CHAPTER 65
I keep asking myself if I am just hallucinating or what? I saw him right with my two eyes. It was him. I couldn't be mistaken. But what if my eyes are just playing tricks on me? I would be broken hearted again. I would miss him again. I would find him again. I would seek for him again.
I opened my eyes slowly. I felt weak after waking up. My head hurts as soon as I sat down on the bed I am lying. I held my head and stop for a while. Wait. On the bed? I roam around my eyes and realized that I am now inside my hotel room!
My heart boomed loudly. What am I doing here? The last thing I remember I was in the mount Everest...I lost my way...and then...I closed my eyes when I remember Alqamar again. It can't be. Maybe I was just imagining that time because I was in the edge of dying. My heart hurt thinking that it was him I only think before I lost my consciousness.
But...who found me in that mount Everest? Did the tour guide search for me and then se
CHAPTER 66Trust? Who?I can't understand what Gray were saying. I am trying to process everything but what he meant is beyond me.Gray left me with questions in my mind. Who do I need to trust? Who's that person I needed to trust?I want to find Gray and ask for more but I don't have any means to contact him. I can't approach or talk to Cristine because she was busy and...I know she's angry at me. She's blaming me for what happened. I am also blaming myself and I really am guilty for everything so I couldn't find any reason to get mad at her. Because she has all the means to hate me. And I understand her.I continuously did my work and day by day Gray's words are making me confused. I can't let it pass. My mind is still processing that words but it was like a puzzle and even though I am nearly getting it in a whole there's still a missing pieces.As usual I overtime to my duty because I have to be. My shift now is in midnight so I have to c
CHAPTER 67It was him. It's Alqamar. Well and alive in front of me. My heart beat faster as our eyes met. I can't keep my eyes away from him. I can't help but to stare at him, watched him and gaze my eyes every corner of his face.But his warmth feels just like second when he pulled me away from the tree and make me stand there. He looked at me straight through my eye. I swallowed."Stay here," his voice echoed in my ear. I feel like it's been a million years since I last heard his familiar and soothing voice. At last, I feel like home. At last, I found my home.I didn't had the chance to talk to him when he just walked away from me and turn himself into his wolf form and attacked the wolf who was been hurting Cristine.Tears rolled down my eyes because I am seeing him again fighting with his kind. I can't stand watching him like this. I gritted my teeth as they keep fighting in front of me.My hands are cold, my feet are pinned onto the gro
CHAPTER 68Maybe some time I'll find a way through him again. Maybe some other time we'll find each other again. I wanted so much to touch him and hugged him like I used to do. But how can I, when I know danger is coming whenever I get close to him?I am always the reason. I always put him in danger. Before, I was the reason why people found them in that forest. Dad was so protective of me and I was stubborn. That's why it happened. And now, I am greedy and weak, so he protected me even if it means putting himself in danger again.I always cause him trouble and I don't want it to be that way. So it's all over. I should stick to my decision and stay away from him because the more I get close to him the more he'll be hurt.It was a painful decision. I was waiting for his come back. I was hoping to see him alive again...but now, he's alive and finally saw him again, I have to stay away from him. Maybe the Goddess of the moon got mistaken for making me as Alq
CHAPTER 69Mom and dad asked me about why I didn't went home last night and where I spend my night. I don't have any choice but to lie with them. I rested the whole day inside my room and think about the whole thing. My mind is in chaos right now. It was haywired. I can't think right. I feel like I am in the middle of the electric wires and it is now ready to strike me any moment right now.Because of too much thinking I fell asleep. When I woke up it's already 5 pm. I have to get up and be ready for my duty. As usual I wore my all white uniform. I kissed mom and dad goodbye before going to work.I focused myself in my work and tried to forget everything. I have to forget everything to go on with my life. If I can just escape time...and go to the place where I can be alone and didn't feel scared.I hope I can. I hope I will.Break time came and as usual I spend it in the rooftop to watched the stars and moon shined from above. I felt at peace whene
CHAPTER 70My mind is not in the right state right now. Something is urging me to go back with him and told him I also want him. But damn...I can't. I just can't.My days went back to normal. One week had passed and I never seen Alqamar again. I saw Cristine once, talking with Ronald but she's not with Alqamar. I shouldn't have searching for him right now. I already pushed him away and seeking for him like this won't make me any better."Did you eat lunch already?" I almost jumped in shock when Ronald came behind me. I sighed heavily. I am here in front of an emergency room, running some errand. I didn't noticed that I already spaced out.."Yes..." I answered lazily. I sighed again. He sat beside me and watched my face. I ignore him and just stare at the white wall of this hospital."You're spacing out these past week. What are you thinking?" He asked. I shook my head and sighed again."I'm fine," I sounded so drained."Is it because
