Please make sure to check the trigger warnings listed in chapter one. This story contains mature content and gruesome scenes that may be triggering to some individuals. This list is not fully comprehensive of all the content in this book, please contact me or visit the reviews page if you would like more information.
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verbal/emotional abuse, physical violence, sexual content, cnc/forced consent, non-consensual/sexual assault, torture, suicide, self-harm
I woke up shaking and covered in sweat again. I had no recollection of my dream—or nightmare, but that was nothing new. The arm around my waist was very new though and I almost screamed when it tightened abruptly. I held my breath as I stared at the wall; I could feel every part of my alpha's body pressed right up against my back. Every part. I could hear my wolf’s amused chuckle as I tried desperately not to move. The thoughts of what Xavier might do if I woke him up right now ran through my head and it sent a trill of fear through me. Then I felt a sudden ache between my thighs. Oh fuck not this again, I whimpered. It was so uncomfortable and left me reeling in confusion. How the hell could I be scared and aroused at the same time? Maybe I am insane. “What are you thinking about?” Xavier’s voice was still raspy with sleep and the sound sent a shiver down my spine. A blush crept onto my cheeks. “Nothing,” I said. He kissed the top of my head and pulled me closer. “Sure doesn’t sm
Xavier Just as I thought she was going to fall asleep again, she said she was ready to leave. I shoved down my disappointment and just nodded. I opened my arms so she could wriggle out, then smiled a little when she pulled at the blankets to cover her bare lower half. "Wait here, I'll grab you some clothes," I said. I swore internally as I stood up, adjusting my pants that were still painfully tight. "Okay," she squeaked out, her cheeks crimson. I hummed to myself as I walked down the hall to her room. There wasn't much in her dresser, so it only took a minute to find her a clean set of clothes. I found myself pausing in the doorway, glancing around with a small frown. Roxanne had been here for a couple of weeks now and barely left this room when she first arrived, but she hadn't done anything to make the space hers. If I hadn't left all the decorations when I moved to the room down the hall, it wouldn't look used at all. Just move back in here with her, my wolf suggested. No, I s
For the first time in over a week, I woke up alone. A frown crept onto my face as I listened for any movement in the bathroom, but Xavier wasn't even upstairs—it didn't even sound like he was in the house. My stomach twisted. There were a million possible reasons he left before I woke up, but I couldn't stop focusing on the fact that it hadn't happened before. Every day he would wake me up and tell me if he had to leave, he would even ask if I wanted to go with him. I slipped out of bed and trudged to the bathroom, regretting my decision to get up almost instantly. It was starting to get colder and apparently my wolf still wasn't strong enough so it bugged the hell out of me. Everyone else was totally fine, even in the snow, but I've been shivering constantly since the leaves started to drop. Xavier moved my toothbrush and comb into his bathroom at some point, so I only returned to my room when I needed clean clothes. I brushed my teeth and took a shower, cranking up the water as ho
He shushed me gently, cradling me in his arms as he settled onto the bed. It took me a while to stop sobbing; I know Xavier was trying to soothe me but it almost made me cry harder. "You're safe here, I'm not going anywhere I promise," he kept whispering in my ear, smoothing down my hair. I wanted to believe him but I knew it would just get me hurt. He'll leave or hurt me eventually. Everyone does. "I'm sorry I left without telling you this morning. I thought it would be better to let you sleep instead of bombarding you with that kind of information." "It scared me," I admitted, my throat raw and my voice hoarse. His arms tightened a little and he pressed a long kiss onto my head. "That was my mistake, little wolf, it won't happen again," he said. His dipped his head down to catch my gaze. "And it's okay if you don't believe that yet." "I'm trying," I told him. That was the truth. Every part of me screamed not to trust him but I still wanted to deep down. It was so unbelievabl
“How are you feeling?” I sighed. “Like I challenged my alpha, and lost,” I mumbled with a groan as I shifted on the bed. Laian laughed, nodding his head. “Yeah, I bet. I’ve fought Erys before, your wolf is stupidly brave,” he commented. The corner of my lip quirked up as he settled himself in the chair beside my bed. “Is that his wolf’s name?” He nodded again. “Mine’s name is Luka. What about yours?” “Aetrix.” His eyebrow popped up. “That’s a curious name for a female,” he commented, his gaze questioning. It was my turn to nod. “He’s male, not sure why but that’s our guess on why he’s so difficult to control. He went on a killing spree after I shifted for the first time, so I never shifted again.” “Until you got here?” “Yeah, pretty much. And now it’s a problem because Xavier has barely been able to keep my wolf subdued even though he’s still really weak. I’m scared,” I admitted. Laian offered me his hand. I carefully took it, feeling my heartbeat calm a little. “To be fair,
