The Quest Of a Man

They prayed every Tuesday and some of the women had given up, but mai Taka always said "I feel it's like I'm almost there". Since last year. I was now feeling pity for her, that I almost had to stop her but I did not want to kill hope that was in her which also was what I wanted for me to keep on going. In as much they were praying they had a great time to encourage each other on phone in their W******p group.

The most rewarding moment is in perseverance, but the most agonising time is waiting. You don't know when but you still keep hope because that's the rule of waiting. I kept the faith and did not fight it because one needs to outgrow pain for him to win. You can not win over what is above you. Lest you see keep on seeking. The kings are the ones who have seen the depth of life's victory. When you win then you have a story to tell, it was not easy but very difficult for me. "I fought for me to be here," only the successful can say such because someone is willing to listen to them.

I made sure I put the money together in one place that was safe until my wife and kids came back home then we see the goodness of God together. I seeked wisdom again now it was a continuation of the gold sack of life book. I was having a verbose time in the literature filled book I read it and was done in an hour thirty minutes time. It was a moment of rest and time track was lost I felt cheated. The captivation was just beyond my wildest thoughts.

Now I understood the meaning of the gold sack of life. It was not something that was not scriptural , and it was very relevant to my life. The beauty of understanding something is that it opens your eyes to having something that is tangible called faith. You can not have faith in something that you do not believe. Faith can be built by a belief, of which for one to believe understanding is the prerequisite. My mind started to peel off as the onion peels off, ignorance started to be removed as my mind started to understand some concepts that were being reached out to my life. My Pastor was communicating to my life all along but I was not aware at all.

Taka and Thelma comes back home, smartly dressed as usual. They are a bit early than usual meaning the strike is on , that was what  my inner instinct judging on what they told me yesterday. I asked them why they came early after we had exchanged some warm greetings, funny enough there was a new development at school. The teachers chose to make it a half day so that they could have a meeting on the way forward for proper catch up lessons on the time wasted. Sure predijuce is like a mad man who is in a world of none existence, an interpreter of what he does not know. Not everything is as obvious as it seems.

I just laughed and started to play with my kids in the house waiting for the lady of the house. It was one of our major events after school trying to create a rapo between father and children. The best way to get the heart of the little ones is to put them in your heart. If you do not then you will not get their attention when they are grown. We lavishly played together. Indeed making the house dirt. Amai Taka came in the gate and yet the house was upside down and behind was a crew of women. The children and myself made a quick cleaning and made sure everything is in its position, but not perfectly the way each was right if mai Taka had done the cleaning.

One thing a man can do is to live or to regret, you regret the current and all that could have happened in the past. God's blessing is always present , but a few people are ready to get into the blessing. The pool is always stirred up for everyone who is willing and has eyes to see the stirring. There are many moments the waters were stired for me ,but I was not  ready to dive in. Now that is when I'm starting to realise that I missed it when it could have been mine , many turns turned until someone jumped in or they just vanished off.

The parting with friends was the most painful thought I had. Not because of death or departure ,but difference in status made all this happen . What was it that brought this difference in status between us? Some wanted to live that kind of life hence they went on with blood in hands and myself I was so scared. Yet some really worked hard in silence in the night while we slept and in the day they would be sitting with us in the corners of desires. I'm so angry at myself with my big mouth.

It hurts in that moment when you can just see your idea giving someone lots of money. I was a strategists that made the way easy for others who had the boldness and the daring character. I had tears that only interpreted my desire to make it. I wanted the door to just keep on glimmering in more light. "God is good" was that new word on my mouth as well as " It's a new day dawning". The difficult part was that I was keeping all this to myself. Who could listen to a me in a day of hearing, I did not want to waste anyone's attention. I had always wanted to hear the voice of God and speak but now it was that moment which needed me to be sure in order to implement first so that people would learn from what is done than what is said.