Chapter 34Regret"Hindi ako nagsisisi," my brother was straightforward.Umigkas ang kamay ko para sa isang sampal sa kaniya. Halos hindi ko na maipikit ang mga mata ko sa mga luhang bumubuhos. I can't believe I'm hearing this from him!He's already handcuffed but he's still thick-skinned like this. Pinili kong puntahan siya kaysa ang ospital kung nasaan ang anak ko dahil alam kong safe siya roon. I just need a clear answer why my brother became a threat to him."A-Ano bang nagawa ko sa 'yo para gawin mo 'to sa anak ko?!" may hinanakit kong tanong. "He's your nephew! How dare you!"Halos mabasag ang boses ko sa tindi ng aking pagsigaw. Inalalayan ako ni Seymour. If it weren't for his hold on me, I might be sitting on the floor now. Meanwhile, my brother just stared at me blankly."I won't exchange what happened into something else. Wala akong pagsisisi, Rigella," mariin na aniya."Kuya, naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo? Kapatid mo 'ko at kadugo mo si Ice! Pamangkin mo yung bata, Kuya!""
Chapter 35TearsOne thing was clear to me. All that happened was full of deceit and compensation. All for my family's money and riches.They let me in, as per Lara's words. Umalis na lang ako basta kanina dahil hindi ko na masikmura ang samyuin ang hangin na sinasamyo rin nila. The thought of being with them suffocates me, and I don't want my stresses because of them affect the baby in my stomach."Mama is here now..." I assured Ice while he cried on my chest.Humihikbi siyang yumakap sa akin nang mahigpit. May sumasakal sa puso ko habang nakikita siyang nagkakaganito. He must've been very scared. Dapat nandoon ako pero dahil sa kapabayaan ko, muntik nang manganib ang buhay niya.I caressed his hair and back and hushed him more. It must've been traumatic to him. Mas nasasaktan ako na wala man lang akong magawa para hindi na niya iyon damdamin pa."Shh... I will never leave you again. Okay, Ice? Mama is here. I'm here...""I-I was so scared, Mama! T-That... That man... he's bad, Mama
Chapter 36Mistress"The baby is strong. I think the spotting resulted from constant stress. May mga iniisip ka ba lately na hindi maganda ang epekto sa 'yo?" the doctor asked.I bit my lower lip nervously. "Uhm... Just a bit, doc. Bakit po? Magiging delikado po ba kapag... dinugo po 'ko ulit?"She fixed her surgical mask. "Well, I can only guarantee na malakas ang kapit ng bata. Pero kahit gano'n, you should take care of the baby and yourself as well. Hangga't maaari, umiwas ka sa mga bagay na nagbibigay sa 'yo ng stress. Don't exhaust yourself too much."Marahan akong tumango. "Naiintindihan ko po.""You told me this is your first check-up. I'll recommend you to our best OB so she can give you a full check-up. I hope I wouldn't see you here in the emergency again."I know she's smiling behind her face mask. Hindi ko man alam kung bakit may suot siya na ganoon, pero siguro protocol lang. It's weird, though. Pakiramdam ko, matagal ko na siyang kilala. Her eyes somehow reminded me of
Chapter 37Unshaken "He told us to inject this into her before she wakes up, and we did. I think she's in better shape now." I heard an unfamiliar voice."Good... fuck," the other familiar voice breathed harshly. "This shouldn't have happened. We've been avoiding this. This is utter shit."Marahan akong nagmulat dahil sa naririnig. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko at ramdam ko ang panghihina kahit pa nakahiga naman. I let out a deep exhale and looked around my surroundings."Curses aren't even enough to describe our situation. Now we had to back our asses out because we cannot fight back. Damn the system.""We should've fought back a long time ago. This isn't on the plan. I almost met my end. Tres, we're fucked up..."Ivan's problematicness became a cue for me to rise up. Ang pangalawang boses, sa kaniya iyon. I'm sure of that. But who's the owner of the other voice?They're talking outside the room. Umisang libot pa ako ng tingin sa kinalalagyan pero hindi ko talaga mahanap ang pamilyaridad