Xavier "I'm not sure she'll ever be comfortable around me again." He snorted derisively. "Oh, don't be dramatic, that girl has seen more shit than maybe even you. She's not going to tuck her tail between her legs and run for the hills just because she saw what you're capable of." "She knows I can do even worse than that; she knows I was holding back to protect her," I muttered. "So what?" I clenched my jaw. "So? Daniel, she's terrified of me now. I attacked her. I hurt her. She won't trust me anymore and with everything that's happening with her old pack, that's dangerous," I growled. "I need her to trust me. She is so much more powerful than anyone realizes and if her former mate figures it out, then he'll do whatever it takes to get her by his side." "You really think so?" I throw him a hard glare. "Yes, I really do." A sharp knock forced my attention to the door. A familiar scent crossed my nose. Laian. I closed my eyes and slowly let out a heavy breath, desperately trying t
The moment the pack doctor cleared me, panic flooded my mind and set my heart racing. My hands were so sweaty, I kept wiping them off on my pants every few minutes as I made my way out of the hospital.Everyone was outside. It was an absolutely beautiful day, not too hot or too cold this time. It felt so much calmer than the chaos in my mind and it made it seem that much worse.I didn't know what scared me more: Derek coming to the pack and finding out that I was still alive or being claimed by a man I barely knew. One was certainly preferable, but I'd rather just keep going the way I have for the last few weeks.It went by in a bit of a blur. One moment I was walking into Xavier's house, my mind set on scouring the library, and then next I was waking up on the couch.My eyes snapped up to my alpha hovering over me with concern in his eyes. He slowly moved his hand away from my arm and stood fully. "Are you alright? I wasn't expecting to find you home yet," he said.I blew out a heavy
It might have been my imagination, but I swore I could smell him on me. Only males are supposed to be able to detect a claim like that though.It was an odd feeling that I couldn't describe. But anxiety tugged at my stomach as I walked beside Xavier.He hadn't left my side since our encounter with Laian, if that was even an appropriate way to describe it. It was supposed to be just business—it was just to keep me safe—but it felt like so much more than that.It felt like he wanted more. It felt almost like something sacred had happened.I wasn't very experienced or educated in those kinds of things, but I knew that there wasn't supposed to be anything special about laying a claim on someone. At least there wasn't in my old pack."What's on your mind little wolf?" Xavier asked.I had been so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice when we stopped walked. I looked around at the training grounds with my eyebrows scrunched up in confusion. "What are we doing here?""Two of our warriors a
It might have been my imagination, but I swore I could smell him on me. Only males are supposed to be able to detect a claim like that though.It was an odd feeling that I couldn't describe. But anxiety tugged at my stomach as I walked beside Xavier.He hadn't left my side since our encounter with Laian, if that was even an appropriate way to describe it. It was supposed to be just business—it was just to keep me safe—but it felt like so much more than that.It felt like he wanted more. It felt almost like something sacred had happened.I wasn't very experienced or educated in those kinds of things, but I knew that there wasn't supposed to be anything special about laying a claim on someone. At least there wasn't in my old pack."What's on your mind little wolf?" Xavier asked.I had been so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice when we stopped walked. I looked around at the training grounds with my eyebrows scrunched up in confusion. "What are we doing here?""Two of our warriors a
The moment the pack doctor cleared me, panic flooded my mind and set my heart racing. My hands were so sweaty, I kept wiping them off on my pants every few minutes as I made my way out of the hospital.Everyone was outside. It was an absolutely beautiful day, not too hot or too cold this time. It felt so much calmer than the chaos in my mind and it made it seem that much worse.I didn't know what scared me more: Derek coming to the pack and finding out that I was still alive or being claimed by a man I barely knew. One was certainly preferable, but I'd rather just keep going the way I have for the last few weeks.It went by in a bit of a blur. One moment I was walking into Xavier's house, my mind set on scouring the library, and then next I was waking up on the couch.My eyes snapped up to my alpha hovering over me with concern in his eyes. He slowly moved his hand away from my arm and stood fully. "Are you alright? I wasn't expecting to find you home yet," he said.I blew out a heavy
Xavier "I'm not sure she'll ever be comfortable around me again." He snorted derisively. "Oh, don't be dramatic, that girl has seen more shit than maybe even you. She's not going to tuck her tail between her legs and run for the hills just because she saw what you're capable of." "She knows I can do even worse than that; she knows I was holding back to protect her," I muttered. "So what?" I clenched my jaw. "So? Daniel, she's terrified of me now. I attacked her. I hurt her. She won't trust me anymore and with everything that's happening with her old pack, that's dangerous," I growled. "I need her to trust me. She is so much more powerful than anyone realizes and if her former mate figures it out, then he'll do whatever it takes to get her by his side." "You really think so?" I throw him a hard glare. "Yes, I really do." A sharp knock forced my attention to the door. A familiar scent crossed my nose. Laian. I closed my eyes and slowly let out a heavy breath, desperately trying t
