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Goodbyes and So Longs
I dropped James off at the airport the next morning and although he kept saying he was okay, I could see that he wasn't.
Our drive to the airport was quiet and it made me nervous. I knew he was still upset about my refusal to leave with him and I felt bad about it too. I just couldn't abandon my mom. It sucked.Once there, I cried a little and he just hugged me tightly from the passenger seat and pulled away, his beautiful blue eyes shining with unshed tears. He pressed his lips to mine and I felt his tongue smooth over mine, the kiss hard and passionate.When he pulled away, he pushed a stray hair out of my face and studied my face for a long time. Horns honked behind me but I let him."Call me." I whispered to him."Yeah." He said. He grabbed all his stuff and left without a backwards glance.I didn't expect a call that first night. I figured he would be tired after his flight. But when he didn't call me the next night and thRelated chapters
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He's breathing hard and his throat is bobbing as he shakes his head. "Kelly... I-I'm sorry. I...You're f*cking beautiful and I'll probably regret this for the rest of my life, but...I can't. We can't do this."And I press my lips together and I know I've ruined it. I know that this short-lived friendship Jordan and I had was now done for, all because I gave in and drank and acted stupid. My hormones got the best of me and I shouldn't have even touched him."I know. I'm sorry. I- it's my fault."I get up off the floor and find a T-shirt that I had lying on the ground because I hadn't done laundry. I pull it on quickly and watch as he buttons himself back up. "It's...not. It's not your fault. Not by a long shot. I...I wanted to. I really did. I would have. But...He's my brother. And I know we don't talk about him, but I would feel like sh*t if one of my brother's did that to me."And that's when I get angry. Not at Jordan, but just because
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