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2022-01-02 17:55:53This has made me realize once again how precious life is. It has made me realize that you can do everything in your own power to protect the person you love, and yet there will be an evil that will find its way in.
Coming so close to losing each other has reminded me how fragile our relationship is. Even though we have known each other for over a year, it still seems yet so new and vulnerable. What does bring my heart the joy is that no matter what gets kicked in our way that we always come out stronger than before. Each day I pray for the day that it shall all be without any problems in our life.
Do I believe that we are getting tested?
I believe that we are getting pushed to a limit to see how much we can break. We have broken many times, and sometimes we did not know that we can be put back to getter again. But there is nothing stronger than love; there is no glue stronger than love that can fix the pieces.
Your mom always tells you that life is never
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