Heat

A hand is held out to me, Ang, in nothing but shorts he says, “Come Akira, let’s go back home.” I stare up at him, home. The word echoes through my mind. “Home,” Star repeats urgeing me to go. I take his hand and let him help me up. He gives me his shirt and I pull it on over my head. It smells good, like the forest and a hint of cinnamon. He catches me smelling it, I didn’t realize I had put the collar up to my nose to take in the scent. He laughs, “Do I smell good to you?” He smiles and winks at me. “Surprisingly yeah, but don’t let it get to your head Ang.”

We start to walk back and I notice a couple more pack members emerge out of the tree line, two men and a woman. They must not have shifted because they still had on all their clothes, and it seems they’re speaking through mind link because it’s awkwardly silent as we pass them. I can’t decipher the looks they give me. They all escort me back to the cabin. “Im gunna be in so much trouble aren’t I?” I say to Star, she doesn’t reply which I find strange. A weird ache in my stomach starts to form as I walk into the cabin, everyone else stays outside or left as Ang sweeps it as he usually does. Not sure what he thinks he’ll find. Then he pauses and looks at me, he has a sort of tortured expression on his face. “Akira..” he starts but doesn’t finish. I go to my bed, not feeling so good thinking I could just sleep everything off but this ache starts to build and I can’t help but groan out loud and wrap my arms around my stomach. Ang looks as if he’s holding himself back suffering from something as well. “Ang what’s happening?” I struggled to yell out at him. He growls but not in a menacing way.

The door swings open and Noah yells “Out!” In an Alpha command and Ang bows his head but hardly moves, taking small, slow steps towards the door. Noah’s breathing is loud and his chest is moving up and down, just staring at me. He moves toward Ang, he grabs him and shoves him out of the cabin in such swift motions and slams the door.

“Akira,” he says but nothing follows. I’m in the bed grabbing at the sheets, grabbing at anything. I don’t understand this feeling, this need like something is missing. It doesn’t hurt but it aches all through my body now. This shirt feels too hot and itchy on my skin. I want to take it off but I’m definitely not stripping down in front of this Alpha, I don’t care how attractive he is or how nice he’s surprisingly been. I still have to be cautious with him. “Noah what is happening I don’t understand?” I let out in breaths. I look up and he’s facing the opposite wall, his back to me and his hand clutching the counter. His knuckles are white. “NOAH!” I scream, “What the fuck is going on!?” I can’t hold back my anger right now, I’m starting to feel pain the longer this drags on. “I think,” he starts but stops, “I think it’s your heat.” He finally says still not looking at me. “My what?” I didn’t think I could hate becoming a wolf more than I already had but here we are. “Female wolves have what is called a heat,” he turns around and drags his hand down his face. He’s back to gripping onto the counter but at least he’s talking, “It’s like, when a female human ovulates, I guess you could say. Your body is telling you to mate.” I’m shocked. “What. The. Actual. Fuck. Noah.” I can hardly wrap my head around the concept. “This is normal? This is going to happen to me every month?” And I thought period cramps were bad.