Damian's povTuesday 31st December 2019**********************************It's my fault Marcus tried to kill himself. I shouldn't have left yet. I should have stayed with him. I should have known what he was planning. It's too late now though, he's back out the hospital and at home with his boyfriends. I've called him everyday but the guilt is eating me alive. I was already guilty enough after Adrian abused Marcus more than me. It's my fault, I shouldn't have ever let him go to the warehouse in the first place. I shouldn't have let Adrian hurt Marcus. Every time I see Marcus' scars I get a pain in my heart because I'm the reason they are there. Orion says it's not my fault, but he's wrong. I've been ignoring his emails since I came back to London. I'm supposed to be going to see him when I move back to be near Marcus but I'm not going to. Because I'm going to end it now. The rope around my neck is itchy and uncomfortable but I don't care. There is tears falling down my face but I
Damian's povSaturday 24th April 2021******************************"How have you been? It's been so long since I last saw you!" Demi says as he hugs me tightly. I'm meeting him at a bar for a catch up because I haven't seen him, other then at the club, since Marcus' wedding day. I even dressed up nice in a navy suit."I'm doing good, how are you?" I ask. Lies, I'm not okay. But he doesn't need to know that. "I'm fine, I'm getting a new sex swing in the shop that Marcus is going to install in some of the playrooms so I'm very busy. You're lucky I managed to meet you here tonight," he says as we sit at the bar together. He's full of energy as he tells me all about his bdsm shop he inherited from his late husband."Sounds exciting," I say and he smiles as he tells me more about it. "Wasn't the wedding beautiful," he sighs as we get onto the topic of Marcus, Nathan and Cole Carlisle. "It was, I'm so proud of Marcus," I say and Demi nods. "Marcus did so well recovering. I was shocked
Damian's povTuesday 27th April 2021******************************I'm going to the club tonight to finally face my fears. I've already arranged with Mason to meet me at the couch at 8pm so we can have a rough scene. He is more of a slave than a submissive and I'll be playing his Master which is freaking me out a little but I'm determined to get over this. I get out of my car and go into the club to Marcus' office where we are having dinner together before going to the club. I'm a little late so everyone is already here when I go inside. There's pizzas on the table between the couches without everyone sat around. Thomas is here with Lacey who's taking over for tonight so Marcus can go to the playroom with Nathan and Cole. Lucas is here and is trying to keep Cole away from his slice of pizza. "Hey Damian!" Cole says happily and pats the space beside him on the couch. I sit down and say hello to everyone. I look at Marcus and see his scars on his arms from his suicide attempt. I shou
Damian's PovWednesday 28th April 2021**********************************Vincent: can I come over? ;)My breathing stops when I read the text. He wants to come over and see me? I was about to make myself dinner so I guess I can make enough for two.Me: sure, I'll send you my address Vincent: I will see you soon I put a shirt on as I've been sat in only some sweatpants and then go to the kitchen to start making something. I decide on a carbonara and panic halfway though making it because Vincent is Italian and what if it's not up to his standard? The doorbell rings and I have to calm myself down before I open the front door. My mouth drops open when I see him in a leather jacket and tight jeans. "Ciao," he greets as he looks my body up and down. "Hello, come in," I say and step aside so he can come inside. He takes his shoes off as he looks around my house. "You have a nice house. Whatever you're cooking smells good," he says and I lead him to the kitchen. My palms sweat and my
Vincent's povThursday 29th April 2021*******************************Damian is wonderful. He made me breakfast this morning after I woke up in his arms and then fucked me again. God his dick is amazing. I can positively say it's the best dick I've taken up my ass before. He knew exactly how to make me feel good and gave me a mind blowing orgasm with his fucking and touching. Unfortunately I've got to go home and do a job with my cousins so I couldn't stay for another round. My ass is sore but I manage to look normal as I step into the Romano mansion. I can hear my cousins arguing so I go into the lounge and stand in the doorway. Lorenzo is sat on the couch cleaning a gun with a bored expression on his face. I'm pretty sure Enzo is a sociopath but I'd never tell him that, he has an extremely short temper and would probably shoot me. He doesn't show much remorse and only cares about his twin brother, Giovanni. Gio is so sweet, he hates being in the mafia so he mainly does hacking
Vincent's pov Saturday 1st May 2021******************************"Can I cuff you hands to the bed?" Damian asks me. I look to where he's holding my hands above my head and nod."Fuck yes," I say and he smirks. We're both naked on his bed and about to fuck, his dick got so close to my hole but he stopped to ask me his question. I'm so hard and ready for him to ravish me but he goes into his closet and searches through a box. I lay my head in the pillows as he kneels back between my legs and attaches a leather cuff to my left wrist. He passes the chain through the headboard bars and then attached my right wrist tightly. I pull a little but they stay solid. "Very hot," I say and he leans down to kiss me. I feel his condom covered dick against my asshole as he presses into me slowly. I moan and Damian starts kissing my neck. "Don't leave marks.""Why not?" He asks as he slams into me. I throw my head back into the pillows and let out a choked moan as he hits my prostate. I takes a mo
Vincent's povSaturday 1st May 2021***************************"What?" Me and Alessandra both yell at the same time. "I'm not marrying him! You know I have a boyfriend!" Alessandra argues with her papà."You are not marrying that boyfriend of yours! He's a bad influence and not what we need in this family!" He shouts back. They start arguing as I try to gather my thoughts. "Can I speak to you outside?" I ask papà. He nods and we go to the hall outside the lounge."She's beautiful isn't she? Perfect for you," he says and I frown."She is pretty, but I don't want want to marry her," I say."I don't care what you want to do, you're marrying her.""I'm not marrying her. I want to marry someone I love, not someone I don't even know," I say and papà glares."You will marry her. You have plenty of time to get to know her because she's staying with us until the wedding. She will be sharing your room so make sure it's clean," he tells me."No! I can't marry her! You can't make me do this!"
