my car in the parking lot of the school. I sighed heavily when I saw the students coming inside the school. I can’t believe that I am here. I must be crazy. I looked at myself in the mirror before coming out of my car. I went straight at the faculty and checked my schedule. I unconsciously smiled when I saw that my first schedule is Lexis’ section.But my smile faded when I remember something. She’ll see me again. As her professor. Would she recognize me? What if she recognizes me and run for hill to hide from me? Because she’s scared? I gritted my teeth. I hope it won’t happen though. I would rather want her to not recognize me and remain to be a stranger to her. Goddamn it! Am I masochist?I sighed heavily and collected my things to attend my first class. I can feel everyone’s eyes on me. I am used to it but…they are college students. They should look at me with respect and not&helli
CHAPTER 115I can sense her presence now. I just saw her car arrived at her grandmother’s ancestral home. I watched her guided by her parents and her grandma who looks shocked of seeing her. I stared at her grandma. She looks familiar but I shrugged it off when I saw Cristine watching me. I stood up straight and looked away from Lexis’ direction.“I was right. You’re here,” she said and raised a brow at me. I ignore her and walk like nothing happened. I am going now to the village. It’s enough for me that I saw her safely arrived.“What do you need?” I asked when I felt her followed me.“Do you have plans? You know that Herman and Carlos are allies to bring you down, right?” She asked calmly. I sighed. I have plans but it’s not necessary to tell her anymore.“What are your plans? Make Lexis fall in love with you first and then tell her the truth and finally you&rs
CHAPTER 114After I send her home, I immediately washed myself. I feel like her puke is all over me. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold water dripped down my body. Watching her closer like that makes me insane. It’s been years since I last watched her close like that and she was just a young girl back then. Now that she’s and a grown woman I can’t help but to feel crazy over her.I woke up at dawn and the sun hasn’t risen yet when I drove myself towards San Isidro. I have a house in the city if ever I don’t want to go home yet or won’t be able to go back early. This province is an hour far away from the city. I parked the car in my usual place and walks towards the village.Everyone greeted me as soon as they saw me. I just nodded every time. I don’t have any plans today and I think I’ll go back in the city during Lexis’ graduation. I’ve never missed every celebration she has. I was alway
CHAPTER 113I woke up feeling awful the next day. My head is spinning like crazy. I don’t know but I felt cold. Damn! I am not usually like this. Maybe because I let myself in the rain yesterday? Well, wolves can also possibly catch a cold, but it will just pass by like before.I get up from the bed and changed my clothes before going out. Everyone made away for my arrival until I stopped in front of them, I saw my whole pack waiting for me to speak. I sighed and started to elaborate the things I wanted to say.“First of all, I wanted to compliment…Carlos’ group for guarding the boarders of this province, the other wolf pack wouldn’t have the chance to cross the island because of that,” I said and looked at Carlos and beside him is Herman. Carlos just nodded courteously at me. There’s a reason why I’d give that mission to him. So, that he will be far away from my pack while I’m investigating hi