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Will This Be The End?
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2022-01-23 21:52:10There is a coldness that is starting to settle over my heart in anticipation of what is about to unfold in this courthouse which I am terrified to set my feet in. From what I can gather as I am standing here on the stairs is that our dear Brendan has opted not to make an appearance. I guess the man is very confident that this will play out the way that he wishes it.
Thought the question is?
Does he think that I will back off and play into his hands?
Or does he think that he has gained the upper hand in bringing me down?
Well, I myself do not know which is the most terrifying prospect to face. All I know is that I am not going to change the man who I am to become something that I am not.
I am a Marine.
And I will stick to the oath that I have taken regardless if my career will be ending here today.
Looking back over the years, I have realized how far I have grown. I have been through some really rocky times in my life, yet somehow I ha
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