Dear diary, There comes a point in life when death seems to be the easiest option. I knew that Toby was going to ome for me. Apparently my dad betrayed them all it is obvious that they will take out revenge on his family. It was good that my step mom was keeping Renee away from this mess. I have never been a fan of my life but I never thought of giving it up. I always thought that maybe sooner or later it will get better but it was lame of me to think that.But at that moment I was fed with my life. I was tired of breathing. I was terrified of waking up in the morning who knows what day had for me.I was feeling very vulnerable. I had no one in my life. I had no reason to keep going. I wanted to end it all. I even turned on the gas knob and grabbed the matchsticks. I wanted to go the way my mom did. But then I thought that if I did it then what will be the difference between my dad and me. He killed himself when he thought that nothing was going his way. I didn't wanted to do what h
Dear diary, Leon and I are not on good terms right now. A lot is going on. I always wanted divorce from him but now that he was ready to give it to me I am getting second thoughts. But now staying with him seems impossible, now that she is here. Oh I haven't mentioned it yet. I woke up in the morning. I had no idea when he I fell asleep. I had to talk to Leon. I don't know why. It is just that a lot is going on in my head. I am not sure what. I asked the maids. They told me that Leon had not been home. Well that wasn't much of a surprise. I figured out that he must have spend the night in the club, I was sitting on the couch waiting for him. My eyes were stuck on the gate. I was getting a feeling that something was not right. I tied my hair in a messy bun. A car stopped infront of the door. Leon was home. I took deep breaths. I knew he was furious at me. He thinks that I ruined his chances of being with Ava. She wasn't even alive. For a change I was also furious at him. He left
His words left me in shock. I was standing right behind him. i knew that he was aware that I was there but still he called an almost dead woman his wife. He would have preferred an unconscious Ava over me. I never liked being called his wife but that could not overshadow the fact that I am his wife. At last for the time being. The doctor asked Leon and me to leave the room. They had to run some quick tests on Ava. Leon stood like a stone outside the door. It could be seen on his face how concerned he was. I tried to comfort him, "S-she will be fine Leon." It was heartbreaking for me to say this. After all I knew that my situation will only worsen when Ava will wake up. He nodded his head. He wiped his tears before they could roll down. After all he had to maintain his manly image. "What happened to her? Where did you find her?" I asked again. I knew that Leon was vulnerable right no so he won't yell at me. He was so overwhelmed that he was barely able to talk. "I w-was driving
Three days have passed. Leon has not left Ava even for a second. They are behind the close doors. I am trying to not let them affect me but the fact is that I am dying seeing them together. One thing is bothering me that Ava was never in love with Leon. He always loved Ian. The girl comes after all the guys I set my eyes on. Anyways this is the fact that she never loved Leon. She was with him only for his money. Then all of a sudden why was she acting like is madly in love with him. She hasn't told what happened to her yet. But if she was in any problem or if she needed any help then why did shereach out Leona nd not Ian. Things can't be as simple as they look. She is not an angel after all. There has to be a reason and I will find it out. When I woke up this morning I went to the balcony to get some fresh air. And guess whta I saw. Leon was walking in the garden holding Ava's hand. I wanted to kill them and then kill me. Things were not good between me and Leon but atleast they we
I went to the boutique and got the sexiest lingerie that it had. I have never gotten one for myself. I was embarrassed to choose one for me. But it was for Leon so I had to. I got me a red lingrie. Red is my colour and it was complementing my boo**. I went home. I was excited and nervous. Moreover I was scared. I wasn't sure if I will be able to trick Leon or not. And yeah on my way back I got Leon's favourite wine. I was getting chills just imagining the way he will touch me. Well when I got home I saw Leon and Ava in the dining room. He was feeding her like she didn't had hands. Come on Leon, it is not like she is dying. She is fit and fine. He doesn't have to treat her like this. Well I was so not letting them be alone. I went and sat beside Leon. I was no less than anyone. Neither of the two seemed to be bothered by my presence at first. Hello! You guys can't be that lost in each other's eyes. They were acting like I was invisible. Leon was looking at Ava like he finally got
I was not thinking much as I said before. So I just followed them in my juice soaked dress. It was disgusting.I stood outside Ava's room and peeped in,"Ava take your meds and I will have to go for a while. I have this meeting. I was trying to cancel it but...."Ava held Leon's face, "I will be fine. Go and come back soon. I will be waiting for you."Leon kissed her. I cursed my vision. "And Ava I am so sorry about Ariadne. She ruined our moment.""You don't have to worry about it. Just make up for it tonight."He smirked and rested his forehead on hers. "Maybe you should look into your closet." He whispered in her ears. But it wasn't that low. I heard it quiet easily. Frankly I wasn't even trying to hear but I did. He was coming outside. I hid behind a pillar. I looked at Ava. Yeah she was slightly better looking than me but I wasn't that bad. And now her face even lost gthe sparkle that it had before. She used to look better that me before but now she just looks pale and tired.
I went to Ava's room. Leon's shirt was strewn on the floor. I picked it up and smelt it. I hugged the shirt, soon Leon will be in my arms instead of his shirt. The thought gave me butterflies. I was so excited for the night. But at the same time I was also a bit nervous.I was scared that maybe the night won't turn out like I want it to. Maybe he is smarter than I am thinking. And he will see right through my plan. But this is a risk that I will have to take. It is for me. For the first time I am not thinking about anyone. I don't care about what they want. I even don't care what Leon wants. He married me. Whatever the circumstances were. He married me. I am his wife. I wont let some other woman come out of no where and take my life away.I took off my clothes and put on the little dress. I was almost exposed l. The dress barely covered anything. It made me feel so uncomfortable but so sexy at the same time. I stood in front of the mirror and admired myself. I never knew my curves wer
Dear diary, Loving is hard. What's even harder is accepting the fact that no matter what, no matter how many efforts you put into it. You might never be loved back.I am not even sure if I am asking for love. A little less pain will work.To him, I am just some girl. He knows that I have a little crush on him, It hurts me to say that just a crush. But he doesn't cares. And why will he care? A lot of girls have a crush on him. But to me his flaws are perfection. I have pictured ourselves together living our perfect life. When I know that its not what he wants or its not like he will ever want that.The problem is that I will walk to the ends of earth for him but he wouldn't even walk two feets for me..I have lost someone that I loved, before. And I am quiet sure that this time it won't be any different. Losing someone can open a place in your heart but if you are not careful then it can close your heart forever. I never thought that I will be able to love anyone after the whole Ian dr