Damian's pov Monday 3rd May 2021*****************************I still hate talking with Orion but Marcus threatened me so I had to come. "Have you had anymore suicidal thoughts" he asks. "No," I answer."Don't lie, have you had any suicidal thoughts?""A few, but nothing bad.""Elaborate," he says as he scribbles on his notepad. "I don't know, just guilt again. I shouldn't be here," I say and Orion waits for me to keep going. "It's just so unfair that Marcus went through so much worse than me and I didn't stop it from happening. He got terrible scars while I'm totally okay. I was supposed to keep Marcus safe and I put him in danger by banning Adrian from my club.""What would you have done differently?""I'd have kept Adrian at the club, then at least I could have kept an eye on him.""But didn't Adrian want you to become his submissive? How would that have worked?""I'd have told him no but that we could stay friends.""You know Adrian would never have taken no for an answer.""
George's Pov *********************Am I dead? I should be dead. I shot myself in the head. Why can I feel sand? I open my eyes and wince when it's really bright around me. I blink a few times then slowly sit up. I use my hands to lift myself up and feel sand again. I look around and frown when I realise I'm on a beach. Is this... heaven? I should be in hell if I'm being honest. I look around more as I stand up and stop when I see a house on the beach. It looks exactly like the one me and Lorenzo were looking at before he... you know. The front door opens and a dog bounds out and runs into the ocean. A black Labrador, Enzo's favourite dog. My heart almost stops when I see him walk out of the door after the dog. He has a huge smile on his face and is only wearing summer shorts. He turns and looks at me with a shocked face. He's quite far away from me, but we both start running to get to each other. "George?" Enzo shouts as he gets closer. I start laughing as we both collide an
Vincent's pov Tuesday 30th June 2026*****************************Four years ago today, Lorenzo passed away. His parents moved to Italy for good but Giovanni stayed and helped me take back the business. Turns out Gio is stronger than us all and makes an amazing second in command. Enzo is missed everyday, but life has to go on. A lot has changed. George's funeral happened a couple of days after Enzo's. He was buried right next to Enzo with a matching headstone. It was a very difficult day, I felt so fucking guilty about it all. I go to see Orion every month to help me deal with it because Damian wanted me too. I'm getting somewhere with it, but it'll always be at the back of my mind. Damian is an amazing help, whenever I feel like shit he's always there to cuddle me and make me feel better.I decided to stay as Cappo. I couldn't abandon my family like that. I took full control and now we rarely have any issues because I built up my reputation. Domino also lives with us now. Last ye
Vincent's pov Monday 4th July 2022******************************It's Enzo's funeral today. Everyone is a mess. Giovanni refused to leave his room all weekend, we had to bring him something to eat and drink but he wouldn't touch them. Thankfully Martina and Stefano flew back from Italy yesterday and got Gio to eat something. Having his parents here has really helped Gio deal with his grief. Stefano apologised to me because he couldn't apologise to Enzo for being so homophobic. We've forgiven him because Enzo would have, he loved his papà. Even Emilio cried, and I've never seen him do that before. Him and Martina sorted the funeral for today because George was too much of a wreck to be helpful. He's been staying at the mansion because I didn't want him to be alone, although these past three days I've been angry at him. Damian helped me realise I'm not angry at him, I'm angry at the people who killed Enzo so this morning before the funeral I'm going to have to apologise.I look at m
Vincent's pov Thursday 30th June 2022**********************************"Your knee is digging into my thigh," Damian groans as he wakes up. I move my leg from where I had it across his body and roll over onto my back. "You didn't have to stop cuddling me.""I have to get up now anyways," I say and kiss his cheek before I slip out of bed and watch as Damian sits up with a yawn. I go into the bathroom and start the shower as I get my toothbrush. Damian joins me as I'm brushing my teeth and stands in front of the toilet to pee which makes me raise an eyebrow at him."I am trying to brush my teeth and you are peeing?" I ask as toothpaste drips a little. He rolls my eyes and finishes peeing then wraps his arms around my waist and hugs me from behind as I spit into the sink and wash my face. "You're too cute. You're like a housewife," he says and I turn around quickly. "Cosa?" I demand. "Wait no. I didn't mean that. I just mean now we're married you care about me peeing next to you whe
