Sometimes you should go on your gut instinct; that little voice that tells you to tells you what your heart says.
I have come to learn that if I have done something that does not feel right, then it ended up not being right.
What else I have learned is not to trust another man around your wife, well, least of all one that she was married to.
Now there are two big mistakes that I have made in the past day…
One…I nearly killed a man.
Two…I trusted my wife to come near this man.
So as he is lying here, I would love to punch him, but I know around the corner I have a very eager Harrison and Isabella that is waiting to hear what he has got to say. And secondly…I really don't want to go down for assault as well.
It is one thing making a mistake, yet another thing to keep making it.
Now, Brendan is nearly boiling over from his own anticipation as he cannot get the words out of his mouth, so to p
Everything pays the price…even love.We are paying the price for the bad things in our past, for the bad people we have left behind. I would like to say that my past has come to haunt me, but when you truly reflect, it is Isabella that has left a string of monsters behind. Now in no way am I blaming her for what has happened, but I just wish that there was a point where she was more honest.Faith, well, it is a word that I truly have lost all faith in, if you may say it in such a strange way. What does a man like me do to deserve what has been thrown on my plate? I did not ask for it, I did not do any wrong, it was done to me, and I had no say.Ya, let me fucking repeat it…Everything pays the price…even love…We have paid the price…I have paid the price.Fate is what happens when you are not watching, yet karma is the way to play fate's wicked game.Now the only thing you can be sure of is yourself. What ch
It is with only one last glance that I look over to where Brendan is sitting with one big anticipating grin on his godawful face. And as he is just about to say another word, I stop him right before he can, "I will rather take my chances in court.""Ha!" He bursts out laughing, "Well, you have just sealed your own fate.""Somehow, Brendan." I pause for a brief moment. "Somehow, I don't think so. But hey, I will give you that for trying to get me to go back on what I stand for as a man. Guess that is why Isabella is with me and not you…I guess."Well, that just should not have been said, for the man turns red hot with anger, "You are going down Jackson; your life is over.""We will see about that. But as good as this was talking to you, I need to go spend the last night as a free man with MY wife. I hope you enjoy your lonely bed," and as I am just about to leave the room, I turn back to him, "I have a feeling I will see you very soon again."
Last night was long and torturous.The end of my life kept playing over in my mind in agonizing circles, and no matter which way I looked at it, they all came to the same conclusion…it is over. What was Clayton Jackson has now met a certain fate. The man behind the Marine, the father, the husband…he has come in from the long haul, and his life will from here on not exist.So as I find myself standing in the kitchen, which would be the last time that I see these four walls, I wish that just for once, I had a little more sense in this thick head. In that room lays the love of my life with my unborn child, and I am losing it all for the way I acted; I believed that it was the only way to protect my family.Well…I was wrong.And with that thought, I drop two sugars in her tea and make my way back to the room."Morning, boo.""Hey, soldier," she reaches out and gently takes my hand, "Did you get any sleep last night?"
There is a coldness that is starting to settle over my heart in anticipation of what is about to unfold in this courthouse which I am terrified to set my feet in. From what I can gather as I am standing here on the stairs is that our dear Brendan has opted not to make an appearance. I guess the man is very confident that this will play out the way that he wishes it.Thought the question is?Does he think that I will back off and play into his hands?Or does he think that he has gained the upper hand in bringing me down?Well, I myself do not know which is the most terrifying prospect to face. All I know is that I am not going to change the man who I am to become something that I am not.I am a Marine.And I will stick to the oath that I have taken regardless if my career will be ending here today.Looking back over the years, I have realized how far I have grown. I have been through some really rocky times in my life, yet somehow I ha
As I take what feels like the longest steps of my life, I look ahead and glance in the direction of a man that is sitting behind a table. A man whom I only but a few moments ago was told would not be here.Well, guess that I am surprised, shocked, and ya, a little bit pissed off.Meeting my fate having to stare a man in the face that I hate was not something I planned for when I left home with half of a confidence in my step. As for now, I have lost that determination that needs to carry me through.But yet, I need to remind myself what the difference between him and me is.Yet, does it make such a difference that I do not lack the strength or the will to push through what will be thrown in my way today?So as I look at this man and he is becoming closer and closer, I fight the urge to tell him what it is that my burning thought thinks of him. Though, I have been just told be play nice as my lawyer has seen my very intention."Yo
….Isabella POV…I am not going to say that the depths of Clayton's stupidity will end here today, for I know, and I have seen by the look on that face, that he is already plotting his next move.Now I really hope that he will not outmatch his latest stunt, but somehow I know that he will always go one step bolder than the one before. The man is truly his own worst enemy at times, but I will give it to him that he is more determined than any other person that I have ever known.And for this, I love him a great deal.He has, regardless of having the burden of one non-functional leg, been trying to live his life to the best he can under his current situation. And on top of pushing his needs, the healing that he deserves aside, he has been looking after our baby and me.So to say that I take my hat off him will be a gesture too simple, for I admire what he pushes himself through and does not once complain. Now here is where I am hoping ag
What was once a beautiful, peaceful smile has now turned into that of slight annoyance and a hint of fear. Isabella knows me far better than any other person in my life; if there is one person that knows that I am up to seven shits of no good, then it will be her.And it is the very her that has just caught me out…if she has not caught me out hours ago.So it is with great hesitation, and let me tell you, this Marine only ever hesitates and fears when it comes to his wife, but yes, I am fumbling for the words to tell her of the next great idea that I have come up with this time. Yet not an idea, more of a purpose.With a very confident smile, I plan my approach well before I execute, for I am within arm's length, and this girl is pissed, yet, "Boo, I am not going to join the Raiders anymore."There is a sigh of relief that sets over her body while the words comfort the tension that has build up in the room. And while she relishes in this thought an
…Isabella POV…Okay. Let's call this what it is.Completely and utterly fucked up.Having a Marine as a husband feels like you are always at odds with the universe.The Corps is his life, yet do I even dare say that the Corps is the 'other woman.'And it is the 'other woman' that is always going to get the best parts of him.Clayton has done some pretty fucked up things during our relationship, and yet now it is starting to grow over into our marriage. The most fucked up thing I have ever known him to do and the most fucked up thing I am going to experience…Leaving me now, now when I need him the most.He has chosen the 'other woman.'I don't need to tell him how destroyed I was when I found out. He is right here.He saw the moment my heart shattered.He saw my soul crumble.He watched me go from a tired but proud new momma to a broken and defeated heap of a woman.I watc