“How are you feeling?” I sighed. “Like I challenged my alpha, and lost,” I mumbled with a groan as I shifted on the bed. Laian laughed, nodding his head. “Yeah, I bet. I’ve fought Erys before, your wolf is stupidly brave,” he commented. The corner of my lip quirked up as he settled himself in the chair beside my bed. “Is that his wolf’s name?” He nodded again. “Mine’s name is Luka. What about yours?” “Aetrix.” His eyebrow popped up. “That’s a curious name for a female,” he commented, his gaze questioning. It was my turn to nod. “He’s male, not sure why but that’s our guess on why he’s so difficult to control. He went on a killing spree after I shifted for the first time, so I never shifted again.” “Until you got here?” “Yeah, pretty much. And now it’s a problem because Xavier has barely been able to keep my wolf subdued even though he’s still really weak. I’m scared,” I admitted. Laian offered me his hand. I carefully took it, feeling my heartbeat calm a little. “To be fair,
He shushed me gently, cradling me in his arms as he settled onto the bed. It took me a while to stop sobbing; I know Xavier was trying to soothe me but it almost made me cry harder. "You're safe here, I'm not going anywhere I promise," he kept whispering in my ear, smoothing down my hair. I wanted to believe him but I knew it would just get me hurt. He'll leave or hurt me eventually. Everyone does. "I'm sorry I left without telling you this morning. I thought it would be better to let you sleep instead of bombarding you with that kind of information." "It scared me," I admitted, my throat raw and my voice hoarse. His arms tightened a little and he pressed a long kiss onto my head. "That was my mistake, little wolf, it won't happen again," he said. His dipped his head down to catch my gaze. "And it's okay if you don't believe that yet." "I'm trying," I told him. That was the truth. Every part of me screamed not to trust him but I still wanted to deep down. It was so unbelievabl
For the first time in over a week, I woke up alone. A frown crept onto my face as I listened for any movement in the bathroom, but Xavier wasn't even upstairs—it didn't even sound like he was in the house. My stomach twisted. There were a million possible reasons he left before I woke up, but I couldn't stop focusing on the fact that it hadn't happened before. Every day he would wake me up and tell me if he had to leave, he would even ask if I wanted to go with him. I slipped out of bed and trudged to the bathroom, regretting my decision to get up almost instantly. It was starting to get colder and apparently my wolf still wasn't strong enough so it bugged the hell out of me. Everyone else was totally fine, even in the snow, but I've been shivering constantly since the leaves started to drop. Xavier moved my toothbrush and comb into his bathroom at some point, so I only returned to my room when I needed clean clothes. I brushed my teeth and took a shower, cranking up the water as ho
Xavier Just as I thought she was going to fall asleep again, she said she was ready to leave. I shoved down my disappointment and just nodded. I opened my arms so she could wriggle out, then smiled a little when she pulled at the blankets to cover her bare lower half. "Wait here, I'll grab you some clothes," I said. I swore internally as I stood up, adjusting my pants that were still painfully tight. "Okay," she squeaked out, her cheeks crimson. I hummed to myself as I walked down the hall to her room. There wasn't much in her dresser, so it only took a minute to find her a clean set of clothes. I found myself pausing in the doorway, glancing around with a small frown. Roxanne had been here for a couple of weeks now and barely left this room when she first arrived, but she hadn't done anything to make the space hers. If I hadn't left all the decorations when I moved to the room down the hall, it wouldn't look used at all. Just move back in here with her, my wolf suggested. No, I s
I woke up shaking and covered in sweat again. I had no recollection of my dream—or nightmare, but that was nothing new. The arm around my waist was very new though and I almost screamed when it tightened abruptly. I held my breath as I stared at the wall; I could feel every part of my alpha's body pressed right up against my back. Every part. I could hear my wolf’s amused chuckle as I tried desperately not to move. The thoughts of what Xavier might do if I woke him up right now ran through my head and it sent a trill of fear through me. Then I felt a sudden ache between my thighs. Oh fuck not this again, I whimpered. It was so uncomfortable and left me reeling in confusion. How the hell could I be scared and aroused at the same time? Maybe I am insane. “What are you thinking about?” Xavier’s voice was still raspy with sleep and the sound sent a shiver down my spine. A blush crept onto my cheeks. “Nothing,” I said. He kissed the top of my head and pulled me closer. “Sure doesn’t sm
Please make sure to check the trigger warnings listed in chapter one. This story contains mature content and gruesome scenes that may be triggering to some individuals. This list is not fully comprehensive of all the content in this book, please contact me or visit the reviews page if you would like more information. If you have suggestions or would like to add a trigger/warning that is not included in the list, please contact me or leave a comment here so I can add it as quickly as possible. TW List: verbal/emotional abuse, physical violence, sexual content, cnc/forced consent, non-consensual/sexual assault, torture, suicide, self-harm