CHAPTER 71I don't know what to do now. My mind is in turmoil while staring at my reflection in the mirror wearing my white uniform. I am now off to work but I am nervous. I'm nervous for no apparent reason. I am just nervous.Is this because of my conversation with Alqamar last night? He told me it's fine that I push him away but he won't stop either. What am I gonna do? What should I do? I don't know if I'll continue avoiding him or stick with him.If I'd stick with him the situation will get worsen. Carlos might still didn't know that Alqamar is now back because Gino, the wolf that Alqamar killed is now unable to report to him. Carlos would realize it and he'll probably send someone again.But if I stay away, Carlos will probably not hurt my family. If I act that I doesn't care with Alqamar anymore and convinced Alqamar to stay hidden then everything will be back to normal like five years ago.Damn! Why does it have to be like this?!I si
CHAPTER 72Our kisses were hungry and full of wanting. Our desire for each other is like no other that even our breath can say it all on how much we wanted each other.His hands are now all over my body. One on my thighs, softly massaging my tingling skin and the other is on my chest, reaching my valley. I moaned in pleasure as his kisses went down on my neck and reached my soft spot. I missed him so much that I couldn't control myself anymore. I want him so much that my rational mind is slowly drifting apart."Ahh..." I moaned softly when he bit my skin on my collarbone. Damn it. I swallowed hard when he stopped and stared at my face. I am embarrassed that my face is shouting for needs. I am embarrassed that after pushing him away, I am now in front of him, strangling my legs around his waist and so ready for him. I feel like a cold ice pour down my system after he stopped kissing me.I was about to went down my feet when he stopped me. I stopped and loo
CHAPTER 73I can't believe that Fin is the spy. I know that Fin can able to survive this but it is still dangerous. What if Carlos would get suspected of him and kill him in the end? It is a damn gamble and Fin's life would get in danger any moment.After eating our lunch Alqamar told me that he has something to do and just come back later when my work finishes.I know I can't avoid him anymore. No matter how much I try to push him away I will just hurt him and I will just hurt myself. And I don't want to stay away from him anymore. I know it's selfish and probably dangerous but I can't stop myself from coming to him. I feel like there's magnet that keeps pulling me towards him.But still, I have to be cautious and remain the distance between us. Any moment now, any days or hours Carlos might found out that he's alive and it will be a big disaster. And even we have Fin spying on them, we still can't tell the possibilities. Everything isn't under our contr
EPILOGUELooking back to all the things that happened, it seems worth it now. After the accident I woke up with a headache and the first person I saw was a man wearing his white lab coat. He told me that his name was Ronald Madrigal, and I had an accident. At first, I couldn’t believe it. How could I have an accident when I know that I have the greatest power among all my pack? And I am the alpha. But then…I noticed how I clearly remember my childhood memories and the night where I saw my parents soaking with blood but other than that…I remember nothing.I feel like I was stuck in that particular memory and it’s tormenting my mind. It was frustrating to only know a bit of yourself. I remember Fin, Gray, Rael and Cristine because they are part of my memories when I was still young but…I didn’t even remember how I got an accident! Damn!“Don’t stress yourself too much, Alqamar. Your memories will be
CHAPTER 120“When are you planning to go back, Alqamar?” I heard Cristine asked while I am watching the trees danced with the wind. It was still vivid to me. The things that happened and how I almost lost my life in that unfaithful night. And…how I watched Lexis cry while darkness is eating my whole system.I had the choice to go back and tell Lexis that I am alive but it’s not easy at it’s seem. I’ve learned my lesson. Carlos is still alive and probably waiting for his attacks if he finds out that I am alive. When everyone thought that I was killed Carlos stopped chasing and targeting Lexis. It only means one thing. I am the only one he needs and my come back is his trigger to use Lexis again as my weakness. So, I have to remain hidden and just like before…watched Lexis from afar.I don’t want to go back to the days where I was still looking at her from afar but it’s still happening right, an
CHAPTER 119It wasn’t easy. Every time she’ll ask about my identity or my past makes me anxious. Thinking that once I told her everything she’ll slip away. And it’s even harder when I found out that Herman and Carlos’ group is planning of an attack against Lexis. So, for the mean time I told Lexis that I’ll leave. She assured me that she loves me. She made love to me, and I know that finally, she loves me back. Finally, I claimed her and she’s officially mine now, forever.“Are you seriously going alone, Alqamar?” Cristine asked me with her raising tone while I am packing my things. I already told Lexis about it and even she wants to know my real reason she still managed to keep herself silent. And I regret that I still need to keep this a secret. Maybe I was just really afraid that she would leave me if she found out the truth.“Yes. I know I can handle them better alone,” I said co
