The next day I tried to focus on classes and doubly avoided James. It wasn't hard when I had already been doing it for two weeks, but even when he smiled at me, I turned away without a smile back.
During class, he tried again and I studiously ignored him. I couldn't let him in. If he found out, there was no telling what he would want to do with the information. During class, I got a text from him asking me what was wrong. I ignored it and proceeded to block his number. After he realized I had blocked him he turned around during Danforth's lecture with his eyebrows furrowed. I continued to ignore him and he only turned away when Ms. Danforth called his name and told him to pay attention. After class, he followed me to my locker but before he could say a word to me, Pink Streak came out of nowhere and hugged him. He continued to try to get near me by removing her from his arms but I was able to move qChole held onto my hand tightly and jiggled her knees as we waited in the back room for the nurse to come back with the results. I was already sure that I was pregnant, but for some reason, I couldn't get rid of the hope that all of those pee sticks pregnancy tests had been faulty. The nurse came in holding a clipboard and a cherry smile. "Alright, Miss Whitmore, we got back your results. They came back positive. From the information you gave us, we estimate that you are approximately ten weeks along. After scans, we can be more precise." "Do we have to do scans?" I asked her nervously. "To be more accurate about how far along you are, we would need to get pictures." I took a deep breath and nodded. Okay. I knew this would happen. I turned to Chloe and she pressed her lips together and sighed. "Okay, so can you talk us through her options afterward?" "Yes. I
My cousins hadn't even bothered to call me to set anything up with me. I felt forgotten. I could probably die over the holiday and no one would even be the wiser. The days passed by painfully slow and the night before Thanksgiving, I finally snapped. I had laid around feeling sorry for myself. Crying and acting like a victim when instead I should be trying to fix it. So around dinner time, I made my way to the grocery store to see what I could get to make myself a Thanksgiving meal. I pulled up a few recipes and grabbed everything I could find to prepare pies, mashed potatoes, a chicken, because thawing out a turkey was out of the question, stuffing, and green bean casserole. I spent the rest of the evening preparing the pies. I was able to successfully make a pumpkin pie, not entirely from scratch, but it came out looking like the real deal. I also made a sweet potato pie, even though I didn't even know how it tasted,
When he turned to look at me I froze. The betrayal in his face gripped at my heart and I bit my lip. What now? What was I going to do?God, I was so stupid. Why didn't I just put it away?"This was why you walked out of class on Wednesday?"The frustration in his voice was evident. I clenched my fists and squared my shoulders. "Why are you looking through my stuff?"I walked to him and plucked the ultrasound out of his hand. I tucked it back in the book in his lap and he just continued to stare at me."Answer my question. Did you know since Wednesday that you're pregnant?"Hearing him say it out loud made reality come crashing down on me. I shook my head. "No.""What does that mean? How long have you known?"I pressed my lips together and stared down at my book. Stupid traitorous book. He grabbed the book from me and set it on the couch beside him."Two weeks.""You've known for two w
I set the appointment but the only availabilities they had were for after the following Tuesday, which meant I was going to have to cut class again. At this rate, it wasn't looking good for me with my uncle. I was still nervous as hell but with James in the know now I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. I still didn't want him to come to the appointment but I at least told him about it. He still seems kind of on the fence about it but it was for the best. Chloe was relieved when I told her about the appointment and about James finding out. I knew she had been stressed about it for me, but it was my business to take care of. James came by every day since he found and helped me with mundane chores like laundry. He felt like even though I was going to abort, I should still be careful. At school on Monday he even joined me for lunch. It was a quiet affair since he had brought Pink Streak along. She did most of the
The next day instead of going to school I slept in and only got up and got dressed when Chloe called me when she was in her way. We both sat quietly in her car on our way to the clinic and my stomach was jumbled with nerves. I was kind of freaking out a little. Last night I had a dream that wouldn't leave my head. It was of James and I chasing after a cute, dark-haired little boy. My mom was there, sober, and his parents were there. It was almost perfect. And it was dumb. The dumbest dream I had ever had because I knew it could never happen. We walked into the clinic and I checked in. Chloe held my hand as we waited for them to call me to the back and I was glad that I had told James to not come. The dream kept repeating over in my head and I couldn't shake the guilt that was beginning to make me feel sick to my stomach. The clock ticked by slowly and one after another, people were being called into the back. After the
My hands were slicked with sweat. I wiped them on my leggings and picked up my fork even though I knew I wouldn't be able to keep anything down. The sounds of everyone talking weren't helping either. I smiled at James' mom and she smiled back, spooning some mashed potatoes into her baby's mouth. I wondered idly what she would think when James and I finally got both of his parents alone. He wanted to tell them as soon as possible and I thought it was a bad idea. I just didn't want anyone to know. I was embarrassed that I was now a statistic. I was also afraid that they would want to talk to my mom and then the whole jail thing would come up and they would want me to stay with them like James was pushing for. He turned into the ultimate protector after I walked out of the clinic and insisted that I shouldn't stay home alone. I had told him that I wanted to. That I was more comfortable at home. It was a lie, but he didn't know that. After th
That went well." I joked. He grinned and shook his head. "Better than I expected. I honestly expected a whole speech out of my dad, but I'm sure once you leave, I'll get it.," "Yeah. Probably." I sat next to him and looked around his room. I noticed a few girl things in here, like lipgloss on his desk and a purple sweatshirt on his futon. "So, we're not telling anyone, right?" "I mean, they'll see eventually, but I don't care. If you tell anyone, then you tell. Let me just warn Lara before she hears it from someone else." I nodded slowly and sighed. I laid back on the bed next to him and his phone began to ring. He fished it out of his pocket and groaned. I saw Pink Streak's cute little dimples flashing on the screen and I raised my eyebrows. "You should probably answer that." "Yeah. I am." He answered and stared up at the ceiling. "Hey, what's up?"
James Everything was falling apart. The embarrassment I felt at Lara throwing a fit in the hallway at school still had me reeling. I knew she would be pissed, but she just didn't understand. No matter what, Kelly is going to be a part of my life. No matter what. My baby was growing inside of her. It was hard to comprehend at first. I couldn't wrap my head around it and I was kind of pissed and hurt that it took her a couple of weeks to tell me she was pregnant. Hell, everything she had done since I got with Lara hurt my feelings. I didn't know what it was about Kelly that I couldn't let go of, but she haunted my every waking thought. I felt like I was obsessed with her and I low-key felt like a creep about it sometimes. Especially when she had asked me to leave her alone and blocked my number. Now, being in her Range Rover after my break up with Lara, I stared out of the window and tried to calm down. It wasn't like I