CHAPTER 56
He stepped back and let go of me. He also turned on the lights. With his narrowed eyes, he looked at me.
"What are you doing here?! The bus station will be close later and-"
"I'm not leaving," I cut him off. I looked away because I can feel him getting mad at me. The way he looked at me I feel like it is a sin to come here. I suddenly felt regretful. I didn't thought about his reaction. Of course he would get mad.
"You're doing the very wrong thing, Lexis!" He said very mad. I bit my lower lip as he stepped forward towards me. I sighed.
"A-Alqamar...I...can't leave-"
"Didn't I told you that you must leave this place? Damn it Lexis!" He sounds frustrated. My chest felt heavy as a sting of pain strike my heart. I swallowed hard.
"I-I...can't let go of you..." My voice cracked. I gulped trying to ease the pain I am feeling. He stopped and stared at me intently. His eyes are making me intimidated.
"I-I'm...scared....that
CHAPTER 57Carlos was dragging me forcefully to somewhere I didn't know. My heart is beating so fast as the danger keep coming to me."Faster!" Carlos pushed me more as we walk. I winced in pain when I felt the rock below my foot. The night is filled with darkness with only the half moon from above. I am worried. I am scared and nervous. Fear is consuming me. Fear is filling my mind."D-Do...you want that throne so much?" I bravely asked even though my voice is shaking. I felt him turned to me as we still walking towards the darkness."Everyone wants the throne. Alqamar is just lucky that he got chosen by the Goddess," he said bitterly."Alqamar is the chosen one why can't you just accept it?" I added. He stopped so I also stopped. I bit my lower lip."In this world full of cruelness, the word 'fair' is now a myth. The Goddess couldn't see the other's potential, and that's when the word 'unfair' created," he said grittily as he glared at me.
CHAPTER 58'Just stay there Alqamar' I told him in our mind link. He growled and say;'What the fuck are you planning to do?! Don't stand in front of me-'"Miss Castillo, you have to leave in this place immediately. It's not a safe place for you," I think the captain is the one who spoke to me. I shook my head so eagerly. I didn't step or did any move as I stand in front of them, and Alqamar's wolf form behind me."I won't leave this place until this man behind me, go with me," I said determined."But ma'am, he isn't a man, he is a wolf-""I don't fucking care just leave us alone!" I couldn't help but to shout in frustration."Lexis!" I got stunned when I heard dad's voice. I looked at his direction and saw him with my mom behind him. I gritted my teeth as I stared at my dad. I know that dad just wanted me safe. But he needs to realize that Alqamar isn't a villian here. That he isn't a bad person! That he isn't a bad
CHAPTER 59My mind couldn't think straight anymore. My mind is in chaos as my heart slowly breaks apart. My mind cannot process everything. My Grandma who shields those bullets for Alqamar...and Alqamar soaking with his own blood in the end. How could this happen to them? Why everything end up this way?"Lexis..." mom's voice echoed in my ears but I am just staring at nothingness. Everything in me weakened. The wound on my legs feels numb. I am numb for everything. I am numb but my tears are continuously falling from my eyes.I looked at my mom who was watching me with her teary eyes. She held both of my shoulders. I roam my eyes around and stood up when I realize that I am now in the house. My heart pounded so fast. I didn't even notice that we already arrived in our house!"M-Mom! I have to go back in the forest! Alqamar was soaking with blood! I can't let him there alone-""Lexis! Please! We have to clean your wound!" Mom cut me off but I shook
CHAPTER 60So many things happened. But it still feels like yesterday. I learned that this life has many upside down. So many turns and fall. You will feel so lonely and hurt. You will always feels alone and left behind. This world is made up of so many people experiencing the same but in different circumstances. I may not measure others pain but I know that it still pain no matter what.Pain that will always be your nightmare every night. Pain whenever you remember someone you lost from the past and pain...for the memories I couldn't forget.Months passed by like a fast speed of a car in the long high way with a desert around. But every months, it pass so slowly like it was made like that. It was made to pass slowly so that I can die with loneliness and sadness.Every night I'd cry for missing him. Every morning I'd wake up searching for him and every seconds passing by I'd keep calling out his name.Without him, it was complete loneliness. Withou
CHAPTER 61My lips parted as I saw his familiar eyes. My eyes started to get blurry because of my tears but one blink of an eye the dark gray eyes disappeared.Something in me fell down. My knees tremble as tears slowly roll down my cheeks. I didn't even noticed that the master of the ceremony of the graduation is now calling out for the next student to come in the stage. I swallowed hard and leave that stage. I immediately run outside of the gymnasium while still wearing my medal and my graduation gown. My tears continuously fell on my eyes while I am holding my chest because it keeps throbbing. I feel like I am being stabbed by a million knives inside my chest. I feel like I am lost again.It was a hallucination. That eyes I saw in the crowd was only a hallucination. And that hallucination made me more in pain.The tears pour madly in me. It was heavy. I feel like even the weather is sharing my sorrow and pain with me. The rain made me shuddered. I am a
