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CHAPTER 18
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"Ano ngang pinag-usapan niyo noong nakaraang gabi?" pag-uulit na tanong ni Nova gamit ang iritadong tono. Kanina niya pa kasi tinatanong 'yan pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin sinasagot. Bumalik sa kanya ang seryoso kong tingin nang ibinaling niya ang kanyang ulo sa direksyon ni Lucas. "Lucas!"
I took a deep breath and land my eyes back at him. His wide, muscled back is facing us. From here, I can see a pair of earplugs suck in both of his ears. He obviously doesn't want to talk to anyone, especially to me.
Yumuko ako nang hindi niya kami nilingon. O kahit si Nova na lang sana. Binalik ko ang tingin sa librong binabasa ko at nagsimula na ulit magbasa.
We are here in our university's library. Kakatapos lang ng exam ngayon-ngayon lang at dito agad ako dumiretso para tignan kung tama ba 'yong mga pinagsasasagot ko sa naging exam namin para sa finals kanina.
I didn't know t
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Tragic Voice of Pleasure CHAPTER 19
TuitionI smiled as another beam of light touched my newly washed face. Maganda ang tulog ko kagabi kaya maganda rin ang gising ko. I just can't erase this smile away from my face."You look happy. May nangyari ba?" Dinig kong tanong ni Venice mula sa gilid ko.Mula sa pag-aayos ng lahat ng gamit ko ay binaling ko sa kanya ang nakangiti kong mukha. Like me, she looks ready for our final exam, too. This will be our final exam's day that's why all of the university's students are all excited."Nothing. Last day na kasi kaya masaya ako," ngiti ko pa ring sagot at nauna na sa paglalakad papunta sa pinto namin. Nilingon ko siya habang sinusuot ang I.D. ko. "Tara na, sabay na tayo."Inangat niya ang tingin sa akin at nakangiting tumango. Sinukbit niya ang kamay sa braso ko bago kami sabay na lumabas.We talked about general things, like the possible exam questions
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BirthdayI can't believe mom even invited him over our lunch. Pagkatapos niyang bayaran ang kulang ko ay niyaya niya si Jasper na samahan kaming magtanghalian. I tried really, really hard to stop him and say no, but he still agreed. Malaki pa ang ngiti niya, hindi ko alam kung inaasar ba ako o ano.I am silently scrolling on my phone while my mom and this guy over here are having their sweetest conversation. Para bang dati na silang magkakilala sa dami ng pinag-uusapan nila. Ni hindi nga ako nagsasalita, unless papansinin ako ni Mommy."Oo nga pala, why don't you come over in our house this Monday, Jasper?" Mula sa nakakaburyo kong phone ay inangat ko ang tingin kay Mommy dahil sa sinabi niyang iyon. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin bago nilingon ang nasa tabi kong si Jasper. Mabilis na nawala ang ngiti niya siguro nang nakita ang masama kong mata. "It's her birthday this upcoming Monday."Mariin akong pum
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ChooseThat day became my most memorable and most favorite day I've ever had. I didn't know celebrating a birthday with friends is actually more fulfilling and satisfying than celebrating it alone. Or just celebrating with your parents.I found out that the reason why mom planned a different celebration in Jasper's restaurant was to celebrate my birthday with him, too. Na-disappoint yata si Mommy na hindi siya makakapunta. It's not a big deal or whatever to me but I guess it is to her.That was the first birthday I was genuinely happy... and the last.For every happiness. For every laughters. For every ecstatic conversations. I remember, there will always be a despair after. That not the happiness I felt for just a second will last until at the end of my lifetime.It's always like that. It will always be like that.Three days after my birthday, my friends are
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MomMabuti na lang at tapos na ang school year na 'to. Kahit na marami pa rin akong kailangang ipasa para maging promoted sa fourth year, hindi ko 'yon ininda. I organized my time and energy correctly. Half of my day is on my mom's, while the other half is for leisure. Hindi ko naman na kailangan no'n pero si Mommy na mismo ang nagpumilit sa akin. She doesn't want to see me 24 hours a day, she said.It's been almost two months since mom got hospitalized, pero kada araw ay mas lalo siyang lumalala. The doctor said that it's some kind of cancer in lungs. Hindi ko alam kung paano nangyari iyon, pero sinabi ni Mommy na mahilig siyang manigarilyo noong kabataan pa lang niya. Maybe this is the aftershock of her action.I went out quickly from Jasper's navy blue Lexus car. Saktong-sakto ang paghinto ng halatang mamahalin niyang sasakyan sa hospital kung nasaan pa rin ngayon si Mommy. I even heard him called my name, maybe becau
