" Sorry teddy bear," I whispered softly.
" Did you tell day about it?"" No, I would get punished again," he said afraid.
" Well, next time anything happens, you speak to daddy, you tell him what happened that same day or as soon as you see him okay?"
" Yeah."
" But you didn't answer my question?" He asked.
" Well, yeah, look at me."
He looked into my eyes shyly feeling guilty.
" Why are you asking, or rather where did the question come from?" I inquired.
" Well, don't be mad, just that I heard Mary and some women talking about it. And they spoke for long saying you were not my sister," he answered.
" What else did they say," I asked.
" Well, I didn't stay longer, because I felt bad and wanted to cry that you are not my sister," he said.
" Oh poor Luke," I sighed
" I want you to know that even if an asteroid full of candy and chocolates hit the earth right now and we all drowned in sweetne
I stood still waiting for his hand to hit home. It seemed like my body was the home of blows and I couldn't deny that.A person can get used to anything when given enough time. Right now I was used to all of it.His fist hit the wall behind me loudly as he cursed under his breath furiously.I didn't move or tremble, I was used to it all and if he had hit me I wouldn't have been scared.Nick came and held him back as he spoke fast in words I couldn't grasp." Just go upstairs to bed," he urged, " it's been a long day for everyone and clearly he is not taking it well, he needs time to grieve and many more," he then kissed my forehead as he urged me to go upstairs to bed.I nodded with teary eyes, trying to stay strong." Everyone get out of my house, all the illegal people out," he screamed.I looked back and Nick nodded telling me to go and
" Noo," I screamed furiously as I kicked my legs in vain. His eyes grew wild as he laughed and roared in an ugly voice. " Papa," I cried as his hands tightened and I began coughing in snore like sounds. He lifted my head and hit it back on the ground and I tried to scream in pain but no voice came out. I lifted my hands trying to hold on to something as I took my last few breaths on earth. I don't know how but I managed to hold his neck too but and atrte squeezing too. His monster monster strength was nothing compared to my humane little strength as my eyes bulged out if their sockets. Just as I gathered a little strength and began squeezing his neck a weight from nowhere pulled me from under him making me hit the ground. As I coughed in desperation holding my chest and sore throat, I heard someo
They say that if you sit by times square long enough, you will see the whole world pass by itself. Even though I had never been to times square, I felt like that towards life itself.If I sat by the same spot with patience for long enough I would come across People that I was looking for or people that I had lost.The world is in constant motion and those who passed by at one time will come back to the same spot to finish their circle.Right now, that's what I wanted to believe in. That's what I wanted to happen. I just wanted to stand in one spot and look at the whole circle and try to figure out where I went wrong." Sorry I shouted at you, but you scared me with Luke and got my heart racing and blood boiling," she breathed." It's okay, I would have done the same," I nodded." No," she replied, " it's me who hasn't been trusting you and counting on on you,
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run insane for all eternity."Just stop pounding that door," I screamed all of a sudden from nowhere.Elaine look
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run ins
I turned around and felt someone next to me.Oh, I had almost forgotten we all slept together, Luke, Elaine and I.The events of the previous night rose up my throat and made their way to my head to come out as tears.I forced the hurt back down as I had so expertly learned during the days if my mother's neglect as a child.I sympathized with my father inside my head like I had done the previous night, not because I felt bad for him. His perfect image and clock had fallen off and wherever he was I knew he was aware.All my life I had been trying to steal a love that was intended for some perfect princess he failed to mold me into.Yesterday night had left me so jaded and forever emotionally damaged.I held onto the pillow that was supporting my head like a life raft. His Liv for me was after all an aching Liv that quickly cooler once he realized I had flaws.I couldn't blame him, I might have done the same things if I was
" Were you planning to take Luke and leave us behind?" I asked.She opened her mouth surprised as my aunt rolled her eyes." Yeah, what were your plans? " I asked again.I blinked back the tears and wore a blank expression as the memories of that day hit me. The day I was first left behind." Hey, what are you doing," my father had asked when he found me outside eating alone." Well, I'm doing me," I answered.I was eating with me, spending quality time with me in a way that I had never done before." How was your trip?" " Well I was worried that no one would ask, how hiking the Kilimanjaro was like." I confessed" Well I'm all ears, you can tell me all the nitty gritty details," he winked attempting a sense of humor to lift my spirits.
I once read somewhere that you have to loose an argument to preserve friendship.Was it worth loosing this argument when all my siblings were at stake. When Luke was in the other end.Nana recoverd after a while and Luke was already awake. We all kept quiet as she breathed in and out holding Luke's little hand.He smiled flashing a gap where he had lost his milk teeth. It was funny." Nana, where did you sleep?" He asked smiling." Just here I'll tell you," she replied.Seeing Luke stabilized her and the little boy was better than doctors." Can I tell you a secret?" He asked." Sure, tell me," nana replied.The smile on her face was so wide and she couldn't hide it no matter how much she grinned.Luke moved closer signalling to her ear and we all watched.