Anger and Desire

     I drift off to sleep on the plane on the way back to Texas, only to awaken after having a very vivid dream or maybe I should say fantasy of Drake. I pour myself a drink and try to relax. I decided to change clothes and freshen up, just in case Drake met me at the airfield.  Silly how I have to remind myself this is all just a game. I catch myself wanting him, wanting to please him, wanting to give myself to him. I have to remember that I want to hurt him, make him regret how he treated me. Lila, my wolf also reacts to Drake so strongly I constantly have to reign in.  I continue to sip the burning alcohol that I am drinking, my excitement continues to grow at the thought of seeing Drake. Nothing could prepare me for what would happen when we landed.

     I step through the plane door and I see Drake standing there. My heart fluttered and it took me a moment to realize what I saw, then pure anger rushed over me. Drake is there smiling, waving and some female is wrapped around him. My face must have instantly shown my anger because Drake pushed the woman a way just as my wolf took control. Unaware of what I was doing a low growl left my lips, as I released enough power to knock the female down from far away still on the plane stairs.  I had never released any of my power while angry or out of control. I was scared of what I had done as I slowly lifted my head.

     I was both relieved and annoyed as I raised my head and Drake was smiling and nodding his head in approval. Wtf! I then break eye contact and notice every other person present was kneeling on one knee, to me. This is only done normally to alphas and lunas, the rulers. I am confused and ashamed. A blush creeps up my face and colors my cheeks. I walk over to Drake, still fuming that a woman was wrapped around him. Alpha Drake grabs me and pulls me into his arms. As his strong muscled arms wrap around me he leans in and whispers in my ears. “I missed you” Drake almost said. I shakily apologize saying I wasn’t sure what happened. Drake chuckles and tells me not to apologize and then he takes my hand and leads me to his truck.  

     As we drive away from the air field I am lost in thought. Why had I reacted that way? Why does he make me so mad and yet I want his approval so badly? How could I lose control of Lila so easily? And why do I want Drake so bad? Wolves are very sexual creatures and we can only reproduce with our mate, so there is no discouragement toward sex. Most girls my age have been with many, but I just have never. It’s not that I am saving myself for my mate or anything like that but no one has really made me react in that way until now. I know if Drake tried I would easily give him my virginity. Not realizing how turned on my thoughts were getting me, I was surprised when Drake pulled the truck over, he must have smelled my desire. Shit. 

     I tried to calm myself as Drake got out and walked over to me. He yanks my door open and grabs me. He is leading me to the edge of the forest. “You need to run, shift” he orders. My only response was to shake my head no. Drake is getting angry now and orders me again. This time I managed to speak,”I can’t, I don’t show my wolf.”  Drake laughs and lets a little of his alpha power roll over me. This time I don’t fight it, it soothes me and Lila begins to rumble happily. I have to find another way to calm down or I could go relief another way. I reach down and feel Drake’s hardness through his pants. He sucks in a breath and grabs my hand away. I see the gold replace the brown in his eyes and darkness swirl there. He is turned on. This is it now or never.

     I lean forward and kiss Drake’s soft full lips. They are surprisingly strong and I revel in the firn pressure. I nipped Drake’s lower lip and then I was slammed into something hard. My back was pressed against a tree and I was being lifted and held in place by Drake’s strong arm.  I instinctively wrap my legs around his hips. Drake grinds his bulge against my core and I growl. I try to hide my surprise not wanting Drake to know of my innocence.  He begins moving in and out of my vagina with such urgency it sends my crashing over in waves of ecstasy as my orgasm rips through me. I was shocked out of my bliss when I felt Drake’s tongue. He still held me in place and was now lowered face level with my most intimate area. Drake licked hungrily lapping up my juices. Then he sucked on the bundle of nerves at the end of my opening. As my clit was tugged and pulled I lost all ability to think or even be aware of anything other than the pleasure. Drake was back up to full height again and kissing me urgently. I began grinding against his hardness begging with my body for him to take me. And he did. He entered so quickly that I let out a startled yelp. I hoped he didn’t realize that I wast a virgin but I couldn’t tell. Drake paused for a moment, growled sexily and began thrusting. The pain was a dull burn but quickly forgotten as pleasure overtook all my senses. Drake was so strong banging into me fiercely over and over. A growl ripped through him as he came hard. This did not stop or even pause him. He turned me around and continued the brutal, but wanted, assault on my body. As he kissed my neck I heard him say mine and without realizing it I responded the same. This is not how this was supposed to go. That was my last thought before yet another orgasm ripped through me, I heard Drake growl in release and then everything faded to black as sleepover took my exhausted body.

     I wake up and feel something hard against me. I am laying on the soft cool ground with one hard hot wolf wrapped around me. Drake wakes and I can’t help but blush. He wakes and begins kissing me. This time when he asks me to shift and run, I do. My body begins to shimmer as the change begins and there standing before Drake I let Lila out to play. I see a giant all black wolf, perhaps the largest I have ever seen. He takes a step back when he realizes what stands in front of him is a solid white wolf.

     Lila and Titan ran for hours. They chased each other and nuzzled. They played hide and seek. But mostly they ran. Titan was fast and I could barely keep up even though Lila was very fast. Both wolves were strong and large. It must have been quite a sight to see two wolves running together, one solid black, one solid white. They were free and happy. I shifted back and sleepily mumbled as a strong Drake picked me up and shushed my back to sleep. When I wake up I am back at the ranch in bed alone.