They say that if you sit by times square long enough, you will see the whole world pass by itself. Even though I had never been to times square, I felt like that towards life itself.
If I sat by the same spot with patience for long enough I would come across People that I was looking for or people that I had lost.
The world is in constant motion and those who passed by at one time will come back to the same spot to finish their circle.
Right now, that's what I wanted to believe in. That's what I wanted to happen. I just wanted to stand in one spot and look at the whole circle and try to figure out where I went wrong.
" Sorry I shouted at you, but you scared me with Luke and got my heart racing and blood boiling," she breathed.
" It's okay, I would have done the same," I nodded.
" No," she replied, " it's me who hasn't been trusting you and counting on on you,
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run insane for all eternity."Just stop pounding that door," I screamed all of a sudden from nowhere.Elaine look
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run ins
I turned around and felt someone next to me.Oh, I had almost forgotten we all slept together, Luke, Elaine and I.The events of the previous night rose up my throat and made their way to my head to come out as tears.I forced the hurt back down as I had so expertly learned during the days if my mother's neglect as a child.I sympathized with my father inside my head like I had done the previous night, not because I felt bad for him. His perfect image and clock had fallen off and wherever he was I knew he was aware.All my life I had been trying to steal a love that was intended for some perfect princess he failed to mold me into.Yesterday night had left me so jaded and forever emotionally damaged.I held onto the pillow that was supporting my head like a life raft. His Liv for me was after all an aching Liv that quickly cooler once he realized I had flaws.I couldn't blame him, I might have done the same things if I was
" Were you planning to take Luke and leave us behind?" I asked.She opened her mouth surprised as my aunt rolled her eyes." Yeah, what were your plans? " I asked again.I blinked back the tears and wore a blank expression as the memories of that day hit me. The day I was first left behind." Hey, what are you doing," my father had asked when he found me outside eating alone." Well, I'm doing me," I answered.I was eating with me, spending quality time with me in a way that I had never done before." How was your trip?" " Well I was worried that no one would ask, how hiking the Kilimanjaro was like." I confessed" Well I'm all ears, you can tell me all the nitty gritty details," he winked attempting a sense of humor to lift my spirits.
I once read somewhere that you have to loose an argument to preserve friendship.Was it worth loosing this argument when all my siblings were at stake. When Luke was in the other end.Nana recoverd after a while and Luke was already awake. We all kept quiet as she breathed in and out holding Luke's little hand.He smiled flashing a gap where he had lost his milk teeth. It was funny." Nana, where did you sleep?" He asked smiling." Just here I'll tell you," she replied.Seeing Luke stabilized her and the little boy was better than doctors." Can I tell you a secret?" He asked." Sure, tell me," nana replied.The smile on her face was so wide and she couldn't hide it no matter how much she grinned.Luke moved closer signalling to her ear and we all watched.
Seriously nana. I had always suspected. The last time I was their they were sneaking around like teenagers but I just kept quiet.The old man liked me and I didn't mind.We gossiped like three little girls and laughed all the way." So this one day he took me out and prepared a surprise picnic for us, it was fun." She said." So grandma, what's your idea of a perfect date?" I asked." Well , vibe is a key element, their must be a vibe or rapid between us," she said." And I always liked talk people," she added." Nana, you ain't tall, why all the standards," I laughed. "" Well, I girl got to have some class, otherwise the will all walk on you." She said." Well, Twaine, it's confession time, we know you have someone, don't try to lie," she mocked." Yeah, she has, you t
Steve's P.O.VI sat on the bench outside and let the sounds of the city down my chaotic thoughts.I never thought I would love a girl this much. Love someone's so hard. It's like I had handed her my heart on a platter. She could do what she wanted with it. For one she could take care if it and love it or hand it back to me broken .Once I had asked Jake why he was a player, why he was a hit and run. His answer was simple, one that left us all laughing wildly." I used to love this sweet but crazy psycho bitch," he had said." What do you mean sweet but crazy?" we all asked." Well, she was a package of pure mischief, pure mischief only for me, it was wild and crazy, then it all fell down, it all cracked, it all fell apart," the drunken Jake had said." I fell so hard, it was like you were flying a plane high up in the air and it cru
Twaine's povI stood their for a while watching him sitting their quietly.He was quiet and seemed to be lost in some deep thought. Whatever it was he smiled to himself and but his lower lip.The background noises were a distant cacophony of city voices and cars, and a luring sound of birds and trees.He was even more handsome and appealing as I only stared at the other side of his face.God, I didn't deserve him. He was too good for me. Too good for me. Through all the ups and downs he was still here.Even when I had given him a thousand reasons to leave.Even when I had told him I couldn't fight.Even after he found out that I wouldn't bat an eyelid or think about him before I killed myself.Our love, well my love for him was wild and chaotic, mad and ferocious.He was a package of pure mischief and bad b