CHAPTER 62I don't know if I'm now crazy because I am hallucinating too much or anything. I was so sure that someone whispered me that words! Someone's voice entered my mind and whispered! And no one can't do that other than...him.I closed my eyes intently and stared at the ceiling of my bedroom.'I love you...my luna'I am sure that it was Alqamar's voice. It was Alqamar. He said luna. It means moon! I shook my head and erased that thought.It's impossible! All these years...I believed that he left this world already. I saw him soaking with blood five years ago. He was...there...lying...I stopped thinking about that and shook my head more. I don't want to think about that anymore. The more I think about it the more pain I will felt. So I have to stop right here.I didn't get enough sleep because of that. That's why I scheduled an appoinment to my therapist again."What's the problem this time?" She asked. I sighed a
CHAPTER 63Ronald never leaves my mind after that and the fact that Cristine here in the city makes me awake at night. I still remember the last time we see each other. Her eyes were full of anger and hatred towards me. It was understandble because she likes Alqamar for a long time.The next day I went to work early so that I can have time to think about everything and to wait for Ronald. I have to know where is Cristine right now. Cristine might be still angry at me but I have to talk to her. I want to know about Gray, Fin and Rael. I've been thinking about them these past few years.I was in a deep thought when I saw Ronald putting his white coat on him."Ronald!" I called him and stood up. He looks at me. He smiled shortly and went to me. Ronald changed a lot. Everything in him is now different. Ronald is now a hot bachelor. A hot doctor."You wait for me?" He asked. I nodded."You said that you're chasing for Cristine-""So you kn
CHAPTER 64Everything is new to me in this place. I feel unfamiliar but I am happy to see new things in my life. Somehow I feel happy. A tour guide was guiding us to tour around in this place and of course our last destination is in the Himalayas where we can see the highest mountain in the world, the mount Everest.The tour guide introduced us the different culture and beautiful destination here in Nepal. I took every pictures in every destination we went."What is this?" I asked when I saw a beautiful painting, though it's a bit confusing because of an undefined usage of the shapes. But the colors that used was spectacular."Are you asking about the painting's name?" The tour guide asked. I nodded while still staring at the painting. The painting has a color gray circle whirls in the middle and below that whirls is a confusing shape with different colors. The painter is amazing."It's called 'the full moon'," I blinked twice. My brows furrowed wh
EPILOGUELooking back to all the things that happened, it seems worth it now. After the accident I woke up with a headache and the first person I saw was a man wearing his white lab coat. He told me that his name was Ronald Madrigal, and I had an accident. At first, I couldn’t believe it. How could I have an accident when I know that I have the greatest power among all my pack? And I am the alpha. But then…I noticed how I clearly remember my childhood memories and the night where I saw my parents soaking with blood but other than that…I remember nothing.I feel like I was stuck in that particular memory and it’s tormenting my mind. It was frustrating to only know a bit of yourself. I remember Fin, Gray, Rael and Cristine because they are part of my memories when I was still young but…I didn’t even remember how I got an accident! Damn!“Don’t stress yourself too much, Alqamar. Your memories will be
CHAPTER 120“When are you planning to go back, Alqamar?” I heard Cristine asked while I am watching the trees danced with the wind. It was still vivid to me. The things that happened and how I almost lost my life in that unfaithful night. And…how I watched Lexis cry while darkness is eating my whole system.I had the choice to go back and tell Lexis that I am alive but it’s not easy at it’s seem. I’ve learned my lesson. Carlos is still alive and probably waiting for his attacks if he finds out that I am alive. When everyone thought that I was killed Carlos stopped chasing and targeting Lexis. It only means one thing. I am the only one he needs and my come back is his trigger to use Lexis again as my weakness. So, I have to remain hidden and just like before…watched Lexis from afar.I don’t want to go back to the days where I was still looking at her from afar but it’s still happening right, an
CHAPTER 119It wasn’t easy. Every time she’ll ask about my identity or my past makes me anxious. Thinking that once I told her everything she’ll slip away. And it’s even harder when I found out that Herman and Carlos’ group is planning of an attack against Lexis. So, for the mean time I told Lexis that I’ll leave. She assured me that she loves me. She made love to me, and I know that finally, she loves me back. Finally, I claimed her and she’s officially mine now, forever.“Are you seriously going alone, Alqamar?” Cristine asked me with her raising tone while I am packing my things. I already told Lexis about it and even she wants to know my real reason she still managed to keep herself silent. And I regret that I still need to keep this a secret. Maybe I was just really afraid that she would leave me if she found out the truth.“Yes. I know I can handle them better alone,” I said co
