Everything breaks, hearts break, promises break, biscuits break and so does determination and strong resolve.
" Goodnight,"
My father whispered as he kissed my forehead.
" Goodnight papi ," I whispered back as he helped me to tuck myself into bed.
As he stood to go I called again.
" Papi, I love you," I said.
He stopped moving and stood still in his trucks before turning around.
" Sweet heart," he began, " Tommorow we are going to appear before a judge, I know this may come as a shock to you, this may not be what you expected, but whatever happens, whatever I say, you just have to know that I love you so much," he breathed.
" Okay papa," I whispered back.
I wondered when I became such a professional liar and shook my head slowly. Did I deserve all this love? Most of all, wa
Walking into the dimmed lights this night, it would be hard to guess that one loose string, a night out, would have so much power over my life. Alcohol, cigarettes, minty breaths and sweaty body odors filled the air, a promise of pure regrets and I wish I knew hang in the air. I leaned forward and picked my drink. Some alcohol with flavor. Am not going to say strawberry. All girls love that and it's boring. Isn't there any metallic flavour. Getting drunk once in a blue moon isn't bad at all. Not that I usually drink, I never do. Except the one time on a new year party. I glance over at Cindy my roommate, her chocolate hair is tumbling on her shoulders and their are small rivulets of sweat on her forehead. Crap, she was dawning her drink in gulps. I tried to slow her down but she sent a sheepish wicked smile my way with sleepy eyes. The ciggar passed my way, I took a puff giving it to the next person. I watched Cindy take the blunt
We walk into the noisy club and the strong pungent smell of liquor immediately hits my nose. I look up at Steve and can't help but admire him. He was the epitome of teenage cool, something straight out of the movies walking right beside me. As we take each step forwad, I notice heads turn around to stare at his new conquest and murderous looks from girls. I wouldn't blame them for being that way. He leads me to a coach and I look up to find myself in a table full of some famous boys in campus including the president. They are all good looking. But suffer from prince syndrome, this is usually what I call guys who think they are handsome and are so full of themselves. Steve sits beside me , one of the guys tries to talk to me and he puts his arm on my shoulders, as if he's marking his territory. The guys look at each other confused. I look around and find Bella the sassy girl in my class danc
Steve's P.O.V I look at her she's wasted and very drunk, not good for a girl like her. I never expected her to agree to come with me in the first place. I had been trying out my luck because I knew the answer would be a no. But I would still try, better die trying. Pleasing her is very difficult. She is high maintenance, not the one you think. She doesn't need anybody, so it's high maintenance for somebody to figure out what they can do for her. I hail a cab to take her home, and she can't even get up when we arrive, the gate man is asleep and he won't listen to the constant beeps. We can't stay here forever, so the only option is my place. When I say my place, I hope she won't end up like the other girls. The ones who begged me to please them and fell in love alone, I wasn't their to catch them. I open the door and we get inside laying her gently on my bed. She looks peaceful and happy. I take off her
Twain's p.o.v For a moment our gazes linger before I remember the previous night. Was that me. I close my eyes tightly looking away. Am too embarrassed. Whenever am drunk, my stupid inner slut takes over and kisses my crush without thinking. He's still looking at me intently. Should I apologize ? I bite my lower lip getting ready to talk. " Will you stop doing that, it's so distracting," he sighs. I hadn't realized what I was doing. The words in my mouth quickly pull themselves back down my throat and my tongue tie themselves into a cherry knot . Do people have to be this stupid when they need their brain the most. " Yesterday was fun, am still wondering how bad a good girl can get," he says with a smirk. " Try me," I dare him. " Are you sure, I have been known to make girl's fantasies true," I look down and lick mylips as heat surges through my skin making my
I descended the stairs one by one. This was my walk of shame. Cheers to me for letting my guard down. My head hung low next to my chest. It felt heavier and I couldn't even lift it to see the good days or sunrise. I hear some deep raspy laughter and there he was Jake speaking to someone on the phone. I hope he already forgot about me. He shouldn't make this worse. " Hey, it's you again," he says pocketing his phone. " Yeah," I reply my head down. "Wait!" Before he could continue I was long gone. I stumble on my last step and meet this girl, half dressed, her dress hanging up above her thighs. She looks up at my red eyes and mummers some bad words in disgust. I arrive at the apartment, and find Cindy cooking pancakes and coffee. " Girl, you are back, I was about to call a missing persons report," she says, I never slept out. It was the first time and she deserved to be worried. " Yeah I kn
" Twain! "" Steve," I sit up straight." Am at your doorstep and am sorry for showing up unannounced," he says.I can't help smiling, there is a new glow to my face that I can't explain. So he cares about me." No, it's okay, really cool," I stutter. I can't find the right words to say."But I'm not around, I mean am traveling and my roommate too,"" Oh! Where are you travelling to?"" Nairobi," I reply."Okay, safe journey and.."" And ?"" Take care," he says chuckling.He hangs up and I feel the old lady's stare." Is he the one you like," she asks.I blush uncomfortably and shift my weight." I don't know, this whole feeling is new to me and things are moving too fast," I reply." Make sure he doesn't break your heart, the people we care about the most always do and it's like driving a stake into your chest,"I open my mouth to argue and close
" Will you hold my hand? "It's the second time she is saying this. I'm sitting beside her hospital bed." You know it's not that serious, I'll get well soon and we can eat grilled chicken and pasta on New year's Eve," she says." Do you think they'll let you go home by that time?" I ask her." Of course" she says. "Are you doubting,"" No, it's only that you are getting worse, can't they change your treatment," I reply." No, I only started, the pain killers ain't helping, but they gave me another dose,"" Okay,"" Now sleep and don't worry yourself so much," I say kissing her forehead." In case of anything, will you place take care of your siblings for me and be the responsible one?"" What? Why? Nothing is going to happen,"" Just promise me,"" I will, I say, a sharp pain stabbing my chest,"
