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2024-10-29 19:42:56Christmas passed by without a hitch. I spent it in Hawaii. It was still fairly warm and so I spent that holiday much the same as the first one.
I did have to avoid all of the holiday sh*t going on everywhere, but being somewhere that wasn't home made it easier to face by myself. I ate to my heart's content and swam and took tours up to the volcano.I enjoyed it there almost too much. It made me think of relocating to somewhere like here, where every day felt like a vacation, but at the same time, I didn't want to hide away anymore.Not only that, but I got things going for that house I found. I talked to the realtor and was able to start the paperwork on my new house. It was an ongoing process, but seeing as I had good credit and money to put down on it, it was going easier than I thought.So I took the time to enjoy myself in Hawaii, visiting different islands and doing every single touristy thing I could do. I hiked to some waterfalls and kayakRelated chapters
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He's breathing hard and his throat is bobbing as he shakes his head. "Kelly... I-I'm sorry. I...You're f*cking beautiful and I'll probably regret this for the rest of my life, but...I can't. We can't do this."And I press my lips together and I know I've ruined it. I know that this short-lived friendship Jordan and I had was now done for, all because I gave in and drank and acted stupid. My hormones got the best of me and I shouldn't have even touched him."I know. I'm sorry. I- it's my fault."I get up off the floor and find a T-shirt that I had lying on the ground because I hadn't done laundry. I pull it on quickly and watch as he buttons himself back up. "It's...not. It's not your fault. Not by a long shot. I...I wanted to. I really did. I would have. But...He's my brother. And I know we don't talk about him, but I would feel like sh*t if one of my brother's did that to me."And that's when I get angry. Not at Jordan, but just because
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I glared down at the invitation sitting in front of me on my bed. It was worn and wrinkled from the countless times over the past three weeks that I've let myself look at it. James and Sarah. Sarah and James. I looked at the date of the wedding, just three days away, and groaned, running a hand over my face. I went into the kitchen where I had left the damn plane ticket and stared at the date of departure and the time. Tomorrow morning at five in the morning. I tossed the ticket back into the drawer and looked down at the closed drawer. The amount of times I've done this was almost as much as I've crumpled up the damn invitation. I grabbed a half-full water bottle from my counter and threw it across the kitchen and stomped down the damn hall back to my room. It's not healthy. None of my actions these past three weeks have been healthy. I've broken my no-crying rule countless times and taken myself into the dark corners of
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Standing in front of the mirror, I made sure I had my armor on for what was to come. Back in the bedroom, I could hear his phone tinkle and I held my breath and listened."Hey, yeah, I'm bringing my date for lunch so you can meet her."I stilled. I stared at my minimal makeup and nodded. All I put on was a coat of lipgloss and some mascara. Anything else felt like I was trying too hard. I redid my French braid and walked out of the bathroom.He smiled at me as I walked out and I gave him a tight smile back. My stomach was all twisted and I was getting nervous by the second."Ready?""As ready as I'm going to get.""Are you nervous?"I looked at him and he smirked. "Don't be. I've got you. If things start to get hairy, we'll leave.""Define hairy.""Awkward. Angry. Sad. Any negative type feelings."I sigh and nod. "Okay. Safe word?"He grinned then, showing off his p
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Unapologetically Me Christmas Party
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Unapologetically Me Meeting Mom
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