Ashlynn POV.
When I made it to the club, I parked my car and got out, moving toward the door, the bouncer is my friend, he was my friend since I was much younger, since the first time I came over to the club, I used to only come to the littles nights. But now I come over on regular basis, he smiled when he saw me, and I stopped to say my hellos.
"Hey Bennie," I say with a smile.
"Miss Ash, happy to see you again, you feeling better?" he asks me, last time I came over, I was in my little space, I was all alone, and I happened to trip and scratch my knee."Yeah, I'm all good," I say, the scratch healed before I made it home, but the little side of me was hurt and in pain, she wanted a caregiver of her own, but I'm all alone."That's good, tonight is a sub night, you sure you want to go in?" he asks me, I thought it was a neutral night, no real events, but I needed the night out, I won't object to any event they have ready.
"That's fine," I say ready to get in, but Bennie stopped me again, I looked at him starting to get annoyed by his movement."Yes?" I ask him."If little Ash shows up inside, she's gonna be traumatized," he says, I rolled my eyes yet again, can't he see that I'm feeling big, why is everyone mentioning little me, I don't feel little at all.
"Don't worry, she doesn't plan on making an appearance," I assure him, until he finally allowed me to get in the club.I walked in on my own, going right toward the bar, I knew the bartender too, his name is David and he's a good friend to me and my siblings.
"Hey," I say taking a seat on the bar looking at him with another smile, finger crossed he won't mention my little side too."Ashlynn!" he calls to me with a smile, he had a customer he was making a drink for, I waited for him to be done, showing off all of his tricks before coming toward me."What can I get you princess?" he asks, I wasn't going to order apple juice in a sippy cup, I'm not feeling little at all.
"I'll take a Malibu," I say deciding to have some alcohol, I won't get drunk, it'll take more than one drink to get tipsy."You sure?" he asks me, looking at me, I rolled my eyes at him, seriously? What's up with people in this club, if they weren't my friends I would go to another club."Yes, David, I'm sure," I inform him, he got me my drink, I thanked him and went to find a table to sit at.The club was full with people everyone was dressed up, I saw short dresses, people who were dressed in full on leathers, dark jeans were also a big trend around here. I looked for an empty table, sitting down, watching everyone else, some were sitting on the chairs, others were on their knees, the back rooms were also being used. The back rooms are filled with toys, well not the littles toys we like and enjoy when feeling young, it's more of paddles, leathers, chains, cuffs, and anything else you could imagine, it's fifty shades of grey playroom, only much better.
I don't play, I never participate, but I've seen them, they scare me most days, especially when little me starts to show, deciding to ignore little me today, I took a sip of my drink, it burned going down my throat, but it's the good kind of burn.
"Hey, you mind if I sit down?" a girl asks me, I turned to her, she was beautiful, that was my first thought, blond hair, blue eyes, she was much shorter than me, but her heels helped with that, her make-up was on point along with a short black dress."Yeah, sure," I say, seeing her sit down next to me, she had a drink too, I took another sip of mu drink, still looking around the club, not starting any kind fo chat with her, maybe I could go home and colour with Kiara.
"You come here often?" she asks me, gaining my attention, I turned to her."Yeah, been coming since I was sixteen," I tell her."Wow, and they allowed you in?" she asks making me chuckle, I used to only come to little nights with my brothers, since no alcohol was allowed, I was allowed in.
"Yeah, my brothers know a guy," I lie, not wanting to explain things to her."That's cool," she says, she doesn't smell of wolf, she doesn't look like a wolf, I've never seen her in the pack meetings before."You from around here?" I ask her this time, I've never seen her before, not on neutral nights or around the town.
"No, I just came over for the event," she says, oh, does that mean she's a submissive?"You're here to play?" I ask her, she nods her head yes."What about you, you're up for playing?" she asks me licking her lips, does she want to play with me?"Uhhh...I'm not much of..." I say not knowing how to explain things to her.