CHAPTER 118I tried to pursue her. Followed her wherever she goes. I wanted to be there for her. That’s why I tried so hard to be near her. I am sure that she’s smart and I didn’t know why she had a low score in her quiz but maybe fate is on my side that I took that chance to get her attention only to me, not with anyone but to me."I'm gonna schedule a tutorial for you so you'll understand-""No!" she cut me off when I tried to suggest that. I just want to help her or maybe I did have a secret intention, but I am serious that I want to help her. Our eyes met. I gave her a serious eye and she was just staring at me like she was in the middle of a deep thought about me. I sighed."What's wrong with that?" I asked. I really don’t get it. It’s more convenient to her."I'll just ask Ronald for it. You don't have to schedule anything," she said.My jaw clenched. I really hate how she’s gotten close
CHAPTER 117The next morning, I woke up early moving forward to the second day of class. I didn’t know that it will be more fun than what I expected. Already carrying my bag and other things when I saw Rael, Fin and Gray inside my house. My new house that I bought last week. I planned to stay here until I am still teaching at the school. I will just visit the village when weekends.“How did you all enter my house?” my brows furrowed while staring at the three who were sitting comfortably in my couch. These three has nothing to do with their lives.“You didn’t lock the doors,” Gray said. Rael smirked at me.“Your house is huge, we can stay here, right?” Rael’s twinkling eyes looked at me. I raised my brow at him, he noticed it that made him looked away.“Yeah right…we can’t,” he answered in his own question.“You’ll work?” Fin asked
CHAPTER 116I parked my car in the parking lot of the school. I sighed heavily when I saw the students coming inside the school. I can’t believe that I am here. I must be crazy. I looked at myself in the mirror before coming out of my car. I went straight at the faculty and checked my schedule. I unconsciously smiled when I saw that my first schedule is Lexis’ section.But my smile faded when I remember something. She’ll see me again. As her professor. Would she recognize me? What if she recognizes me and run for hill to hide from me? Because she’s scared? I gritted my teeth. I hope it won’t happen though. I would rather want her to not recognize me and remain to be a stranger to her. Goddamn it! Am I masochist?I sighed heavily and collected my things to attend my first class. I can feel everyone’s eyes on me. I am used to it but…they are college students. They should look at me with respect and not&helli
CHAPTER 115I can sense her presence now. I just saw her car arrived at her grandmother’s ancestral home. I watched her guided by her parents and her grandma who looks shocked of seeing her. I stared at her grandma. She looks familiar but I shrugged it off when I saw Cristine watching me. I stood up straight and looked away from Lexis’ direction.“I was right. You’re here,” she said and raised a brow at me. I ignore her and walk like nothing happened. I am going now to the village. It’s enough for me that I saw her safely arrived.“What do you need?” I asked when I felt her followed me.“Do you have plans? You know that Herman and Carlos are allies to bring you down, right?” She asked calmly. I sighed. I have plans but it’s not necessary to tell her anymore.“What are your plans? Make Lexis fall in love with you first and then tell her the truth and finally you&rs
CHAPTER 114After I send her home, I immediately washed myself. I feel like her puke is all over me. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold water dripped down my body. Watching her closer like that makes me insane. It’s been years since I last watched her close like that and she was just a young girl back then. Now that she’s and a grown woman I can’t help but to feel crazy over her.I woke up at dawn and the sun hasn’t risen yet when I drove myself towards San Isidro. I have a house in the city if ever I don’t want to go home yet or won’t be able to go back early. This province is an hour far away from the city. I parked the car in my usual place and walks towards the village.Everyone greeted me as soon as they saw me. I just nodded every time. I don’t have any plans today and I think I’ll go back in the city during Lexis’ graduation. I’ve never missed every celebration she has. I was alway
CHAPTER 113I woke up feeling awful the next day. My head is spinning like crazy. I don’t know but I felt cold. Damn! I am not usually like this. Maybe because I let myself in the rain yesterday? Well, wolves can also possibly catch a cold, but it will just pass by like before.I get up from the bed and changed my clothes before going out. Everyone made away for my arrival until I stopped in front of them, I saw my whole pack waiting for me to speak. I sighed and started to elaborate the things I wanted to say.“First of all, I wanted to compliment…Carlos’ group for guarding the boarders of this province, the other wolf pack wouldn’t have the chance to cross the island because of that,” I said and looked at Carlos and beside him is Herman. Carlos just nodded courteously at me. There’s a reason why I’d give that mission to him. So, that he will be far away from my pack while I’m investigating hi