Chapter 38FortuneTruly, there will always be one pivotal moment in our lives that will change our lives entirely.I took another spoonful of the food Ivan prepared for me. Hindi pa ako nakakalabas sa kuwartong kinalalagyan ko simula pa kahapon. Even to go see Ice, I couldn't do. Paano ko siya mahaharap kung ganitong bantay-sarado ako ng ama niya at hindi ako makabuo ng maayos na desisyon.Also, Ivan's guards were yet again, allover the place and I would immediately feel like shaking and have goosebumps seeing them. After my past encounters with people their calibre, it's difficult to just face them again. Hindi ko rin makukuhang isugal ang buhay ko at ng anak ko dahil ano na lang ang mangyayari sa akin kung pati siya, mawawala?Oftentimes, Ivan would be with me and would tell me sweet nothings that I didn't bother paying attention to. Masi-stress lang ako lalo pa kapag naiisip kong nagsisinungaling lang siya at mas lalo akong pinahihirapan. I was still reminded that I'm pregnant so I
Chapter 39CurtainsLarisse calling...I stared at Ivan's phone. Kanina pa iyon nagba-vibrate sa ibabaw ng side table kaya hindi ko matuloy-tuloy ang pagtulog ko. He's in a deep sleep beside me.Unti-unti kong inalsa ang sarili. I gave him a quick glance before towering over him so that I can pick his phone up. Nakasandal iyon sa lampshade kaya madali ko na lang nakuha. I held it tight when I saw her name clearer.Hindi ko na kailangang kuwestiyonin ang pagtawag ng babaeng ito. Of course, she's Ivan's girlfriend. Kung paano niya akong naibigay sa lalaking ito, hindi ko na rin gustong malaman. Malamang, parte ito ng palabas nila para matupad ang maiitim nilang balak.I tapped the phone ungently. Dinikit ko ang speaker sa tainga ko at pinakinggan ang mga sinasabi ni Lara."Babe, Ivan..." her voice was surprisingly problematic. "Kausapin mo naman ako. P-Parang awa mo na..."Sa palagay ko, hindi na niya naituloy ang iba pang sasabihin dahil sa pag-iyak. I bit my lower lip. Bakit kaya siya
Chapter 40 How Clueless about everything that happened next, I didn't realize how long I had been sitting behind the curtains. Yapos-yapos ko ang mga tuhod ko. Instead of being clouded with so many thoughts, my mind had nothing to think about. It's like I forcefully pushed my thoughts away so they wouldn't blow me away. "Where is she?!" ang nagmamadaling boses ni Ivan. "Who among them?" malamig na tanong ni Xyleus. "My wife, Santiago!" "Damn it, Ivan. Ang sinabi mo walang madadamay sa kanila!" I recognized it's Creed's voice. Marahan akong pumikit. I badly want to cover my ears but I'm exteremely weak to do so. I didn't know it's too much draining to just have listened to something. Parang hinihigop ang lahat ng enerhiya ko... "We are totally fucked up now. They tricked us." The curtains opened harshly. Napamulat ako nang wala sa oras. Ivan showed up. Fear blazed through me. What the hell is his involvement with this and what the hell just happened? "Rigella," may hingal ni
Chapter 41Emotional"Something happened?!" nalalamon na ng pagkabingi ko ang boses na iyon. "Help me!" hindi ko na narinig ang sunod na sinabi ni Ivan. Until I blacked out. Out of too much stress, I bled. Halos hindi ko iyon maramdaman. Tears fell from my eyes while I listened to my diagnosis. "This wouldn't be easy for you. Just try to switch it off. Your thoughts might kill the baby in the process if you don't control them," Creed informed in the middle of reading his chart. They put me on a single bed. Everything was dark except for this particular space. Hindi ko alam kung saan ito. Mayroon lang akong nakikitang ultrasound monitor sa harap ko at ilan pang equipment. I can clearly see the bean-like structure in my womb. Pinahid ko ang aking luha. This is the first time I've been checked inside at sa ganito pang pagkakataon. This will surely be memorable. I might not want to entertain memories of Ivan, but I know this will still be a keepsake. The first time that I saw the im