Everything breaks, hearts break, promises break, biscuits break and so does determination and strong resolve. " Goodnight," My father whispered as he kissed my forehead. " Goodnight papi ," I whispered back as he helped me to tuck myself into bed. As he stood to go I called again. " Papi, I love you," I said. He stopped moving and stood still in his trucks before turning around. " Sweet heart," he began, " Tommorow we are going to appear before a judge, I know this may come as a shock to you, this may not be what you expected, but whatever happens, whatever I say, you just have to know that I love you so much," he breathed. " Okay papa," I whispered back. I wondered when I became such a professional liar and shook my head slowly. Did I deserve all this love? Most of all, wa
As flowers blossom in spring, happiness blooms in emotional warmth.I gasped as my breath hitched in my mouth."Oh my God," I gasped again.He was wearing the cutest smile in the world as he looked into my eyes and held my gaze their." I know this is a lot to ask but allow me to ask you to be my best friend, my girlfriend, let me be the first person you want to call and see everyday, I want you to let me in, I'm not perfect but i can do my best to make girl happy, Twaine, please be my girlfriend" he finished.He was on one knee and as he spoke i couldn't hide the happiness and smile in my face even if i tried. Everything seemed perfect right now. he was word and emotion perfect. It was true that 9one happy moment could undo all the sad momentsHis blue eyes sparkled with the skin a little wrinkled, round and dark under them, a sign he hadn't been
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door ope
I closed the door to my room and found it neatly cleaned. The sheets and duvets had been changed. The floor cleaned and all the clothes arranged in order.I locked the door and sunk down as my chin met my knees and stayed their, not crying not doing anything.Their was pain that ate you alive, it ate you from inside like cancer and laughed and mocked at you."You thought you could get away from us, you thought you could leave us behind, we are a part of you, wherever you go, whatever you do, you are one with us," my depression and anxiety laughed at me.I finally moved to the bed and covered myself with the duvet so no sounds would come out. I lay their blocking the whole world undecided, trying to stay alive before I went back.I found a razor blade made two thin lines in my thigh before writing a strong clear message.I hate myself.The w
We got to the living room and Michael looked at us smiling knowing. I headed over to him and kisses him in the cheek." How are you?" I mocked." Well, their is no evidence left," he went straight to the point knowing that was what I was looking for.I smiled at him and winked." Thanks you," I curtsied." Why are you so Happy," Luke asked." Because I passed a test," I replied." What was wrong with Elaine," Michael asked me slowly in a low voice." Well, she is pretty stressed up about everything, " I half lied and half said the truth.He looked at me half convinced but choose to let it go.We headed to the kitchen and found dad cooking supper with an apron tied around his waist.Elaine went over to him and hugged him before I did the same." What are you cooking pao?" E
We laughed loudly as we pushed open our gate." You didn't see how her face looked," Elaine breathed." It looked like like a wet weekend," I added as we laughed loudly and giggled like little children.We raced to the house and I let her come first intentionally.We pushed open the front door and we're greeted with a sweet aroma from the kitchen.Michael was sitting with Luke on the floor as he helped him build blocks.The twins were watching a video on YouTube. Something meant for kids and I guess it was johnny Johnny, yes papa." What's the surprise?" We both asked Michael." Well, you won't believe," he started before sniffing the air," you guys are drunk are you?"" No, "Elaine quickly refused as I pulled her back." It was only a few glasses of wine, dies it look that bad?" I asked." Well, if I smelled it, he definitely will and we ain't ready for more tornados and volcanoes here," he j
" I can't thank you enough," Elaine repeated again as we neared our gate." Come on, that's random treat," I shrugged." How was your mini camping?" She asked." Well it was awesome, I mean totally awesome, i don't want to fill your head with rocket science, you'll definitely see the pictures once we get home." I smiled." Well, you think I don't know your are photo phobic, unless someone tied you ATI and took snaps of you as you screamed and wailed," she joked.We passed Cain's house and I watched a figure standing on the balcony. He was home my papa was home.I felt Elaine's eyes piercing holes intoe but I ignored her as I continued looking at him with interest. He stood their looking back neither of us looking away.I lifted my hands to wave so he could wave back but all I got was a brief nod that I imagined inside my head
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door open.
I arrived home feeling high up in the clouds. As soon as Like saw me he ran up to me and hugged me tightly." Where is my present?" He asked." Oh my God, it seems I forgot," I joked. "" What? You forgot?" He almost wept as his mood changed drastically." Well, let's see if I didn't forget," I winked as I got into the house and headed upstairs.The living room was empty and Luke followed me upstairs. As soon as I arrived the all came rushing in.Luke, the twins and Michael.I pulled out Luke's present and he looked at it happily. A handkerchief with the logo of batman and another with the logo of superman. It was Steve's idea to buy him those handkerchiefs. Then an expensive robot car with it's remote.He grinned from ear to ear and couldn't help jumping up and down bragging. Next the