Dear diary, Loving is hard. What's even harder is accepting the fact that no matter what, no matter how many efforts you put into it. You might never be loved back.I am not even sure if I am asking for love. A little less pain will work.To him, I am just some girl. He knows that I have a little crush on him, It hurts me to say that just a crush. But he doesn't cares. And why will he care? A lot of girls have a crush on him. But to me his flaws are perfection. I have pictured ourselves together living our perfect life. When I know that its not what he wants or its not like he will ever want that.The problem is that I will walk to the ends of earth for him but he wouldn't even walk two feets for me..I have lost someone that I loved, before. And I am quiet sure that this time it won't be any different. Losing someone can open a place in your heart but if you are not careful then it can close your heart forever. I never thought that I will be able to love anyone after the whole Ian dr
Leon rubbed his eyes. He had a wide smile on his face. He was probably reliving the faint memories of last night. I thought that I will wake up before him. I knew that things were going to be a little messy, oh I am sorry not a little messy. Things were going to be terrible. So I thought that I will wake up early. You know just to be extra prepared. But I didn't woke up on time. That was because of the night.He turned towards me and wrapped me in his arms. Just the thought of having him nearby was so comforting It was weird because he was the danger.He kissed my forehead, "Good morning."I was so sleepy. I was not even thinking of anything. Nothing alarmed me."What is going on here?" I woke up by the scream of someone. Oh dear lord! It was Ava. She was standing right in front. Her eyes were red but this time it was not because of her ailment. My heart literally skipped a beat. My body was trembling. I knew what was coming now.Leon snapped his eyes open. He looked at Ava with curi
Ava threw the nighty on his face. He just stood there puzzled. Still trying to process what happened the other night."Ava... trust me. I... don't know..." Leon whispred."You don't know?" Ava pushed him away. "You know what Leon I am sorry. And why just you? I am sorry Ariadne. I got in between you two. And I don't even know why I am upset. Who am I?" She wiped her tears. I have never seen her so upset. It was so relaxing. I wish she cried more. I knew that I was going to be in trouble but who cares? For the time being I was just enjoying the show.Ava ran away. Leon wanted to follow her but he didn't. Maybe he didn't knew what to say to her. No words from him were going to heal her and right now he had something else to worry about.He turned towards me. He eyes were burning with hate. I folded my hands in a fist. There was something i was trying to say but no words fell out of my mouth.He grabbed my hair and pulled it."Ahh.... Please let go of me.""What the hell did you do to me
Dear diary, Something happened. Yeah! Yeah! something happened yet again. I don't know what to do. I missed my dates, I get morning sickness. I think I might be pregnant. It makes me so happy!I know it is a surprise that I am happy by my problem. Well if I am pregnant then it means that Leon won't divorce me. I know that he hates me and I know that he love Ava but this is his child. He can't deny this fact. And everyone loves kids. I am sure he will want to live with his child and for that he will have to live with me.
"I beg you L-Leon please believe me." I fell on the floor. I was no longer able to whole the weight of miseries on my shoulders. "What is she talking about Leon?" Ava wept. I was the one being wronged but somehow still Ava managed to be the victim. Nothing can help her. Even god can't help her."I don't know what she is talking about." Leon wiped her tears and comforted her.I was frustrated. I was literally on my knees and she was the one Leon cared about. How can he deny that I was caring his baby. I was done being tormented by him.
The temperature was falling low. I was walking on a dark path. All these strangers were walking past me. It is crazy how you can be alone even in the crowd of hundereds.My baby was my everything. I am woman. I want to be a mother just like any other lady. But how will I be able to raise this child alone? This question was bothering me. I sat in the corner of the road. I was terrified. But suddenly I saw a familiar face. "Renee..." I whispered. I felt overwhelmed. I hugged her and let my tears roll down.
Dear diary, I am to welcome a new life in this world. I am not sure how to react with everything going around. I want to be happy, for me, for my baby. But that just seems impossible with everything going around. Just three more months and then I will have someone in this world to call my own. But now I will have to find a new place to live. Renee is too good. She has been a great help. I wouldn't have been able to get this far without her but now living with her feels weird. Not that she has anything but now his boyfriend moved in and I feel a little unwelcomed. I know that he doesn't wants me lving with them but he can't say anything.
I moved to a little apartment close to Renee's place. She was reluctant to me go but she agreed when O told her that I will stop by everyday.Her boyfriend said that he was going to miss me but I know he was just being generous l.I will admit that living alone was not as easy as I thought it would be. I was terrified of living by myself but it also feels good, you know. I wake up in peace, I go to bed in peace. But he still haunts me. He comes in my noghtmares. I hope none of them comes true.