Chapter 61His Past (Part 2)“What’s that? Pampalubag loob mo?” Larisse asked sternly and coldly after I handed over her a bouquet of flowers and chocolates.I kept a small smile, still. She can really be difficult at times, but I can understand. We’re each other’s reflection. We are so alike.Two people sharing the same dilemma. Their parents.Maybe that’s what prolly gravitated us towards each other.“Please, accept this?” I said softly, cajoling her, “I made the chocolates by myself.”Mabilis na nagbago ang seryoso niyang ekspresyon. Her face softened. Lumawak ang ngiti ko. She then finally accepted the flowers and chocolates.She straightened out her arms, offering a hug. Ngumiti ako niyakap siya. “It’s your fault, but apology accepted.”Napawi nang kaunti ang ngiti ko. I remembered why we ended up breaking up weeks ago. Nagselos siya sa babaeng lumapit sa ‘kin para kausapin ako saglit.Lara she couldn’t control her jealousy sometimes that it gave me thoughts. If this is really w
Chapter 60His Past (Part 1)“You ranked first, but this is not enough,” Papa told me, one time in my last year in high school, when I showed him my report card.I came into his office thinking that when I‘d brought him the good news, he‘d finally allow me to have culinary classes again. That was my only hope.But then, as per his very words...It’s still not enough.“What do you mean?“ mahina kong tanong nang tanggapin ko ang binalik niyang report card.My grades were high. I never had any eight or seven. Only nines and even a hundred.Why does he keep on underestimating my hard-earned efforts?“That’s still insufficient for you to be accepted in Harvard,“ he answered as if it was too simple to do.My lips parted. I was rendered speechless.I only... wanted one thing. To take culinary classes. I loved cooking. I loved the feeling of being able to serve people with delicious food. It’s... something that not all men in my league aspires to do, but I do.I can always breathe as long as
Chapter 59Her Doubts“It’s not that he forgot completely who Uno is. It’s that he’s under a trance, and he can’t say his name. Guess what? This is how he‘d been for the last thirteen years, Rigella,” mapait na dagdag ni Tres.Halos manigas ako sa aking kinatatayuan. My mouth parted but no voice came out. Umangat ang tingin ko kay Ivan na nanghihina pa rin at tila naluluha. And I just noticed, his eyes looked lost and and dead.What the hell is this?!“Maniniwala ka ba talaga sa gagong ‘to, Andrea?” Danger asked which made my rationality come back.True enough, that’s ridiculous.Tres hypnotized Ivan? What kind of excuse is that? Ano ito? Para lang hindi nila masabi sa ‘kin kung sino talaga si Uno?Of course! They’d avoid answering my one and only question. Kasamahan nila sa organisasyon ang demonyong ‘yon kaya pagtatakpan nila kahit buhay pa nila ang maging kapalit.And now, they’re trying to escape me with that pathetic excuse?“Great question, Cinco. It’s like you really don’t kno
Chapter 58Her Shock“What do you mean?!” I asked Ivan with a ragged breath.Habol ko ang aking hininga habang paulit-ulit ang pagdagundong sa dibdib ko. Halos kilabutan ako sa narinig ko sa kaniya.My enemy numero uno... my archnemesis... Uno...Is just within my reach... so close to me... all this fucking time?!His head fell weakly. Kumunot ang noo niya at parang litong-lito. Lumapit ako at padarag siyang hinawakan sa balikat.“Answer me! Sino si Uno!” Niyugyog ko ang nakatali niyang katawan.He lifted his head and our eyes met. May sugat siya sa gilid ng kaniyang mata at may pasa sa pisngi. His lip was bleeding.“I... I can’t say it,” he hissed.My brows quickly pulled together. “Are you insane? Sasabihin mo lang! Sabihin mo sa ‘kin kung sino si Uno!”Puno ng kalituhan ang mukha niya. What I noticed was his eyes. He looked very confused and his eyes were bloodshot.“S-Si... Si...” he attempted to say something, but he would pause each time he tries to speak.Niyugyog ko siyang mul
Chapter 57Her Danger“I want you to choose which method I should use on you,” nakahalukipkip kong tanong at pinadaan ang talim ng kutsilyo sa gilid ng leeg ni Ivan, “a torturous death... or an easy way out?” Kalmado pa rin ang mukha niya kahit nakababa na kami mula sa van at dinala ko siya sa isa sa mga rest house ko sa isang liblib na lugar sa probinsya.He was seated on the sofa of my living room — with both hands and feet cuffed. Nasa akin ang susi ng posas at naka-double lock din iyon. Unless, he‘d burn his own arms and legs, then he could get out.Nagkalat sa paligid ang mga tauhan ko at nasa taas din sina Sapphire at Emerald. Diamond left the port the moment I instructed her to guard my son and take him to a safe place. Kung saan tumutuloy si Darlyn at ang anak niya.“What do you want to know?” tanong niya at diretso ang tingin sa kawalan.From his back, I grabbed his chin. Inangat ko iyon hanggang sa ma-expose ang leeg niya. I pointed the edge of the knife on his neck.“Who i
