This is too much

Elena pov

I could hear noises Coming through but I could not tell what exactly they were . I tried opening my eyes several times to see what was taking place but I just could not.I felt so exhausted.

"She is so evil"

"She is a devils incarnate".

" I have always told you to get rid of her " I still could hear the voices biy my eyes are so exhausted and don't feel like opening. I feel coldness all over me. Am I dead? I wonder. That could be great if I was dead. That could mean that I am now free and will not have anyone torturing mW.

" wake up you bitch !" Then some one kicked me so hard in the rids making me cry out due to the sharp pain that I feel. Wait  , what is wrong with me? When I try to stand up, I just can't I feel my whole body "broken" . I feel so much pain. I open my eyes and before me is my my mom, sister Alexis and Lance. 

When I look at him, memories of what happened last night come back to me. Lance told me to meet him...he told me to sit on his lap...he touched my breasts.. What?

He has a wound on his lower part of the stomach. How did he get that since I remember he was okay last night?

I begin shivering automatically when I look at Lance and the memories of what happened to me last night. They all see the change in me and I can see that they are giggling. My memory begins to remember what else happened after there.. A beating.. Crying.. Yes, I was beaten and that is when I blacked out.

"Looking around very well, I get it . I am in one of the rooms at the back of the house which is abandoned. Bit my question remains why am I here . 

" why am I here ?" I ask no one in particular.

"Whom are you even asking ?" Alexis says angrily as she comes near where I am giving me a hot slao on my cheek. I can feel blood in my mouth. Tears flow out of my eyes uncontrollably even if I try not to ..

"Why are you crying" Lance who has been quiet for some time says.

"You are useless and that is how you will be " he says . That is how they have been . I am tired of every one remaining in the fact that I am useless. I know that?

" How could you stab your own cousin" mom says with too much disgust . what the hell is happening here. Are these three being any sincere. I try to tell them that I did not do anything but they are not in a position to listen to me. In the end they say that whether it was me who stabbed him or not, it is still my mistake and I deserve the worst of everyone in this life...how ironic since I already have experienced the worst in my life. Everything worst to an extent that i was about to be raped by my own cousin and no one cares about how I feel.

"If you ever tell any one that Lance tried raping you, I will slaughter you alive " my own birth mom said as they stormed out.

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Tears could not stop falling from my eyes. I kept wondering why God didn't make my mom have a miscarriage, that way I could not be there to be tortured. 

I remember all the story that they told me. They had met Lanec when he was about to rape me and they stopped him. He was high on drug and that is why he did what he did...but I know one thing, he was sober. Due to the too much pain he had  for not accomplishing his task with me ,  they let him flop me as he wanted. This explains the too much pain that I feel right now. Some times I wonder if any one here is mentally stable?

How can my own mother stop me from the reporting some one who tried raping me. Some one who wanted to take away the only treasure in my life. The only thing that I have in my life. Does every one hate me so much. 

How I wish I had told my own savior where I had gone. Bit I just didn't want to disturb him. I knew he was preparing since he was going for internship the following day..wait it is today . ..it is today that Vince is going. I had to see him off. I wanted to bless him so that he can have all that he wished. He promised that he could take me away one day. He had promised to take me away from all this misery into the big city where I could be happy. That is the only thing that keeps me moving most of the time.

I tried to stand up but my legs are too weak , they are swollen from the too much beating. I don't know what I am supposed to do. I have see Vince so that he gets me dome medicines before he goes off.

I tried as much as I could with the help of the walls getting out . Not meeting any of my family members. They must have gone to the horse race at the other side of the ranch. I was not at any time supposed to go their. It usually happens twice a month. I have wanted several times to go there but I am not allowed. I want to meet knew people and at least have friends.

I see  the list on the table of the daily activities that am to do. But can't my mom see the condition that I am in and perhaps sympathy with me.

I nerd to see Vince, hope he had not gone yet. When I get to his bedroom, he is not there.

" Vince" I called as I came out of the house. Almost not Feeling how hurt my legs are.

" Vincent " I called again. Beginning to get worried that he left. My eyes are beginning to get wet.

" You have some thing here "Bartholomew , a worker who has been on the farm since I remember gives Me a piece of paper. I almost shake my hand when getting it. I wonder what it is.

" it is from Sir Vincent he says and my worry becomes true. He left , I cannot help but cry. I forget about the fact that I have not had any food since yesterday evening. 

I move slowly sitting on the verandah, the better thing is no one is home . I can take my time. I know I have not gone to school but Vince has taught Me abit and can read and write. I open the letter to read.

Hey, 

My favorite sister. How are you . I have waited for you as we had agreed so that you give me oneast hug until a year later.. I just didn't see you. Mom told me you hard errands to and that is why I could not see you..

I am off , off to complete my internship. I know soonest I will get a job in the city and take you away. You need to smile. You have suffered a lot. My heart bleeds for you. I promise to change your life. You have to live a noraml life Luke others, travel , party and get a boyfriend. I told you about my friend who wants to see you. I am telling you you will fall for him. Believe me.

I promise to buy you a phone when I return. I wanted to do that earlier but I think you knew how mom closed my account not to help you...God.

Just be a little patient.

Your best brother 

Vince.

I smiled when I read this. He will be back soon

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Hello, have you ever suffered family torture. Nothing is permanent in this life