No.4

POV Penelope.

A dress? A skirt, pants? But what am I going to wear? I want to feel beautiful, sexy, because it's been years since I've put myself forward. I finally opt for a small skirt with a corset and boots. I want to believe that I put this outfit just to please myself. But I know in my heart that I did it to please him. Leather miniskirt, with a blood red corset tight to the chest. A little touch of lipstick and I'm finally ready to go.

I get messages from him asking me if I'm going to the party or not. Of course we bicker as usual, especially because this bastard keeps calling me Penis! Annie and I arrive at the party, there are lots of people. Wolves and also humans, my eyes unquestionably start to watch for her presence and I see her in a corner of the room with Laurie sitting on her lap.

A knot forms in my stomach and my smile immediately disappears, my hair stands up on my arms. I feel jealousy eating away at my insides, I look away from the scene. I text him to tell him I'm here and to ask him what he's doing with that girl on his lap. He lifts his head and looks at me, he seems to like my outfit a lot, he moistens his lips with his tongue and smiles, I look away again. Well I don't care, you should not have been with this bitch! I turn to Annie and Michael who are talking. I pretend to be interested in their conversation although all my thoughts converge on him who has this girl sitting on his lap and sticking to him like a leech. I am literally boiling with anger and I hate it.

The discussions are going well and everyone is laughing happily, when suddenly everyone shuts up, when I turn around I see Alex and his wife. I'm not sure what's going on but I've noticed that his relationship with the pack is strained, even Mich who is usually so friendly is grumbling. Calvin walks towards them, they talk but I can see that it is not going well. I don't know why, but I can feel his frustration.

So without thinking I walk over to them and stand in the middle of the two men, I take Calvin in my arms and hold him tight. I try to calm him down, he hugs me too, I fill my lungs with his smell. Both wild and manly, conquering and sweet, my body starts to shake, I have never felt such a feeling of well-being and security. He calms down, I drag him to a corner out of sight. I try to piss him off so that he throws his anger on me, I give him small blows to the abdomen, because I believe that I also need to forget what I felt in his arms, I need to remove me that of the head, but he does not help me much. His reaction surprises me, he stares at me, a gleam lights up in his eyes, bestial, wild. I have goose bumps.

He observes my face, my chest all of a sudden I regret to have put this ridiculous corset, I should have put a filthy pants and a huge sweater. I feel naked in front of him, so for once in my life I submit to his alpha status, I lower my eyes embarrassed by the insistence of his gaze and especially by everything I read in it.

"Why are you looking down? "

"I thought that was what females were supposed to do in the presence of the alpha.

"But not you. You don't have to do that. "

I look up at him again, surprised by his reaction. What do you mean everyone but me?

I want to ask him why but we are interrupted by Mich, I watch Calvin walk away. My heart is heavy, because I can't admit that I like this man more than I would like to admit. I go to join Annie who talks with Cora, another wolf of the pack. She talks to us about the life here, about the customs and traditions, I could listen to her all night long, I find it so beautiful. We are joined by the one I wanted to avoid at all costs during this evening: Laurie.

She is dressed like Lara Croft, the belt in less. She even has the braid that goes with it, the worst is that she is really sexy and that I am enraged to see her so beautiful, this girl has everything for her.

"Good evening girls! "She says to us with her shrill voice.

Hi Laurie," replies Annie. We haven't felt you much since the beginning of the evening. "

She puts on a fake sorry pout, I can tell right away that what she's about to say is going to be a big fat fuck up.

"You know, Cal wants me to be with him all the time, being the one he's going to marry I have to go with him everywhere. "

See what I was saying? Bullshit.

"Oh yeah? "Cora asks him.

"Of course! " She affirms. "Ashton chose me to be his son's wife. "

But what's not to hear? I clench my glass in my hands and turn it toward her.

"Just because the old man picked you doesn't mean Cal will marry you. We all know you stick to him like a leech. "I replied.

"What are you meddling with human? "she growls.

If I knew myself, I'd hate to hear her brag about something that will probably never happen.

"Oh but you're welcome. I just hate liars like you. "

She pushes me violently, I end up with my ass on the floor, I close my eyes to take the shock when I open them all eyes are on me.

"No but I can know what takes you? You crazy girl. "

"You just disrespected me you bitch. "

Okay I admit I don't know all the rules of etiquette with werewolves, however, I only told the truth so if telling the truth is disrespectful then I'm going to disrespect her as much as possible.

"All I did was tell the truth about what kind of person you are, a big fat liar. "

"And you, a jealous sourpuss with a broom stuck up your ass."

"Who would I be jealous of? "

"Of me of course, the fact that I'm getting fucked and you're not getting touched. "

What the hell is she talking about?

"If nobody fucks me as you say, it's because I don't want to! "

She bursts out laughing.

"You think I don't see your eyes when you look at him? You want it too. "

I squint my eyes not knowing what to say.

"That's enough, Laurie! They are guests of your alpha and you have to respect them. "Cora intervenes.

"I only owe respect to my alpha. "She said, looking up at Cora.

"Then you won't mind if I go to Calvin and tell him you're screwing with his guests. "

"I don't need to and as for you, you're wasting nothing to wait! "

She says this and then turns and walks away. I remain a moment sitting on the floor, then Annie comes to help me to get up.

"She's completely crazy, this girl. "I tell her.

"Maybe so, but she's not wrong, I see how you look at it too. "

"I'm engaged, Annie..."

"He's dead! " She yells before letting out a sigh and pulling herself together. "You lost your fiancé, and have for three years. Do you think Mase would have accepted you ending your life like this? "

I look around to see if anyone is listening. I turn toward the door.

"I refuse to have this discussion here. "

"Yes and tomorrow you refuse to have it at home, no matter when, it's never the right time. "

I shake my head and head for the exit.

"That's right, keep running, you're lying to yourself. "

I ignore her and continue to walk away. It's been months now that she's been harping on the same thing about me liking Calvin and I refuse to admit it.

So what? No one has the right to tell me how to feel.