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32 || My heart
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“It’s breaking,” I whisper over the phone to Amelia. The only reason I didn’t run off to her house after the fight with Calum is because I want to be alone and I don’t want to bother her.
“What?” she asks.
I place a hand over my chest and the organ protected by my ribcage beats faster. It hurts.
“My heart. It’s breaking.”
“Cathy,” she says. I tug the cover over my head. It sounded like a good idea to call her. Now, I’m not so sure. I just want to hide here until the pain goes away. “Do you want me to come over?”
“No, it’s fine.” Pretending she’s here, I roll on my side and stare into space. Calum should be in his room. “Can I tell you something?” Amelia hums in response. “I feel so alone sometimes.”
“What do you mean?”
My eyes shut. I put into words w
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