"You're not much of? You're here aren't you, that mean you're at least interested," she says, making me go speechless, I'm here cause I'm feeling lonely, but I should leave if I'm not in to playing."I'm Mistress Amber what's your name?" she asks me, but I wasn't a submissive, I'm but not this type of submissive.
"I'm Ashlynn," I answer her."That's a pretty name, you are a pretty girl Ashlynn," she says her hand going to my hair, tucking a lose strand behind my ear."Tha...thank you," I mumble why is she making me stutter, I never stutter.
"You're welcome sweet heart, have you played before?" she asks me, it's my chance to run, but I was always a curious creature, I want to try everything."No, not this kind of playing," I say honestly."Would you like to try?" she asks me, I thought about it for a second, sure why not."Yeah," I answer her.
"Your safe word is going to be lollipop, say it," she says in a firm voice, sounding dominant and scary."Lollipop," I say the word after her in a whisper."Good girl, now get down on your knee," she orders me, I decided to throw all caution out of the window and try new things.(I don't know how to do dom/sub, uhh, I tried, so it's out for your imagination)
Ashlynn POV. I'm in love, I'm in love, I finally found someone who'd love me for who I'm, well not who I'm she doesn't know I'm a little, we've been trying something else, I got to the club more and more often, we get to play together there, I was too worried about telling my family about her, they wouldn't get it. "Ashlynn, wanna play?" Kiara asks me, I shake my head no, I don't want to go little, I'm fighting my little side, I'm trying my best to avoid slipping."No, I'm not feeling little," I tell her, she leaves me be whenever I tell her that I'm not feeling little to join her in her games. "But you can colour even if you're not little," she says, but colouring would make me slip. "No, I don't feel like it," I tell her hoping she'd get lost but she doesn't, she keeps on whining about playing alone."Come on Ashlynn, you never home anymore, and you never play with me!" she whines, there's no leaving without playing with Kiara, I don't want her to get upset and cry either, I'm n
Ashlynn POV. "I want you to move in," she tells me, I agreed with that, I want to move in with her, I'd love to be with her and not alone the whole time, but I also had to inform my family about moving out. I was afraid of their reaction, what if they don't allow me to go, I'm a strong dominant wolf, as I'm an adult, but I'm worried about the two alpha reactions."I live with my family," I tell her, I do live with my family right now, I wasn't ready to move out. "You are a big girl, well you are practically a little girl and submissive, but that still counts as big girl you should be able to move in with me," she says, I wanted to roll my eyes at her, but she only knows the little side of me, the one that likes to start new adventures and tried to submit to her, she never met the big Ashlynn or my dominant side."I don't know if I should do this yet, isn't it too early?" I ask her, we've only known each other for a couple of months now, she's not the one that was created for me, she
Ashlynn POV. I've been here for a month, it's only one month, but it's hell, I'm living in hell, Amber changed, it started soon after I moved in with her, she took my phone away, she locked me in, she did things...I don't want to mention any more of that, I'm stronger than my injuries, I'm stronger than the bruises she leaves over me my body, she always says she didn't hit me that bad, since my bruises would disappear right away, but I'm a wolf, it's the reason I'm healing real quick.But I'm done being treated as a toy, I'm done being a little who's abused, she has ruined me, ruined my little side, she's not someone I want to stay with, a month was more than enough, she terrorized me, she scared me, she told me I could never leave. But guess what happened today, this morning my wolf has decided that enough and is enough, we aren't hiding anymore, we're done, I'm a dominant wolf and not some helpless girl."Ashlynn, where are you little bitch?" she yells, but the toy she's calling i