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MarryMom died because of a worse stage of some cancer, a lung cancer to be specific. We were all crying and mourning for her sudden death, but the most painful weep I've heard is from my dad. He didn't just lost our mom, her wife, but rather he lost his other half. His almost whole world.Malalim akong huminga habang pinapakiramdaman ang ihip ng hangin ng Miami, Florida. Tatlong taon na ang nakalilipas simula nang nangyari 'yon, ngayon pa lang kami nakalipat dito sa states. Dad mourned really, really hard that he didn't continue to process our citizenship papers. Saka lang niya muling pinasa ang mga papeles namin noong halos dalawang taon na namatay si Mommy. That was last year.I smiled as I remember sweets moments inside those dark days. Kahit na alam kong hindi ko na ulit mahahawakan o kahit makita man lang si Mommy habang buhay, may ngiti pa ring nakaukit sa labi ko noong mga araw na iyon.Becau
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Pregnant"Ah, my shy wife..." His sweet voice filled my whole hearing senses.Mas lalo kong binaon ang mukha ko sa unan ko. This freakin' handsome guy behind me really knows how to fucking annoy me!Muli kong kinagat ang labi ko nang naramdaman ang pag-init ng pisngi ko. I know 'that' thing is normal for married couples, but still, I didn't expect that to be rough and hot.Napamura na naman tuloy ako sa isip ko nang naalala kung ano ang ginawa ko kagabi. If I could just kill myself right now, I would definitely do that. This is so embarrassing.Mabilis akong tumayo nang hindi hinaharap ang buong katawan sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at mas maaga akong nagising sa kanya kanina, nakapagsuot agad ako ng damit.Muntikan na
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CallHe looks gloomy, dark and daunting. All negative darkness that can be named is within him. He's just... sad for his mom.As much as I want to comfort him, I don't know how. Ito ang unang beses sa buhay ko na may iisang tao sa paligid ko na ganito kalungkot. Ganito ka-problemado. Ganito kadilim. At ngayon ko lang narealize na hindi ko alam kung paano maiibsan 'yong nararamdaman nila. I haven't experienced this yet, and no one around me ever experienced this, too. They are all... contented and happy in their respective lives.Ang pagbagsak ng luha ko ang huling lumabas mula sa mata ko bago ako pumikit sa araw na iyon. Kung gaano kasayang balita ang natanggap ko kinaumagahan noong araw na 'yon, ganoon naman ka-grabe ang naramdaman ko pagkasapit ng dilim.Hindi ko alam kung natulog pa ba si Jasper sa buong magdamag. Bago ako matulog ay narinig ko ang pagkukumusta niya sa mommy niya at nang nagising
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BreatheIndistinct conversations. Deafening beep of a particular machine. Sickening smell of medicine. Those things were the reason why I slowly gained my conciousness back.Dinilat ko ang mata ko. Kahit na inaasahan ko na ang puti at maliwanag na ilaw sa ibabaw ko ay sinalubong ko pa rin iyon. Bahagyang kumirot ang isang bahagi ng ulo ko nang agad na nagtama ang tingin namin ng nasabing nakakasilaw na ilaw."... doesn't mean you need to left her all alone, fucking jerk! Gusto mo saksakin kita sa baga, ha?" I know that voice. Avon Jaz owns that screechy, loud voice. She's just like that."Calm down, Avon Jaz. It's not my cousin's fault. Hindi niya naman inaasahan na magiging ganoon-""Ha! So kasalanan ng gagang 'to kung bakit siya tinakbo sa hospital?" masungit na pagpuputol ni Nova sa boses na medyo hindi pamilyar sa akin. But I think I've heard that manly voice somewhere. Hindi
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Tragic Voice of Pleasure NOTE
And that's a wrap! Thank you for reaching this far. I'm kinda nervous on how will I finish this, but yeah, here I am. Thank you so much.As always, I hope Jasper and Giovanna's story had somehow gave you an important lesson in your life. That not all things we wish will stay up until the end. That not all the facts we thought a fact will always be a truth up until the end. That's why learn to trust, understand, and cherish your relationship you have with your loved ones as long as you can. Just one careless conclusion will surely caused a thousand mistakes. Always.Anyway, again, thank you for another story we've shared. I am and will do more stories like this. Soon. I hope you'll stay with me until there. Bye-bye!
