Dear diary, Something happened. Yeah! Yeah! something happened yet again. I don't know what to do. I missed my dates, I get morning sickness. I think I might be pregnant. It makes me so happy!I know it is a surprise that I am happy by my problem. Well if I am pregnant then it means that Leon won't divorce me. I know that he hates me and I know that he love Ava but this is his child. He can't deny this fact. And everyone loves kids. I am sure he will want to live with his child and for that he will have to live with me.
"I beg you L-Leon please believe me." I fell on the floor. I was no longer able to whole the weight of miseries on my shoulders. "What is she talking about Leon?" Ava wept. I was the one being wronged but somehow still Ava managed to be the victim. Nothing can help her. Even god can't help her."I don't know what she is talking about." Leon wiped her tears and comforted her.I was frustrated. I was literally on my knees and she was the one Leon cared about. How can he deny that I was caring his baby. I was done being tormented by him.
The temperature was falling low. I was walking on a dark path. All these strangers were walking past me. It is crazy how you can be alone even in the crowd of hundereds.My baby was my everything. I am woman. I want to be a mother just like any other lady. But how will I be able to raise this child alone? This question was bothering me. I sat in the corner of the road. I was terrified. But suddenly I saw a familiar face. "Renee..." I whispered. I felt overwhelmed. I hugged her and let my tears roll down.
Dear diary, I am to welcome a new life in this world. I am not sure how to react with everything going around. I want to be happy, for me, for my baby. But that just seems impossible with everything going around. Just three more months and then I will have someone in this world to call my own. But now I will have to find a new place to live. Renee is too good. She has been a great help. I wouldn't have been able to get this far without her but now living with her feels weird. Not that she has anything but now his boyfriend moved in and I feel a little unwelcomed. I know that he doesn't wants me lving with them but he can't say anything.
I moved to a little apartment close to Renee's place. She was reluctant to me go but she agreed when O told her that I will stop by everyday.Her boyfriend said that he was going to miss me but I know he was just being generous l.I will admit that living alone was not as easy as I thought it would be. I was terrified of living by myself but it also feels good, you know. I wake up in peace, I go to bed in peace. But he still haunts me. He comes in my noghtmares. I hope none of them comes true.
I woke up to a strange letter today. I went out to get some milk and when I got back there was a letter on my door. At first I thought that it might be from Renee. But why will she write me a letter when she could just call? I took it in. My head was hurting a little so I made me some coffee. I sat on the couch holding the letter. I was curious who was it from. It wasn't from Renee I knew for sure. I opened it. I gasped and spilled the coffee all over me. I wiped it. The envelope had photos of me from the past few months. Someone was keeping an eye on me. Who else cpuld it be but Leon.
I was terrified after I received the letter. I didn't knew what to do. So I turned on the drapes and dimmed the lights of my room. I know it was a pame move and it was not going to help but I was not anle to think of anything else. I was so irritated.He didn't wanted me in his life and now that I was living alone, now that I was finally happy, he was trying to crawl his way back in my life. Maybe Ava left him. I chuckled at my own thought. There was only one way to be sure if he was after it or not. I had to call him.
Dear diary, let's have a talk. I know I haven't written in a while. I felt like I was missing on something. I was missing writing. I was getting a feeling like I had this huge burden on my shoulder and had no one to talk it to. So let's have a life update. I am getting better. I am trying to blend with everything that is going on. And now I have a reason, my baby. I stood against Leon. I never did that for me. I feel like the baby is giving me strength. I can't wait to hold my girl. Yeah, doctor told me that I am having a girl. This is the best thing that could happen to me.