Breathe
Indistinct conversations. Deafening beep of a particular machine. Sickening smell of medicine. Those things were the reason why I slowly gained my conciousness back.
Dinilat ko ang mata ko. Kahit na inaasahan ko na ang puti at maliwanag na ilaw sa ibabaw ko ay sinalubong ko pa rin iyon. Bahagyang kumirot ang isang bahagi ng ulo ko nang agad na nagtama ang tingin namin ng nasabing nakakasilaw na ilaw.
"... doesn't mean you need to left her all alone, fucking jerk! Gusto mo saksakin kita sa baga, ha?" I know that voice. Avon Jaz owns that screechy, loud voice. She's just like that.
"Calm down, Avon Jaz. It's not my cousin's fault. Hindi niya naman inaasahan na magiging ganoon-"
"Ha! So kasalanan ng gagang 'to kung bakit siya tinakbo sa hospital?" masungit na pagpuputol ni Nova sa boses na medyo hindi pamilyar sa akin. But I think I've heard that manly voice somewhere. Hindi
ControlI was left in awe. I don't know what coincidence this is... but I am definitely shocked!Lucas Chua, my first crush when I was in college, is in front of me! Really. His familiar height changed. Mas lalo siyang tumangkad ngayon. Ganoon pa rin ang iilang features ng mukha niya. Mapupungay na mata, matangos na ilong at mapulang labi. Ang buhok niyang laging nakaayos dati ay medyo loose na ngayon, pero hindi pa rin naman ganoon kagulo. Or baka magulo lang pero hindi ko namalayan kasi bagay naman sa kanya?I don't know! But one thing is for sure, he really has changed. I can literally feel it.It's been... well I guess minutes since we met each other again. After years... I can't believe he's now here! In front of me. What a life, right?Malaki siyang ngumiti nang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. Mas lalong nalaglag ang panga ko dahil doon. I can't believe that smile I am waitin
ControlI was left in awe. I don't know what coincidence this is... but I am definitely shocked!Lucas Chua, my first crush when I was in college, is in front of me! Really. His familiar height changed. Mas lalo siyang tumangkad ngayon. Ganoon pa rin ang iilang features ng mukha niya. Mapupungay na mata, matangos na ilong at mapulang labi. Ang buhok niyang laging nakaayos dati ay medyo loose na ngayon, pero hindi pa rin naman ganoon kagulo. Or baka magulo lang pero hindi ko namalayan kasi bagay naman sa kanya?I don't know! But one thing is for sure, he really has changed. I can literally feel it.It's been... well I guess minutes since we met each other again. After years... I can't believe he's now here! In front of me. What a life, right?Malaki siyang ngumiti nang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. Mas lalong nalaglag ang panga ko dahil doon. I can't believe that smile I am waitin
WhySumimsim ako sa tsaang nakalaan para sa akin. Ang tahimik na coffee shop na 'to ay umayon sa nagwawala kong utak. All of my thoughts ever since I've made that decision are now running wild again. Lagi naman. Tuwing tahimik ang paligid ay laging pinipili ng utak ko na sabihin ang mga hinaing pa nila.I am meeting my lawyer. Our divorce papers began processing three months ago. It's still on process though, but I still need to catch up with him. Isang beses sa isang buwan lang kasi kami mag-usap.Wala sa sarili kong binaling ang ulo sa harap ko. There, I saw my reflection on one corner of this huge coffee shop. Nasa sulok kasi ako nakapwesto kaya ang salamin na nasa sulok ay kitang-kita ako. Hindi naman iyon ganoon kalaki para maasiwa ako. Sakto lang para makita ko ang kalahati ng ayos ko ngayon.After six months, I noticed my natural brown curvy hair grew bigger. Ang dating hanggang dibdib ay luma
CourtIlang saglit akong hindi nagsalita. Hinayaan ko muna ang sarili ko na muling lumangoy sa malalim at mabibigat na pares ng mata niya.Jasper's set of eyes is sometimes fascinating, sometime's scary. Nakakamangha dahil siguro siya lang ang kilala kong may ganoong mata... at nakakatakot dahil lagi akong nakakaramdam ng pagwawala ng kalamnan ko kapag tumatama ang paningin ko doon. Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba ang nakakaramdam no'n. Minsan naiisip ko kung dadating ba ang araw na hindi na magiging mabigat sa paningin ko ang mga matang iyon. At mukhang malapit na nga ang araw na 'yon.Iniwas ko ang tingin sa nakakamangha niyang mata. Lumunok ako habang dahan-dahan ang paglakad papunta sa duyan na pinakita niya sa akin.I remember I once told Fiona about my love on these. I loved to use and play swings before, when I was still a child. Hindi ko namalayan na nasabi ko na pala sa kanya iyon at natandaa
Tragic voiceIs marriage just a joke to her?Yumuko ako at literal na nanghina nang narinig iyon mula sa kanya. Mula... sa nanay na pinaka hinahangaan ko.As you can see, I came from an elite and noble family. My dad's family and ancestors rule Malolos for years now. Though hindi tuloy-tuloy dahil may iilan din namang namamahala sa syudad na hindi namin kamag-anak, pero siguro kung susumahin, halos kilala nga ang pangalan namin dahil sa politika. Hanggang ngayon ay ang pamilya pa rin namin ang namamahala sa buong syudad. Everyone just trusts our family. From how we run, how we manage, and how we lead each and every aspect of the city.Everything is just... perfect. It all matches up. One piece of puzzle to another. Saktong-sakto ang lahat. Pero... sa tingin ko ay may kulang pa rin. Sa tingin ko ay may ku
And that's a wrap! Thank you for reaching this far. I'm kinda nervous on how will I finish this, but yeah, here I am. Thank you so much.As always, I hope Jasper and Giovanna's story had somehow gave you an important lesson in your life. That not all things we wish will stay up until the end. That not all the facts we thought a fact will always be a truth up until the end. That's why learn to trust, understand, and cherish your relationship you have with your loved ones as long as you can. Just one careless conclusion will surely caused a thousand mistakes. Always.Anyway, again, thank you for another story we've shared. I am and will do more stories like this. Soon. I hope you'll stay with me until there. Bye-bye!
DivorceBeing married, as far as I'm concerned, is rewarding. It feels like having your own best friend, a lover, a person who brings you medicine and a glass of water when you are sick, and someone who helps you build your dreams as much as you have for them. It's relaxing.But throughout this journey, I realized it's not always the happiness, the sweet little giggles, the kisses... and everything we thought it would be. Sometimes it's depressing, daunting, and gloomy. This is the type of marriage I'd never expected I will choose to settle in. I deserve better than this."Order in the court!"Ang mainit na sinag ng araw ang sumalubong sa akin. I took a deep breath for the second time as I calmly feel its blazing hotness together with a strong, blustery wind. This is exactly what Miami feels like. I smiled genuinely for the first time after three
CryPinunasan ko ang mukha ko. Basang-basa iyon dahil sa mga luhang ibinuhos ko. I got up from sitting peacefully and fixed myself. I glanced down at the tranquil grave of the most beautiful woman I've ever known.Rest In Peace. Gina Oliva L. Favela."I should already go home na, My. I, uh..." Tumikhim ako para pigilan ang pagbagsak ng mga nagbabadya kong luha. If I just had the enough time to stay here for a little longer and complain every single thing to her, I would. I'll definitely would. She's my only peace and safe haven. Ngumisi ako para kahit papaano ay mabawasan ang posibleng pagbagsak ng mga luha ko. "Thanks for listening to my rants again. Dadalhin ko dito next time si Fiona. She's still sick, so she can't visit her mommy lola, e."