Tragic Voice of Pleasure EPILOGUE
Tragic voiceIs marriage just a joke to her?Yumuko ako at literal na nanghina nang narinig iyon mula sa kanya. Mula... sa nanay na pinaka hinahangaan ko.As you can see, I came from an elite and noble family. My dad's family and ancestors rule Malolos for years now. Though hindi tuloy-tuloy dahil may iilan din namang namamahala sa syudad na hindi namin kamag-anak, pero siguro kung susumahin, halos kilala nga ang pangalan namin dahil sa politika. Hanggang ngayon ay ang pamilya pa rin namin ang namamahala sa buong syudad. Everyone just trusts our family. From how we run, how we manage, and how we lead each and every aspect of the city.Everything is just... perfect. It all matches up. One piece of puzzle to another. Saktong-sakto ang lahat. Pero... sa tingin ko ay may kulang pa rin. Sa tingin ko ay may ku
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CourtIlang saglit akong hindi nagsalita. Hinayaan ko muna ang sarili ko na muling lumangoy sa malalim at mabibigat na pares ng mata niya.Jasper's set of eyes is sometimes fascinating, sometime's scary. Nakakamangha dahil siguro siya lang ang kilala kong may ganoong mata... at nakakatakot dahil lagi akong nakakaramdam ng pagwawala ng kalamnan ko kapag tumatama ang paningin ko doon. Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba ang nakakaramdam no'n. Minsan naiisip ko kung dadating ba ang araw na hindi na magiging mabigat sa paningin ko ang mga matang iyon. At mukhang malapit na nga ang araw na 'yon.Iniwas ko ang tingin sa nakakamangha niyang mata. Lumunok ako habang dahan-dahan ang paglakad papunta sa duyan na pinakita niya sa akin.I remember I once told Fiona about my love on these. I loved to use and play swings before, when I was still a child. Hindi ko namalayan na nasabi ko na pala sa kanya iyon at natandaa
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WhySumimsim ako sa tsaang nakalaan para sa akin. Ang tahimik na coffee shop na 'to ay umayon sa nagwawala kong utak. All of my thoughts ever since I've made that decision are now running wild again. Lagi naman. Tuwing tahimik ang paligid ay laging pinipili ng utak ko na sabihin ang mga hinaing pa nila.I am meeting my lawyer. Our divorce papers began processing three months ago. It's still on process though, but I still need to catch up with him. Isang beses sa isang buwan lang kasi kami mag-usap.Wala sa sarili kong binaling ang ulo sa harap ko. There, I saw my reflection on one corner of this huge coffee shop. Nasa sulok kasi ako nakapwesto kaya ang salamin na nasa sulok ay kitang-kita ako. Hindi naman iyon ganoon kalaki para maasiwa ako. Sakto lang para makita ko ang kalahati ng ayos ko ngayon.After six months, I noticed my natural brown curvy hair grew bigger. Ang dating hanggang dibdib ay luma
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ControlI was left in awe. I don't know what coincidence this is... but I am definitely shocked!Lucas Chua, my first crush when I was in college, is in front of me! Really. His familiar height changed. Mas lalo siyang tumangkad ngayon. Ganoon pa rin ang iilang features ng mukha niya. Mapupungay na mata, matangos na ilong at mapulang labi. Ang buhok niyang laging nakaayos dati ay medyo loose na ngayon, pero hindi pa rin naman ganoon kagulo. Or baka magulo lang pero hindi ko namalayan kasi bagay naman sa kanya?I don't know! But one thing is for sure, he really has changed. I can literally feel it.It's been... well I guess minutes since we met each other again. After years... I can't believe he's now here! In front of me. What a life, right?Malaki siyang ngumiti nang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. Mas lalong nalaglag ang panga ko dahil doon. I can't believe that smile I am waitin
