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2022-06-16 16:01:02ALESSANDRA
“Why did you choose to become a psychiatrist?” He asked me as soon as I settled myself in front of him.
Expected!
Of course, he cannot get something private to ask because I think the man can guess there is nothing I have to hide.
“I was interested in it. Human brain excites me with its thinking. It’s indeed a miracle for me.” I said and I was honest. He nodded and while doing that, his one brow arched.
“Then what do you think about my brain?” He smirked and I was literally patting his bravery. Inwardly. Even I took some time to ask what he thought about me but this man asked me directly after just one question.
Boy, if you wanted, you would’ve asked me more straight than that?
“Ah…” I parted my lips to say something but nothing came out. God, he just trapped me badly. What should I tell him? That I think of him as a brutal murder who did not think twice before killing his parents!
“Ah...what?” He cocked his brow as he reminded me I should complete it.
I nodded and licked my lip in anxiousness. How should I answer him? I do not want to lie.
“You can tell me, Ms psychiatrist. I’m not gonna harm you.” He assured me as if I was scared of him. Well, I am literally scared but I know he cannot do anything to me right now. There is staff around me, who are just a call away from us.
I nodded. “Actually I think your mind has a cruel fantasy.” I eventually gulped when I noticed his pupils dilating. God! Just save me already! But putting my fear aside, I completed nonetheless, “You still want to keep your cruel stubbornness alive inside you.” And there he smirked. I really did not understand what went through his mind for a moment. His eyes had turned dark green. He had never had such deep eyes. But at the moment I was watching his eyes deepening like a ditch. I was dreaming or it was just the deception of my eyes, I did not know, but those eyes came by pushing my heart blindly. For a moment it felt as if those eyes had stopped my beating. Literally!
“Do you date someone?”
My eyes widened as I asked bluntly, “Excuse me?”
“You heard me right.” And just right there, my throat went dry all of a sudden.
“Sorry to point out, but you’re digging too deep now, aren't you?” I muttered as I could not control myself.
“I didn’t complain to you when you were asking me about my past so why do you tear your eyes now?” He shrugged.
I went silent and leaned backwards when I heard him. Now I realized that I asked Hades really deep questions. They were old and because of them, Hades may be reminded of his terrible past. Maybe he is still remembering. I can understand that remembering dark memories can give your heart a deep and cruel impact and now I feel sorry for that.
I sighed and nodded. “I’m sorry for hurting you,” I mumbled, looking down. It is embarrassing right now.
“It doesn’t hurt anymore. By the way, if you’re sorry then answer me.” This way or that way, he won’t let the topic go!
“No, I’m not dating anyone.” I kept my head low as I did not want to match his gaze. I cannot forget the push they gave my heart a moment ago.
“What about your past?”
“I… never had a boyfriend.”
“Hm, seems like you’re so into your career…” He trailed off. But why are you so interested? I felt like yelling at him but I had to keep myself shut.
I nodded nonetheless.
“You think my fantasies are cruel, why don’t you tell me about your fantasies?” Heat crawled up to my cheeks. My skin was burning and I could feel the heat emerging out of my skin slowly. He is too open to ask such questions and most importantly he is not even ashamed of it.
“I… to be honest, I never thought about it…” I bit on my bottom lip while fidgeting with my fingers. I kept looking down at my lap. I was waiting for his answer but I did not want to look up.
By my reactions, anybody can guess I am a shy person but I cannot help it. It keeps eating me inwardly. Now also, I was feeling so abashed by answering him.
And there, I hear him laughing.
I looked up in confusion and I could guess my face was looking like a crumpled map. Well, I did not care about the flummoxed look I was giving to him, I just stared at him.
“You’re literally different from the rest, Alessandra,” he said in his deep voice which turned smokey when he called my name.
I could not help but notice the way his tongue rolled out my name. His voice was like an alarm to my ears. A soothing as well as a terrifying alarm. His way of calling out my name gave me chills up my spine. I am not sure if I reacted visibly or not, all I know is that I could not help but react.
This should not be working on me this deeply. I should not be feeling the way I felt when he called my name, staring deep into my eyes.
“What happened, Ms psychiatrist?” His voice pulled me out of my thoughts.
My eyes fluttered when I focused on him. I was lost in front of my patient. It is rare to get a psychiatrist dreaming in daylight but he fucking saw it. I swear this was the first time I behaved like that. I was never this absent! I was always on alert but this man was catching me off guard.
I could not understand what the hell was happening with me around him.
“N-Nothing.” I shook my head and then sucked a long breath.
“But I see you aren’t fine.” I shook my head once again and averted my gaze. I looked out through the window and pulled another bunch of air.
“I… am…” I nodded like a stupid and then got up from the seat.
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