Damian's pov Tuesday 14th June 2022*******************************I'm getting married today. It's actually happening. Fuck I'm nervous. I'm stood at the alter now with Marcus by my side as we wait for Vinny to be walked down the isle. I was worried when he first said he wanted to get married in Italy because there's a lot of other mafia families who aren't happy about him being gay but it's alright. They all left us alone when Vinny sent out threats. The venue is gorgeous, it's right by the coast outside a hotel that specialises in weddings. There's an outside courtyard that has a view of the ocean where all the seats are set up. When the ceremony is over the staff will set the same area up for the meal, and for the log cutting. Vinny was very serious when he said he wanted us to do an Italian tradition where the couple cuts a log in half with a double sided saw. I thought it was strange but I'd do anything to make him happy. "Are you okay?" Marcus asks from beside me. "I'm ne
Vincent's povSunday 12th June 2022********************************I'm getting married in two days! My ma decided she's not coming. We went to go see her in Italy and she apologised for Antonio's behaviour but said she wants nothing to do with me. I took it pretty hard but I still went to Antonio's grave. Me and Damian were there for an hour as I ranted and cried about everything he did to me. It felt good though, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. And I got a weekend in Italy with my fiancé where we had lots of sex and I showed him around where I grew up. We're going to go back there for our honeymoon.I think I've solved Enzo's issue. He came to me complaining about George's colleagues who were out to get Enzo for "corrupting" George. I went to the main cop who was causing issues and gave him a broken finger and a warning to leave my family alone. Enzo said he's had no more issues with him so hopefully it worked. Yesterday was my official bachelor party with my f
Vincent's povTuesday 4th January 2022*********************************I'm going to visit Domino today with Damian. It's the first time they're meeting and I really want it to go well. We're going to tell him about our engagement then my lawyer Frankie will help Domino appeal his case. When we were inside together he always said he wanted to appeal the case because it could be seen in self defence but he didn't have the money or a good enough lawyer. "Why didn't you mention he's a murderer?" Damian whisper yells as we walk into the prison. "It was not important," I shrug and he sighs dramatically. "Yes it is important," he argues back."He did it on someone who deserved it, just like me. So you should be fine with him," I say as I cross my arms across my chest. "Fine, I'm okay with him. Let's go," he says and we go through the metal detectors which go off for me. I stand with my arms spread as a guard pats me down for anything dangerous. I didn't bring anything this time so he d
Vincent's pov Wednesday 29th December 2021**************************************I'm so happy to be home but I haven't been able to enjoy it yet because I'm so busy. I was even working on Christmas which Damian was really angry at me for, we didn't speak all day because he was punishing me. He went to Marcus' place for the day as I sulked and worked. It's been difficult getting everything back on track after I was gone for two months and Damian just doesn't understand that. We haven't had sex since I got back either. It's not because of the rape, that doesn't bother me very much although I did have a nightmare about it. Damian doesn't know about that though, I told him it was just a dream and he let it go. We haven't had sex because I come to bed late and he's already asleep when I get in. Our relationship has been strained since I broke down crying on his lap and I know it's my fault. Emilio sat me down the other day and told me I have to step up so I went to the doctors and got
Damian's pov Thursday 23rd December 2021*************************************It's Vincent's trial today. They said he had to plead not guilty and he'd get out today but I'm still worried they will take him back for longer. It's in the late afternoon so I've been stressed all day. It's been so strange to sleep in our bed alone. I keep waking up and feeling around in the bed for him then getting upset when I realise he isn't here. We've all missed him in the mansion, it doesn't feel the same without him bossing people around or joking with Luca. I don't know how he will be when he gets home. After being raped by a guard I've noticed he seems more closed off when I go to visit. He wouldn't tell me much about what was going on inside and he seemed to be putting on fake smiles. Right now I'm putting a suit on so I can look nice for the trail. I put a tie on and look at myself in the mirror for a moment, taking a deep breath to get ready to see my boyfriend properly. Marcus, Nathan, a