The nightmare

1 August,

I was already up when the alarm rang. I turned it off. With every passing day it gets harder for me to force myself out of bed. Every night I make a prayer to not wake in the morning but it gets unanswered.

It was only a couple of hours past dawn and I was getting a feeling that this was not my day. I was getting a feeling like something bad was waiting for me.

I brushed my teeth and took off my clothes. I prepared my bath. The water was boiling hot. I touched it with my foot, it burned so bad. It was exactly what I wanted. I kept my feet in the bathtub. I sigh of pain escaped my lips.

I got in and felt the burning pain on every inch of my body.

Ones the water got cool, I got out of the bathtub. My body was red. But again my idea worked. I was in the bath for 10-20 minutes and not for ones my mind went on Ian or college or anything that frightened me.

I pulled out the first full t-shirt that I found in my closet, I didn't wanted anyone to know that I have been cutting myse