I can’t be distracted by this, I have a million questions that need to be answered. Plus, I’m not ready for anything related to feelings or intimacy. His eyes are burning into my skin, I can feel them move along my body, he clears his throat. “Are you ready to go?” He asks. “Yes, I- uh, where do I put all my things?” I say fumbling my words. “Leave it, I’ll have them sent to your cabin. There’s a car waiting outside to drive us to the restaurant.” He says and walks towards the door. We walk in silence to the car, my heels clicking against the floor the only sound. He opens the door and extends his hand to help me in. “Oh we’re using niceties now are we?” I smile up at him as I take his hand and slide in. “Think you can last the whole night?” He questions raising his eye brow with a knowing smirk at his innuendo, then shuts the door before I can reply. Good thing because I’m too shocked to comment on that one.
“Is he flirting or is it just me Star?” She laughs, “I think you’ll be playing with fire tonight,” she replies. Great. The car ride is silent and I feel microscopic sitting beside this gigantic man. The driver doesn’t even say a word, but I’m sure mind link is their preferred way of communicating. I take in everything we pass on the way there, carefully assessing anything I may need to know for the future hoping Star is paying attention as well. Ever the gentleman, he helps me out of the car once we reach the restaurant. It’s beautifully built, the dark wood and black brick are accented by tendrils of ivy that climb up the building. The name over the entrance read ‘Blue’ with blue light shining behind each letter so it could be seen in the night like the moon. “Alpha it’s so good to see you,” the young hostess says, “your table is ready and we’ve included our new red wine, I hope you find it highly pleasing.” She smiles with hearts in her eyes. I can’t blame her, he looks like dinner and dessert. She shows us to our table that’s set in the back, out of view and ear shot from the rest of the restaurant. Along the way I hear everyone acknowledging their Alpha with nods of ‘hellos’ and ‘good to see yous’, while I feel like I’m on full display. Noah pulls out my chair and I sit, the etiquette is throwing me off. “Thank you Kiara, this is perfect.” Noah dismisses her as he sits down as well. “Enjoy your dinner Alpha,” she blushes and walks away. I turn to him and he looks almost, embarrassed? “Are you not used to all the attention, Alpha,” I say the word teasingly. He smirks at the title coming from my lips. “I could get used to you saying that,” he replies. “Well that part is up to you now isn’t it?” I tell him. The server walks up to us, “Hello Alpha, it’s very nice to see you,” he says as he hands us our menus. “Thank you Carlos,” he leans back in his chair, looking relaxed and confident. “How’s school going?” Noah asks him. Carlos smiles and animatedly starts explaining how well he’s doing in his medical classes, outlining his favourites. Noah goes on to ask him about training as well and Carlos sheepishly explains where he’s been having difficulties. “Please don’t ever hesitate to ask for advice Carlos, we can have a one on one and I’ll help you past this obstacle,” Noah encourages. “Thank you Alpha, that would be amazing,” Carlos says excitedly, “Can I grab you two anything to start? Maybe a drink?” He looks to me expectantly. I totally forgot to look through the menu while they had their conversation, I was distracted by the fact it wasn’t all through mind link like I’m used to.I was brought into the Alphas office by his Beta and some other pack members, immediately I was stunned at not only how young he looked but how familiar. I’m not sure where I’ve seen him from, but it must be from my past life. He stares at me, hard. It seems as though he’s upset, but I’m not sure. “Who are you and state your business on our pack grounds” he says, not asking. “My name is Akira, and I would like to join your pack”, I kept my head held high, hoping he sees strength instead of desperation. The room grows quiet for far too long. I can see him sniff the air, “Not a rouge… what pack are you from?” he asks. Here we go.. “I’ve never been a part of a pack actually,” I hesitate to continue but decide honesty right now is my best option, “I was never born a wolf, I was turned.” There it was. I knew I was different but the faces of everyone in this room grew cold and confused. Assessing me as a threat I assume, because I’m as unknown to them as they were to me. Understandable.
