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KABANATA 38
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THEA'S P. O. VHabang hinihintay ko ang pagdating ni Ruan, naisipan kong bumangon para mag ayos kahit papaano.Ayokong harapin s'ya na mukha akong lantang gulay na malapit nang mabulok. Masakit pa rin ang katawan ko; pati 'yung ulo ko dahil napainom din ako sa party. Kaunti lang 'yon pero hindi naman ako sanay uminom kaya tinablan pa rin ako no'n kahit papaano. Isa pa, kailangan ko ring practice-in 'yung sarili ko na kumilos ng maayos. Ayokong mahalata n'ya ma may iniinda akong sakit—lalo na sa dibdib at maselang parte ko—dahil baka maghinala pa s'ya at isangkot pa 'ko sa totoong nangyari kagabi.Habang nag aayos ako, napansin ko 'yung hikaw na suot ko kagabi. Part 'yon ng Egyptian costume ko. Pero nakakapagtaka na iisa na lang 'yon. Hindi ko naman maalala na nawala ko 'yon o naihulog sa kung saan.Natigilan ako sa pag nang makarinig ako ng sunud-sunod at malalakas na busina galing sa labas ng bahay ko. Lumapit ako sa bintana. Binuksan ko 'yon para silipin kung sino ba 'yung bumubusin
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RUAN'S P. O. V"Ang sarap! Thank you, ha?”I answered nothing but a grin and slight nod as I watch her eating still. Saglit lang s'yang tumingin sa'kin no'ng nagpasalamat s'ya sa pagkain. 'Tapos do'n na ulit 'yung tuon ng atensyon n'ya.I don't even know what I am doing here. Why did I exert such effort to do this for her? Napakarami ko pang importanteng bagay na gagawin kung tutuusin pero here I am, keeping my secretary company after I just learned that she's sick. How weird is that? I even bought and tried foods that I was not used to before; para lang masabayan s'yang kumain at hindi s'ya ma-feel bad na binili ko lahat ng pagkaing 'yon at gumastos pa ako ng hindi birong halaga just for her. Nakakatanga."Anways, hindi ka pa ba aalis after nito? I mean, it's not that I don't want having you around. Baka lang… may mga gagawin ka pa. With all the meetings scheduled today…” she said before sipping to her glass of cold fruit juice."Those meetings… I cancelled them all. I just said that
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THEA'S P. O. V"A-Anong gagawin natin dito?”The place where Ruan brought me take me by surprise. Nakatayo kami ngayon sa gitna ng shelves na naglalaman ng mga diapers, milk formula, feeding bottle, at kung anu-ano pang mga gamit na pang baby.Kinakabahan tuloy ako. Is this his hint, his way of telling me that he already know what happened to us last last night?"Jusmio! Bakit naman baby agad?!” sigaw ng isip ko."Bibili tayo,” anunsyo n'ya.Lalong nanlaki 'yung mga mata ko. "H-Ha?! B-Bakit? P-Para saan—”"Basta. Just take everything in small sizes,” utos n'ya. 'Tapos kumuha s'ya sa shelf ng isang pack ng diaper. Malaking pack 'yon, parang nasa one hundred pieces yata ang laman per pack. Inabot n'ya 'yon sa'kin. "Check this if this is in small.”"S-Small?” tulala ko pa ring tanong."Yeah. For newborn babies. Aren't they fit for small?” sagot n'ya naman. Abala pa s'ya sa pagtingin sa mga milk formula habang nagsasalita."D-Depende,” sabi ko."Depende sa'n?”"Depende sa laki ng bata. Ma
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THEA'S P. O. VThe air hung heavy with the scent of antiseptic and the faint hum of hospital machinery as we walked out of the maternity ward. Bago kami umalis, nangako pa kami kay Jako na babalik para bisitahin naman ang asawa nito at syempre, 'yung baby. Nagbiro pa si Jako na kukuhanin n'ya bilang ninong si Ruan. Nadamay pa ako dahil kung si Ruan daw ang ninong, ako na lang daw ang maging ninang tutal ay parehas naman daw kaming single at magkasama naman palagi.The weight of the past few hours, the whirlwind of emotions, the unexpected turn of events, all settled upon me like a thick fog.Ruan, ever the stoic, seemed unaffected by the emotional roller coaster we had just experienced. He walked with a quiet confidence, his gaze fixed on the bustling streets outside. I, however, felt a strange mix of relief and confusion. The relief came from the realization that Ruan wasn't using the baby stuff as a way to subtly acknowledge their one-night stand, a fear that had been gnawing at me