Chapter 56His Surrender“Kill me,” I told her in a breathy voice.She wasn’t even fazed. The cold smirk on her lips told me that she didn’t feel anything about me anymore.I’m nothing but a prey for her... that she needs to kill and dispatch.My vision blurred even more. My heart clenched in pain. Umigting ang panga ko at nagbaba ng tingin. Kumuyom ang aking kamao.“Just do it, Rigella.” I have nothing else to say but it.Because I know, I deserve every pain and torture for not being able to protect her before.For letting those evil minds treat me like a guinea pig. For letting them mess up my mind that primarily affected my relationship with my wife and my family. It’s all my fault... and I deserve to die for it.“One question, Ivan,” aniya at mas diniin ang nguso ng baril sa aking noo, “are you Uno?” My eyes widened a bit. She... knows Uno? Then she probably knows that goddamn org, Dark Alpha.It shouldn’t surprise me anymore, but it still did. She’s Andrea Steinfields now. Som
Chapter 55Her Comeback“Momma, she’s crying,” nag-aalalang saad ni Rayven sa telepono.My heart clenched. “Baby, what happened? Did Rayne got hurt? Are you both okay?”“Yes, Momma. We’re okay. She had a nightmare. She told us you disappeared in an instant and never came back again in her dream.”Napahinga ako nang maluwag nang marinig iyon. Lulan ako ng van na patungo sa private port na pagmamay-ari ni Dos. A total of ten vehicles are tailing my van.Today is the D-day. I’ll finally come face-to-face with my pathetic little ex-husband after so many years. “Rayven, can you do something for Momma?” I asked carefully. “What is it?”“Please pass the phone to your sister? Tell her I called.” Tumahimik naman ang kabilang linya. I heard my daughter crying over the phone. Pumikit ako nang mariin. It breaks my heart to hear her cry like that at wala man lang ako sa tabi niya.“Rayne, Momma wants to talk to you,” I heard Rayven’s calm voice.“H-Huh? Momma? Momma is calling, Rayven?!” I hear
Chapter 54His Seat“Dos, can you calm this asshole?” iritadong saad ni Cuatro matapos maupo sa kaniyang upuan. I also settled in my seat, wearing my mask of indifference. Nakaupo na rin si Tres sa gitna namin. He’s massaging the bridge of his nose as if something’s pestering his mind.The oval meeting table was still unoccupied by the other members of Dark Alpha. Nauna kaming dumating at malalamang na namahuhuli si Uno dahil gusto niya na namang magpapansin sa lahat.“What’s wrong?” I asked in a serious voice.Cuatro hissed. “Sagutin mo, gago!” He punched Tres’ arm. Hindi naman natinag si Xyleus. His face was serious and his brows were furrowed tight.“Cuatro,” I called Creed, “what the hell is wrong with him?”Pumalatak siya. “Tangina talaga neto ni Tres. Kinakausap ka, eh!” My jaw clenched. Nang makita niyang dumidilim na ang ekspresyon ko ay napangiwi siya.“Para kayong gago, eh. ‘Wag n’yo na nga akong idamay sa mga katarantaduhan niyo. Namumuro na kayo, ah!”“What... the fuck.
Chapter 53Her Aces“Bakit hindi ka pa kumikilos?”Danger puffed from his cigarette beside me. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko dahil sa lamig na dala ng malakas na hangin.I happened to visit my organization’s hide-out in the Philippines. Binilin ko muna kay Roxanne ang kambal. Pinaalam ko na lang na may kailangan akong gawing trabaho at naintindihan naman nila.Ayoko sanang nahihiwalay ako kina Rayne at Rayven, pero kailangan.“Why are you so excited?” tanong ko at ngumisi.Binalingan ko siya. His face was serious and dark. Napailing ako nang muli siyang humithit sa kaniyang sigarilyo.“You’ll die early with what you’re doing,” iling ko.Matunog siyang ngumisi. “Not until I had avenged my brother against that fucking Dark Alpha.”Napahinga ako nang malalim. I don’t exactly know what Danger wants out of our plan, but I just know that his hatred for the people who killed his brother fuels his desire to destroy and eliminate them.“It’s a pity that Ate Rina died before we even got our hands on