I stare at him and decide I better just start talking, I need a pack. I can’t survive like this on my own, that much has been proven. “I was on my way home from a shift at the bar I worked at, not exactly in a great area but money is money right…. And well some drunk guy came up to me… I turned him down and of course he didn’t like that at all.” I said watching his reactions but he had absolutely none. He just sat there waiting. So I went on. “He was so strong. I couldn’t do anything, all the fight I had did nothing to him. He brought me to the back through the forested area and…” this was the hard part to say, “He took what he wanted from me and well, all I remember next was pain, so much pain I turned numb. I was alone in a forest beaten, bloody and dying.” He still just stared, no emotion. So I did the same. “And then”, he finally said. I didn’t want to continue, but if I had any chance of joining this pack I had to. The fear of what happened at the last pack was burning in my ch
I stared at him for a long moment, because my stubbornness from my human life seemed to transfer over into this one. “He wanted to run tests on me, see what I truly was.” Half of the truth but should be enough, I hoped. “So he took me prisoner instead and killed the couple that helped me, using the excuse that I was an enemy and that they gave me inside information. Which they didn’t. And I am not.” I said with so much anger. He stared at me but his eyes flashed down then back up. “Retract your claws Akira”, I looked down, sure enough I was digging my claws into the arms of the chair I was sitting on. I retracted them and went on with the story after I took a deep breath. “I escaped and ended up in your territory a month later. Your pack members caught me at your border and brought your Beta to me. Obviously you decided this interrogation wasn’t optional and I was brought here after trying to explain I am not a threat.” I lifted one eye brow to him. “Is that enough for you Alpha?” I
It was small, cabin like, just one big room with four walls, and a bathroom off to the side - absolutely no complaints from me. I have a bed, a small kitchen set up and a dresser for the five pieces of clothing I happened to have in my bag, which thankfully they gave back after obviously searching through it. I was so wired that I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep, then there was a knock at my door before it opened up and a random girl walked in holding papers and a serious scowl on her face. “This is your contract, and these are some clothes from our donation pile.” She threw a bag down I didn’t notice she had and then walked out. Clearly I wasn’t making friends here but I do not care. I don’t need friends, I need information. I picked up the contract immediately and looked it over. To summarize, it included a schedule that I couldn’t defer from or it would be seen as treason, I’d have some one always with me escorting me everywhere I go and if I am seen alone it will constitute as
I woke up screaming, red eyes burned into my mind plaguing my dreams, it felt so real like I was being torn apart all over again, bite after bite after bite, I felt it all over again. I couldn’t stop screaming seeing red eyes even with mine open. The door flew open and a man ran in ready to fight. He stopped when he saw me in bed, quickly assessing the situation. He checked the bathroom then walked back to me, clearly annoyed. “What the fuck Akira, I thought someone was killing you?!” The guy yelled throwing his hands up questioning me. “Someone was,” I muttered, rubbing a hand down my face. I threw the sheet off and got out of bed, glancing at the alarm clock as I walked to the kitchen, 4:36am. Great I could have slept for 24 more mintutes, too bad. I grabbed a glass of water and chugged it and heard the guy breathe “holy shit” then turned around realizing he was checking me out. Not checking me out in the ogling kind of way, he was staring at all my scars. I have claw marks, bite
I lean forward, as much as I can without touching him and close my eyes while I answer. I might as well be honest with him, I don’t want to jeopardize this opportunity. “Every time I sleep I dream about the night that man attacked me, I see his glowing red eyes and I swear I can feel it all over again. It’s so.. real.” When I open my eyes again I see he’s taken a step back and his eyes are squinted, as if he’s thinking it over. Then he’s back to looking at all my scars. He reaches forward his thumb is tracing over the claw marks on my shoulder but not in an intimate way, more out of curiosity, “These?” He asks. “Well it’s pretty obvious isn’t it?” I answer a little too honestly. I want to shove the other foot into my mouth but then he smirks and grabs my wrist, which at the moment is up at my face because I instantly covered my mouth once I said that. He takes it away from my mouth and studies my wrist “These?” He runs his other thumb over the scars there. “I always wanted a barbed wi
The man who’s training me came exactly at 6am on the dot. Good thing to remember, wolves are always on time. “It helps when you have one in your head reminding you of everything, also when your Alpha commands it, you have to do it,” Star adds. We walk through the forest and my anxiety immediately perks up. “You’re going to be okay Akira, I promise,” Star comforts me. “Thank you Star, but after what happened it’s hard to believe that,” I force myself to seem strong in the presence of this man. “So do I get to know your name or is that against the rules too?” I ask to distract myself. “Actually it is ,” he says, seemingly disinterested in holding a conversation. “Okaaaay,” I drag it out, “You look like a,” I look him over tapping my finger to my mouth, “Richard, but you know I’ll call you Dick for short because that’s a mouthful.” A dad joke, yes, but a girls gotta do something for entertainment. He gives absolutely no reaction. “No? Don’t like it? Okay fine, hmmm,” I tap my finger to
I woke up screaming once again and the same guy rushes in and sweeps the cabin just like last time. He puts his hands on his hips, “What the fuck Akira?” He yells at me. I run my hands through my hair and then glare at him, “It’s not like I can control it asshole,” I yell back at him, but my voice comes out hoarse with how dry and aching my throat is. I get up to grab some water and chug it then refill the glass and do it once more. I turn around and see him staring again. “You have some serious issues,” the asshole says, “What happened for you to be this messed up?” What a presumptuous prick, “Why don’t you take a wild guess?” I open my arms looking down at my body, hinting at what it might obviously be. My sleep wear leaving nothing to the imagination once again. I might as well get used to him seeing me half naked since he’s clearly on guard outside at this time every day. It’s 3:55am this time though and I’m ridiculously tired and horribly sore putting me in an even worse mood.