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THEA'S P. O. VWhen the clock hits five, I immediately stood up and prepared to go. My shoulders slumped with exhaustion as I stepped out of the office building. The day had been long, but the unexpected kindness Ruan had shown me had left me feeling strangely energized. As I walked towards the building's exit, a familiar voice called out to me.“Thea, wait!”Napalingon ako agad sa direksyon na pinanggalingan ng boses. Ruan was standing by his car, a slight frown on his face.Lumapit ako sa kanya."Bakit?” tanong ko.“Sorry to stop you. May lakad ka ba pag uwi mo?” tanong n'ya rin sa akin.Nagtaka ako. It was not usual na tanungin n'ya ako kung may lakad ba ako o ano. Pero kahit nagtataka ay umiling ako."Wala naman. Bakit?”"I… I was just wondering if you’d like to join us for dinner. It’s a family thing.”I hesitated, my mind racing. A family dinner? With Ruan? Sa iilang pagkakataon na sumama ako sa family dinner nila ay wala pa akong matandaan na kahit isang nagtapos ng maayos. La
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THEA'S P. O. VMinuto na ang lumipas pero tahimik pa rin si Ruan. Muhang desidido na talaga s'ya na huwag magsalita ng kahit ano sa akin.The moon casting a silver sheen on the tranquil lake. Napakaganda. Doon ko na lang pinagsawa ang mga mata ko. The silence between us was a stark contrast to the cacophony of emotions that had erupted at the restaurant, a symphony of anger, hurt, and resentment.I gently move my hand and put it at rest gently on his. I am hoping that this could urge him to speak, to release the burden of his past, to let the words flow freely."My father..." sa wakas ay sabi n'ya. Pabulong lang 'yon pero ramdam ko na punung-puno 'yon ng bigat at emosyon. Napalunok ako at naghandang makinig,"he cheated on my mother with Charlene. It was... messy. I was too young, I couldn't understand it. How could he do that to her, to us?"I listened intently, my gaze fixed on the water, my heart aching for him. I've known him since we were children. Pero kilala ko lang s'ya noon b
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THEA'S P. O. VIlang minuto pa kaming nag-stay sa lugar na 'yon habang nag uusap ng kung anu-anong bagay lang.Hanggang sa manahimik na kami parehas at mag-decide na umuwi na.But as we prepared to leave, a sudden gust of wind whipped through the trees, rustling the leaves and sending a shiver down my spine. The sky, moments ago a canvas of vibrant colors, darkened ominously, the air growing thick with the promise of a storm."We should probably head back. Mukhang uulan na,” Ruan said, his voice laced with concern.Tumango ako habang nakatingin na rin sa napakadilim sa kalangitan. Katatayo pa lang namin ay nagsimula nang bumuhos ang malalaking patak ng ulan.Within moments, we were drenched, the rain pouring down on them in a relentless torrent. Natawa na lang ako dahil sa sobrang unexpected ng nangyari."Well, this is certainly unexpected," sabi ko pa. Hindi ko alam kung narinig ni Ruan ng maayos 'yung sinabi ko dahil sumabay ang boses ko sa tunog ng malakas na ulan.Ruan smiled, his
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THEA'S P. O. VI woke with a start, a disorienting feeling of being adrift in a strange, unfamiliar place. I blinked, my eyes adjusting to the soft light filtering through the curtains, and realized I was lying in a bed, the crisp white sheets smelling faintly of lavender.A wave of confusion washed over me, followed by a rush of memories. I recalled the previous day, the chaotic family dinner, the unexpected trip to the lake, Ruan's confession, the rain-soaked drive home, and finally, my arrival at his house, where I had stayed to care for him.Nakatulog pala ako. Sinong naglipat sa akin dito? Si Ruan ba—wait, nasaan si Ruan?!I sat up, my heart pounding in my chest. I was in Ruan's bedroom, the walls adorned with framed photographs, the shelves lined with books, the air filled with the scent of his cologne. It was a space that felt both familiar and strangely foreign, a space that held the echoes of a connection that was both profound and impossible. The same room where we shared th
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