CHAPTER 118I tried to pursue her. Followed her wherever she goes. I wanted to be there for her. That’s why I tried so hard to be near her. I am sure that she’s smart and I didn’t know why she had a low score in her quiz but maybe fate is on my side that I took that chance to get her attention only to me, not with anyone but to me."I'm gonna schedule a tutorial for you so you'll understand-""No!" she cut me off when I tried to suggest that. I just want to help her or maybe I did have a secret intention, but I am serious that I want to help her. Our eyes met. I gave her a serious eye and she was just staring at me like she was in the middle of a deep thought about me. I sighed."What's wrong with that?" I asked. I really don’t get it. It’s more convenient to her."I'll just ask Ronald for it. You don't have to schedule anything," she said.My jaw clenched. I really hate how she’s gotten close
CHAPTER 117The next morning, I woke up early moving forward to the second day of class. I didn’t know that it will be more fun than what I expected. Already carrying my bag and other things when I saw Rael, Fin and Gray inside my house. My new house that I bought last week. I planned to stay here until I am still teaching at the school. I will just visit the village when weekends.“How did you all enter my house?” my brows furrowed while staring at the three who were sitting comfortably in my couch. These three has nothing to do with their lives.“You didn’t lock the doors,” Gray said. Rael smirked at me.“Your house is huge, we can stay here, right?” Rael’s twinkling eyes looked at me. I raised my brow at him, he noticed it that made him looked away.“Yeah right…we can’t,” he answered in his own question.“You’ll work?” Fin asked
CHAPTER 116I parked my car in the parking lot of the school. I sighed heavily when I saw the students coming inside the school. I can’t believe that I am here. I must be crazy. I looked at myself in the mirror before coming out of my car. I went straight at the faculty and checked my schedule. I unconsciously smiled when I saw that my first schedule is Lexis’ section.But my smile faded when I remember something. She’ll see me again. As her professor. Would she recognize me? What if she recognizes me and run for hill to hide from me? Because she’s scared? I gritted my teeth. I hope it won’t happen though. I would rather want her to not recognize me and remain to be a stranger to her. Goddamn it! Am I masochist?I sighed heavily and collected my things to attend my first class. I can feel everyone’s eyes on me. I am used to it but…they are college students. They should look at me with respect and not&helli
CHAPTER 115I can sense her presence now. I just saw her car arrived at her grandmother’s ancestral home. I watched her guided by her parents and her grandma who looks shocked of seeing her. I stared at her grandma. She looks familiar but I shrugged it off when I saw Cristine watching me. I stood up straight and looked away from Lexis’ direction.“I was right. You’re here,” she said and raised a brow at me. I ignore her and walk like nothing happened. I am going now to the village. It’s enough for me that I saw her safely arrived.“What do you need?” I asked when I felt her followed me.“Do you have plans? You know that Herman and Carlos are allies to bring you down, right?” She asked calmly. I sighed. I have plans but it’s not necessary to tell her anymore.“What are your plans? Make Lexis fall in love with you first and then tell her the truth and finally you&rs
CHAPTER 114After I send her home, I immediately washed myself. I feel like her puke is all over me. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold water dripped down my body. Watching her closer like that makes me insane. It’s been years since I last watched her close like that and she was just a young girl back then. Now that she’s and a grown woman I can’t help but to feel crazy over her.I woke up at dawn and the sun hasn’t risen yet when I drove myself towards San Isidro. I have a house in the city if ever I don’t want to go home yet or won’t be able to go back early. This province is an hour far away from the city. I parked the car in my usual place and walks towards the village.Everyone greeted me as soon as they saw me. I just nodded every time. I don’t have any plans today and I think I’ll go back in the city during Lexis’ graduation. I’ve never missed every celebration she has. I was alway
CHAPTER 113I woke up feeling awful the next day. My head is spinning like crazy. I don’t know but I felt cold. Damn! I am not usually like this. Maybe because I let myself in the rain yesterday? Well, wolves can also possibly catch a cold, but it will just pass by like before.I get up from the bed and changed my clothes before going out. Everyone made away for my arrival until I stopped in front of them, I saw my whole pack waiting for me to speak. I sighed and started to elaborate the things I wanted to say.“First of all, I wanted to compliment…Carlos’ group for guarding the boarders of this province, the other wolf pack wouldn’t have the chance to cross the island because of that,” I said and looked at Carlos and beside him is Herman. Carlos just nodded courteously at me. There’s a reason why I’d give that mission to him. So, that he will be far away from my pack while I’m investigating hi