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24 || Panic attack
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2022-08-21 11:11:31My boyfriend is not happy. He’s not mad at me but he’s not happy with the situation.
Amelia nudges me with her knee, I shake off thoughts of Calum and try to participate in the conversation. Rose and Taylor will leave after our finals, we have to cherish every moment.
Today, it’s just us four at our table. I like it. I missed it. I love having their boyfriends at our table but it’s different with only the girls. It’s us.
“Girls,” I say and my hand goes up. Everyone stops talking. Rose shoves her burger into her mouth, stuffing her cheek like a starving bum. Amelia sips from her coke. “I was thinking…” Well, it’s Calum’s idea or rather, Dani’s but I don’t tell them that as I propose the plan of switching our mode of operation. “It can help us.”
It can help me.
Calum is doing his part. I have to also do mine. Rose dumps her burger on her
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