Ashlynn POV. "What happened to your mommy?" Kiara asks me, she's sleeping in my room tonight, her daddy, aka my brother, is out on patrols for the night, we haven't had a sleepover in a while now. "We broke up," I explain to her, even after all that time, her little space still isn't very familiar with her wolf side or our rules. "Why broke up?" she asks me. "She's not my mate Kiara, you know Jacob explained to you what mates are," I remind her. "Jacob is my mate," she says all excited, I just smile at her, she's lucky to have such a good mate and daddy, I wonder if I'd ever find my mate, if he or she is a human, then I don't want them, I think to myself with a shake to my head, I do not want any human relation, none! "And she wasn't mine, can you keep it a secret?" I ask her, I don't want my family to know, I'm a big girl, I'm a dominant wolf, I should be able to protect myself, I should be able to kick anyone's bum, I should've but I couldn't I was weak. "Why secret?" she ask
Ashlynn POV. I can't sleep, I can't sleep, grr, I growled at myself, I want to sleep, why can't I sleep, I need the rest, I need to have some time where I wouldn't be thinking about her, about things, about my mate being MIA so far, why can't my mate just show up, I can use to be held by the one who is made for me, my wolf mate, my one and only. I groaned and left the bed this time, I looked at the time, it was four am, I haven't had any second of sleep tonight, the doctor said my blood work was clean thankfully, there was no reason for me not falling asleep, or maybe it's the lack of shifting that keeping me awake. But my fear of going feral once I shift, has me sticking to my human form, I went down the stairs, deciding to see if anyone is up or around, maybe get some water. I saw some of the patrol enforcers in the kitchen along with mom, I gave everyone a smile and said my good mornings. "Good morning, Ash, isn't it a bit early for you?" mom asks me, it's only four am. "I dec
Ashlynn POV. The day was getting better, I was starting to feel better now, I'm going over to Kitty's place, the best place to ever be! And the hot guys training without a shirt is a big plus, me and Micah love to watch them over some hot chocolate, while Jordan would yell at the two of us to get inside and stop looking. "Hey, kiki," I say sitting next to my bestie, she wasn't feeling little today, which is rare for her. "Hey, love, what's up?" she answers me. "I'm going to a bonfire today, want to join?" I ask her, she looks at me and nods. "I'll talk to Jacob about it," she says, they are like the worse kind of boyfriend and girlfriend, they act like a married couple who can't be more than three feet apart. "Sure," I say, wherever she goes he goes, it's a mate thing, a thing I never had before. After breakfast, I went back to my room, I packed my things to get to Jordan's place, this time I was sure once I get there I'd be happy and well treated, nothing would hurt me there,
Ashlynn POV. In my car, I sped off toward my brother's place, I sent them a message along with my mother's, telling them I'm on my way, I started the long drive to their place, and I had music on to keep me company, but my brain kept on repeating the scent I've smelled. So faint, yet so strong, I wonder how would it smell when it's closer, when it's stronger, my wolf wants to roll down in that scent, to bite the owner and call them ours, only ours. I shook my head at that, I want them, it's not that I don't want them, but I'm not ready yet, I need to have some time to pick up all the broken pieces that broke off me due to Amber and her memories. Maybe once I'm feeling better, I'll get back to them, I'll search for them, I'll have Liam's help, they aren't anyone in my pack, I know everyone, they must be one of his friends who's coming over to spend the night, I'd be able to find them, I'm sure I would. Now that I have a plan, I slowed down a little, there's no need to be in a hurr
Ashlynn POV. I went to the guest room, of course, I knew where it is, I always stay there when I come over, Jordy thinks he's going to be free of me! Never! I threw my things in the room, and got ready for bed, I felt energized, I felt at peace with myself, after all that time of running, I could finally rest, I know I'm strong, why I'm scaring myself? For once in a really long time, I fell asleep, I just need to recharge, and that's what this place provides, I challenge Amber to come over here, and Kitty would eat her alive. I woke up to someone jumping on top of me, I woke up slowly, I knew I wasn't in danger, not in Micah and Jordan's place, they are one of the strongest packs around, and nothing would hurt me except Micah's weight. "Get off, you're crushing my bones," I inform him, it's funny and cute when I jump on top f Jordan, but Micah's weight, which is made of eighty per cent muscles, is not so fun. "Wakey, wakey, don't you wanna watch them run?" he asks me making me