You're dumb if you think I never cared, because God knows how many times I broke my heart for you.I drug my feet up the front door heaving. I've never been this tired. I open the door and I'm greeted by emptiness.Cindy's absence chooses to Dawn on me right now.So she really left. I get in and head to my bedroom, it's neat as always. I like having my things in order. All my clothes are always pressed and folded, without any wrinkles. My shoes are neatly arranged, everything is in order.Cindy always said I have a disorder of wanting everything to be perfect. She called it a psychotic disoder, I can't remember the exact term she used.I open my luggage and sort everything out and return the bags to the shelves. Taking my towel I get into the shower and close my eyes. The water is warm and I soak my hair. With soap and shampoo. I get out of the shower and wear my favourite Rabbit
Everything breaks, hearts break, promises break, biscuits break and so does determination and strong resolve. " Goodnight," My father whispered as he kissed my forehead. " Goodnight papi ," I whispered back as he helped me to tuck myself into bed. As he stood to go I called again. " Papi, I love you," I said. He stopped moving and stood still in his trucks before turning around. " Sweet heart," he began, " Tommorow we are going to appear before a judge, I know this may come as a shock to you, this may not be what you expected, but whatever happens, whatever I say, you just have to know that I love you so much," he breathed. " Okay papa," I whispered back. I wondered when I became such a professional liar and shook my head slowly. Did I deserve all this love? Most of all, wa
As flowers blossom in spring, happiness blooms in emotional warmth.I gasped as my breath hitched in my mouth."Oh my God," I gasped again.He was wearing the cutest smile in the world as he looked into my eyes and held my gaze their." I know this is a lot to ask but allow me to ask you to be my best friend, my girlfriend, let me be the first person you want to call and see everyday, I want you to let me in, I'm not perfect but i can do my best to make girl happy, Twaine, please be my girlfriend" he finished.He was on one knee and as he spoke i couldn't hide the happiness and smile in my face even if i tried. Everything seemed perfect right now. he was word and emotion perfect. It was true that 9one happy moment could undo all the sad momentsHis blue eyes sparkled with the skin a little wrinkled, round and dark under them, a sign he hadn't been
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door ope
I closed the door to my room and found it neatly cleaned. The sheets and duvets had been changed. The floor cleaned and all the clothes arranged in order.I locked the door and sunk down as my chin met my knees and stayed their, not crying not doing anything.Their was pain that ate you alive, it ate you from inside like cancer and laughed and mocked at you."You thought you could get away from us, you thought you could leave us behind, we are a part of you, wherever you go, whatever you do, you are one with us," my depression and anxiety laughed at me.I finally moved to the bed and covered myself with the duvet so no sounds would come out. I lay their blocking the whole world undecided, trying to stay alive before I went back.I found a razor blade made two thin lines in my thigh before writing a strong clear message.I hate myself.The w
We got to the living room and Michael looked at us smiling knowing. I headed over to him and kisses him in the cheek." How are you?" I mocked." Well, their is no evidence left," he went straight to the point knowing that was what I was looking for.I smiled at him and winked." Thanks you," I curtsied." Why are you so Happy," Luke asked." Because I passed a test," I replied." What was wrong with Elaine," Michael asked me slowly in a low voice." Well, she is pretty stressed up about everything, " I half lied and half said the truth.He looked at me half convinced but choose to let it go.We headed to the kitchen and found dad cooking supper with an apron tied around his waist.Elaine went over to him and hugged him before I did the same." What are you cooking pao?" E
We laughed loudly as we pushed open our gate." You didn't see how her face looked," Elaine breathed." It looked like like a wet weekend," I added as we laughed loudly and giggled like little children.We raced to the house and I let her come first intentionally.We pushed open the front door and we're greeted with a sweet aroma from the kitchen.Michael was sitting with Luke on the floor as he helped him build blocks.The twins were watching a video on YouTube. Something meant for kids and I guess it was johnny Johnny, yes papa." What's the surprise?" We both asked Michael." Well, you won't believe," he started before sniffing the air," you guys are drunk are you?"" No, "Elaine quickly refused as I pulled her back." It was only a few glasses of wine, dies it look that bad?" I asked." Well, if I smelled it, he definitely will and we ain't ready for more tornados and volcanoes here," he j
" I can't thank you enough," Elaine repeated again as we neared our gate." Come on, that's random treat," I shrugged." How was your mini camping?" She asked." Well it was awesome, I mean totally awesome, i don't want to fill your head with rocket science, you'll definitely see the pictures once we get home." I smiled." Well, you think I don't know your are photo phobic, unless someone tied you ATI and took snaps of you as you screamed and wailed," she joked.We passed Cain's house and I watched a figure standing on the balcony. He was home my papa was home.I felt Elaine's eyes piercing holes intoe but I ignored her as I continued looking at him with interest. He stood their looking back neither of us looking away.I lifted my hands to wave so he could wave back but all I got was a brief nod that I imagined inside my head
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door open.
I arrived home feeling high up in the clouds. As soon as Like saw me he ran up to me and hugged me tightly." Where is my present?" He asked." Oh my God, it seems I forgot," I joked. "" What? You forgot?" He almost wept as his mood changed drastically." Well, let's see if I didn't forget," I winked as I got into the house and headed upstairs.The living room was empty and Luke followed me upstairs. As soon as I arrived the all came rushing in.Luke, the twins and Michael.I pulled out Luke's present and he looked at it happily. A handkerchief with the logo of batman and another with the logo of superman. It was Steve's idea to buy him those handkerchiefs. Then an expensive robot car with it's remote.He grinned from ear to ear and couldn't help jumping up and down bragging. Next the