I can’t be distracted by this, I have a million questions that need to be answered. Plus, I’m not ready for anything related to feelings or intimacy. His eyes are burning into my skin, I can feel them move along my body, he clears his throat. “Are you ready to go?” He asks. “Yes, I- uh, where do I put all my things?” I say fumbling my words. “Leave it, I’ll have them sent to your cabin. There’s a car waiting outside to drive us to the restaurant.” He says and walks towards the door. We walk in silence to the car, my heels clicking against the floor the only sound. He opens the door and extends his hand to help me in. “Oh we’re using niceties now are we?” I smile up at him as I take his hand and slide in. “Think you can last the whole night?” He questions raising his eye brow with a knowing smirk at his innuendo, then shuts the door before I can reply. Good thing because I’m too shocked to comment on that one. “Is he flirting or is it just me Star?” She laughs, “I thi
After a moment he goes back to taking the samples from my bite marks then blood from my arm. He cleans everything up and heads to the lab to put everything away and starts typing on the computer again. “That’s all we need for today. When the results are in we will let you know. I do want to tell you we will need samples from your wolf as well, just so you can prepare for that however you may need,” he informs me. “Thank you,” is all I can think to say. I don’t know how to feel right now after all that he’s said. I jump down from the exam bed when the scowly, tall blonde girl walks in with what looks like two dry cleaning bags and two shoe boxes. Shes dressed up like she’s going somewhere special, and doesn’t even look in my direction. “Here’s everything you’ve asked for Alpha, is there anything else I can do for you?” She says obviously flirting with Noah, it’s clear from her tone of voice and the emphasis she put on ‘anything’ but he doesn’t even turn away from the screen
We walked pretty far in silence, passing a couple buildings along the way, but for the most part everything was pretty much spaced out two football fields apart with nothing between. The cabin must be located close to the border of this pack’s territory, not like I’d know anything about it but I felt like it was a pretty decent assumption. “Hey Noah?” He looks at me from the side of his eye and waits for me to continue, “I really want steak, I’ve been sleeping for 3 days, I’m starving and I want steak, so is there any way that could happen?” I pasted on a sweet smile, and blinked my eyelashes up at him. He looks away smiling, “Steak huh?” He lifts his eye brow and looks back at me. “I think I can make that happen,” he says and winks at me. Star is already drooling. I guess she’s excited for that as much as I am. “Wait, can you taste what I eat?” I ask her. “In a sense,” she says, “Just as I can feel your pain.” I think too hard on that and realize Noah’s been talking to me. My eyes g
I walk out to the destroyed cabin and find another bag of clothes waiting on the bed. I’m happy to finally have some clean clothes but I wish they were my own. “Beggars can’t be choosers,” Star says. “Any other words of wisdom almighty wolf?” I ask her. “Yes as a matter of fact, little mind reader I do. But now I won’t share them with you.” She huffs. “What did you just call me?” She doesn’t answer. “Star!” I yell out loud. “You read their minds, I’m not sure how yet but I’ve been thinking on it. And it reminded me of what happened back in the cell, how we heard the pack members going over plans, exit routes, torture practices, all of it.” I wince at the reminder of the things I don’t ever want think about again. “Your eyes were swollen closed, and all you were thinking about was how to get out and what they were going to do next,” she continued. “Star please get to the point,” the memory was too painful to look back on. “Why would they say those things out loud
“Star what do you think? This concerns you as well.” She’s quiet for a bit, “I’m not sure I want to give all information we have of us to them but we might also learn a lot from the transaction. I believe they have information we should know that they haven’t shared,” she says. I agree with her, plus I don’t think we’re going to get a better deal than this. I look to him, “Okay Noah, you’ve got yourself a deal,” I say and everyone stills immediately. Looking from me to Noah and Noah to me. He just smiles, the kind of smile a man at the poker table shares with his opponent after calling all in. I feel like I just made a deal with the devil and uncertainty crawls through my chest. “I’ll have the papers drawn up then,” he agrees. He looks to the man and woman behind him, that were called as backup, and they leave shortly after. Clearly a conversation I was not allowed to be a part of. I reach out for his emotions to see if I can get any information from it but I can’t feel an