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ControlI was left in awe. I don't know what coincidence this is... but I am definitely shocked!Lucas Chua, my first crush when I was in college, is in front of me! Really. His familiar height changed. Mas lalo siyang tumangkad ngayon. Ganoon pa rin ang iilang features ng mukha niya. Mapupungay na mata, matangos na ilong at mapulang labi. Ang buhok niyang laging nakaayos dati ay medyo loose na ngayon, pero hindi pa rin naman ganoon kagulo. Or baka magulo lang pero hindi ko namalayan kasi bagay naman sa kanya?I don't know! But one thing is for sure, he really has changed. I can literally feel it.It's been... well I guess minutes since we met each other again. After years... I can't believe he's now here! In front of me. What a life, right?Malaki siyang ngumiti nang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. Mas lalong nalaglag ang panga ko dahil doon. I can't believe that smile I am waitin
Tragic Voice of Pleasure CHAPTER 26
BreatheIndistinct conversations. Deafening beep of a particular machine. Sickening smell of medicine. Those things were the reason why I slowly gained my conciousness back.Dinilat ko ang mata ko. Kahit na inaasahan ko na ang puti at maliwanag na ilaw sa ibabaw ko ay sinalubong ko pa rin iyon. Bahagyang kumirot ang isang bahagi ng ulo ko nang agad na nagtama ang tingin namin ng nasabing nakakasilaw na ilaw."... doesn't mean you need to left her all alone, fucking jerk! Gusto mo saksakin kita sa baga, ha?" I know that voice. Avon Jaz owns that screechy, loud voice. She's just like that."Calm down, Avon Jaz. It's not my cousin's fault. Hindi niya naman inaasahan na magiging ganoon-""Ha! So kasalanan ng gagang 'to kung bakit siya tinakbo sa hospital?" masungit na pagpuputol ni Nova sa boses na medyo hindi pamilyar sa akin. But I think I've heard that manly voice somewhere. Hindi
Tragic Voice of Pleasure CHAPTER 25
CallHe looks gloomy, dark and daunting. All negative darkness that can be named is within him. He's just... sad for his mom.As much as I want to comfort him, I don't know how. Ito ang unang beses sa buhay ko na may iisang tao sa paligid ko na ganito kalungkot. Ganito ka-problemado. Ganito kadilim. At ngayon ko lang narealize na hindi ko alam kung paano maiibsan 'yong nararamdaman nila. I haven't experienced this yet, and no one around me ever experienced this, too. They are all... contented and happy in their respective lives.Ang pagbagsak ng luha ko ang huling lumabas mula sa mata ko bago ako pumikit sa araw na iyon. Kung gaano kasayang balita ang natanggap ko kinaumagahan noong araw na 'yon, ganoon naman ka-grabe ang naramdaman ko pagkasapit ng dilim.Hindi ko alam kung natulog pa ba si Jasper sa buong magdamag. Bago ako matulog ay narinig ko ang pagkukumusta niya sa mommy niya at nang nagising
Tragic Voice of Pleasure CHAPTER 24
Pregnant"Ah, my shy wife..." His sweet voice filled my whole hearing senses.Mas lalo kong binaon ang mukha ko sa unan ko. This freakin' handsome guy behind me really knows how to fucking annoy me!Muli kong kinagat ang labi ko nang naramdaman ang pag-init ng pisngi ko. I know 'that' thing is normal for married couples, but still, I didn't expect that to be rough and hot.Napamura na naman tuloy ako sa isip ko nang naalala kung ano ang ginawa ko kagabi. If I could just kill myself right now, I would definitely do that. This is so embarrassing.Mabilis akong tumayo nang hindi hinaharap ang buong katawan sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at mas maaga akong nagising sa kanya kanina, nakapagsuot agad ako ng damit.Muntikan na
