1 August,I was already up when the alarm rang. I turned it off. With every passing day it gets harder for me to force myself out of bed. Every night I make a prayer to not wake in the morning but it gets unanswered.It was only a couple of hours past dawn and I was getting a feeling that this was not my day. I was getting a feeling like something bad was waiting for me.I brushed my teeth and took off my clothes. I prepared my bath. The water was boiling hot. I touched it with my foot, it burned so bad. It was exactly what I wanted. I kept my feet in the bathtub. I sigh of pain escaped my lips.I got in and felt the burning pain on every inch of my body. Ones the water got cool, I got out of the bathtub. My body was red. But again my idea worked. I was in the bath for 10-20 minutes and not for ones my mind went on Ian or college or anything that frightened me. I pulled out the first full t-shirt that I found in my closet, I didn't wanted anyone to know that I have been cutting myse
My eyes were searching for Renee. I had to talk to her. I had to get everything out of my head or else the veins in my head would burst now.I went to the class hoping to see her there but she wasn't in the class. Well that was an unwanted surprise. It was clear from everyone's expressions that I wasn't welcomed there. I straight walked to the last seat with the eyes staring the floor. I sat down and left a text to Renee. Any guesses what happened next? Alex came and grabbed the seat next to me. I was so doomed. The class was half empty. He could have sat anywhere else but no he chose to sit next to me. Obviously he needed to be close to me to torment me,But then I thought that I was in the class surrounded by a lot of people. He can't do anything. Or maybe I was just underestimating him. The professor was delivering a boring lecture I was hardly listening. For the first time I was checking out all the guys in the class. You know I just came up with a theory that maybe Ian left me
I sat on the bed trying to figure out the situation. So it was past twelve and there was some stranger on my window. Probably a robber who must be carrying guns or knives. I was alone in the house with nothing to defend myself.So yeah, what a great night indeed. I got off the bed slowly. I didn't wanted to alarm the robber. And why was he even here? There was nothing precious in my house? I accidently left my phone downstairs. Another happy turn!I groaned... I thought that maybe I should go downstairs and get my phone. Then I could call the cops or maybe I could just call my neighbors. They could also come to my rescue.But what if the sound of my footsteps alerted the robber and he tried to kill me. The ribber was trying to get in through the window. I grabbed the vase because it was the only thing I could defend me with. I hid behind the curtains.I snapped my eyes shut. I was so not meant for fights. I was scared how will I defend myself. When I was a kid my dad always insisted
Ian was preparing breakfast while Ava was out for a walk. Amongst the two only Ian can cook. He likes to cook but only for Ava. He likes to spoil his girl.Ava came home, "Hi sweetie, where are you?" She called out to Ian."In the kitchen." She went to the kitchen and leaned against the wall, "Hey you, missed me." She gave him a plesant smile."Is that even a question?"He went to her and was about to hug her but she stopped him, "What happened?" He asked her."I just came from jogging. I am sweaty." "Like I will care about it?" He chckled and held her in his arms."Why didn't you wake me Ava when you were going for a walk I could have come with you."She pulled his cheeks, "You were sleeping so peacefully like a child. I didn't wanted to disturb you. What did you make.""I made some pan cakes and fruit salad. You want coffee or juice?""I am tired some coffee will be good.""Ok" He poured her a cup of hot coffee. Something was bothering him. Ian had a very expressive face. If anyth
2 August, Dear diary, from today onwards I just won't be Ariadne but I will also be Leon's girlfriend for the world. It was a headache for me. After few days Leon will leave me for Ava but still I will be his ex. In a way his name will get linked with mine and this was scaring me. Earlier today I got a text from Leon, he said that he will come to pick me. And he made it very clear in the text that he won't wait. I got dressed and stood outside my house. I knew even if I made him wait for a second he will kill me. He was right on time. A black car stopped in front of my house. The car was worth more than my house. I was pulling the door but it was not opening. He opened it for me. The door was supposed to open vertically. Of course I didn't knew I have never seen a car like this before. I got in. He said nothing to me, not even good morning. Just to be nice I greeted him and thanked him for picking me up. He said nothing, he didn't even nodded his head. It was so rude. It was
3 Feb, Dear diary, Today's morning was beautiful. The rays of the morning sun kissed my face. I rubbed my eyes and stood at the window. I felt the cold breeze caressing my face. I had a feeling that today will be different. Today I will be happy. I promised myself that I will leave the past behind me and welcome my present with open arms so that I can have a beautiful tomorrow. I thought that maybe I could start my day with a cup of hot coffee. So I drove to a cafe. It was Sunday so the college was off. I thought that maybe after getting coffee I will go to the library. I love books. To my surprise Ava was in the cafe. I thought to myself that the girl won't leave me alone. Anyways, I promised myself that I won't let her presence bother me so I went in. I was acting cool and breezy. But Ava looked stressed. I couldn't help myself, I asked her "Are you fine?" "Did you come here by your car?" She asked me. She was in a hurry. "Yeah." "I really have to be somewhere. Cabs are
I gasped and opened my eyes. My body was trembling. My heart was pounding in my chest. I sat on the bed and looked around. I wasn't sure if I was up or still I was living that dream.Dear diary,Life has been hard but I have always tried to blend in it. Last night I went to a club. A guy approached me. we talked, it was wonderful. And then we kissed, though it was only for a second.And I felt guilty. I am not sure if I should feel that or not. Yeah, I am married to Leon but that wasn't my choice.We were together only for a month. Those thirty days felt like a year but then he left. It was fine without him. I was alone but I was not lonely. My head was hurting so bad in the morning."Ahh..." I groaned.I was covered in cold sweat. The aroma of the room was giving me deja vu.I closed my eyes and that face was infront of my eyes. I slowly opened my eyes. "Hey!" Leon was standing right in front of me. I startled, "W-What a-are you doing here?""You forgot? I said that I willl ruin
I took Renee to a corner, "He is here." I said."What?""Yeah Leon is here. Earlier today when he was at home he said that...""He was at home?""Yeah don't you know. He told me that he asked you out.""No the manager asked me to come early but I left you a note.""Are you sure it is him. Let's recheck.""Ok."The crowd gathered around him. I got on my heels to make sure that it was Leon. I wished he wasn't. It was him.How could have I stayed there after seeing that it was him?"I slowly walked towards the door. "where are you leaving?" The manager called me."I am not well so I am leaving for home."" No, I don't think that. Don't you know tht we are instructed to cut down some employees. Do you want to be one of them.""No." I sighed."Then do as I say." He handed over a bouquet to me "Take this and give it to him." I wnet to him. He was posing for the cameras. I forced a smile on my face and took deep breaths."Welcome Leon to the company.""Don't you have any manners. You are c