“What the hell happened in here?,” Ang says and sweeps the room and bathroom as per usual, but this time it definitely makes sense. The doctor is by my side in an instant picking up the IV stand and rehanging the bag. “Put that thing in me again, I dare you,” I glare at him. My claws digging through the blankets into the mattress. He takes a step back and lets go of the tube with the needle attached, “Akira, we’re only here to help, there’s nothing in this that can hurt you. If you don’t want it that’s completely fine, I will not force anything,” he says. I retract my claws. Two more pack members join us in the cabin, I’m guessing they called for backup. Understandable. I’m a wild, turned wolf they know absolutely nothing about. And clearly neither do I. “Star did we do this?” I ask her. “I’m not sure but I think we did, that blinding light Akira, that was from us. It may have caused this destruction,” she hesitates, “I feel your power more than ever now. It’s strong. It makes me st
“I didn’t mean for everyone to see you but we needed to run, I needed the shift,” I say. “I needed it just as much as you, it felt amazing to run through a forest and feel the moon.” Stars memory of the feeling floods my mind in images. It helps take my mind off the ache but it’s definitely back full force. Not having a male near me seems to help, I think. I don’t know how this works exactly. I was tossing and turning for what felt like forever when someone walked in, “Hi Akira, I’m Dr. Zane, the Alpha sent me to help you okay?” He introduced himself. “No please, isn’t it bad to have a male around me right now?” I’m not taking any chances. I clearly can’t trust myself around men. “I’m mated already, 12 years now, so we will not be affected by each other I promise.” I take in what he says as much as I can, I’m in so much pain now I don’t even want to move from the fetal position I’m in. “I’m going to inject you with something to calm your body down okay?” He said. I just nodded my he
I’m really mad at myself for being happy about the feeling of his body against mine, even slightly. Stupid heat. “People who hit Alphas don’t usually live little wolf,” he says staring down at me, “But yes, basically that’s the gist of it.” This closeness is not good enough, I need more. I’m losing my mind and this water isn’t helping much now that I’m getting used to it. I push my other hand up his wet shirt to land on his abs, “And what happens to the ones who sink their claws into them?” I lift my one eyebrow at him. He definitely flexed his abs, I felt them move under my finger tips. I start to move my hand lower but he catches that wrist too. “You don’t really want to do this Akira, it’s your heat. I’m not going to let you do something you don’t want to do,” he says softly, “It also explains why we’ve been, uh, attracted to each other lately, that’s how it works.” I pull my hands to my side and step out of the shower. Tossing Angs’ wet shirt off as I walk away and throw on whatev
I’m writhing around on the bed now, completely tangled in all the bed sheets and clutching a pillow to my stomach. “No, no it’s not like that. Fuck Akira this is hard for me too,” he growls like how Ang did, not menacingly. “YOU?” If I could laugh I certainly would. “Typically female wolves go into it when they’re younger or when they find their mate. It’s to ensure their lineage, the more pups the better,” he explains. I’m staring at him now in disbelief but that changes once I feel it, a pull so strong I’m already on my feet walking towards him. “Akira stop,” he holds up his hands. I force myself to take a step back. “How do I stop this?” I ask moving from one foot to the other, I can’t stand still. His eyes are fully black, “You mate,” he says through gritted teeth. “What? But I don’t- I don’t have one of those? Noah why are you acting like that?” I remember what he said now, “What do you mean this is hard for you too?” I try to reach Star to help give me strength, heal me or som