LOGINShare
Chapter 38 - Because you're my little brother
Last Updated:
2023-02-19 23:08:18Related chapters
The Death of Me Chapter 39 - We Dolan's, when we love, we love hard
Cara's POVMy steps took a hard stop when I heard a gunshot coming from the same place Alex went to minutes ago.Sickness coiled in my stomach and I immediately turned around; Roman stood in my way, his hand on the door holding it open for me, "Get in the car." He ordered.I shook my head and tried to walk past him but his hand wrapped around my arm and stopped me from moving any further."Cara-""No, leave me!" I snapped as I tore his hand away.Another gunshot sounded in the air, it also came from the same place.What's happening?My pulse sped, and I pulled in even breaths, trying to calm myself and the panic that had built up in my nerves. My heart dropped into my stomach as my eyes scanned through the trees trying to clear my vision and catch any glimpse of him.I can't just stay here. I have to go. I have to see if he is alright.He is all alone there.And - Oh my god- Nikolas.. he is here too.If it happened and these two were in the same place alone. I am pretty sure one of th
Last Updated : 2023-02-20The Death of Me Chapter 40 - Message received
Roman's POVA gust of cold wind blew and chilled my face. Coldness blanketed my skin as I placed the tip of the bottle to my lips and gulped a full mouth of the liquor. My fingers wrapped tighter around the glass as the taste left a burn when it passed my throat. I took another gulp before I leaned my back against the car and tilted my head back, breathing deeply as I eyed the sky.It was a clear, moonless night. It looked peaceful and at ease. It was silent. No voices and no one around except for the demons in my head whispering things I am not so sure I am capable of, drowning me in the chaos of their thoughts.I welcomed the darkness as my eyelids dropped down, air pushed in and out of my lungs, jagged and coarse. A growl rumbled at the base of my throat. I hated every fucking second of this day. My jaw clenched and my eyes glided open before I angrily threw the bottle away. It fell at a distance, glass shattered as it hit the ground. The crashing sound crawled into the inside of m
Last Updated : 2023-02-21The Death of Me Chapter 41 - Self-Destruction Plan
Cara's POVI may have gone mad..crazy and insane.Maybe I am being unreasonable, or maybe I have just lost my mind.Because instead of pushing that button, here I am, talking with that exact man who ruined my life, the same one who broke me over and over again.Here I am, asking for his help.Some may not agree, but there are few things out there that hurt so much more than just a broken heart.Something physical.Intense.Real.An affliction with no antidote.Because no pain can come equally to what I felt at that moment, how it was all ripped away from me when I saw life ever so slowly leave his eye; nothing can take away the vision of him as he slipped away from me.It doesn't matter which way you slice it, look at it or analyze it. It'll always come up with the same sum... same fact, that he is dead.And the man who killed him is still out there. Still breathing, alive and planning more ruin.Alex's father must be punished.And I know Nikolas is the one to do it. He is the one rea
Last Updated : 2023-02-22The Death of Me Chapter 42 - You can't break the broken
Alex's POVI hated.Everything and everyone.My vision clouded with anger, and my heart pounded harder as I made my way out of the hospital. The feeling flared like a sickness clawing at the inside of my stomach. My leg bounced with the nerves prodding my anxious feet. My hands shook with that old rage, the gnawing impulse that clipped my nerves, that need to get back inside and pull him the fuck away from her.I stopped, my steps halted and I just stood there. The mere thought of them together brought my sanity right to the edge. I fisted my hair in my hands, doing my best not to lose my shit, trying to keep from coming unglued here in the middle of the fucking day.Anger clenched my jaw, the emotion in an all-out war with the part of me that kept giving her reasons, the part that trusted her with all its being, that part that refused to believe in what they all say...that part didn't even want to acknowledge what my eyes just saw.But the image slammed me in quick succession - her w
Last Updated : 2023-02-23The Death of Me Chapter 43 - Room 474
I officially quit wattpad..Cara's POV.Come to the car. I am leaving.With the phone held between my fingers and with my eyes focused on the bright screen, I read the few words his text message held. I sucked into a deep breath before I locked the phone and placed it in my pocket. I wiped whatever mess was left on my cheeks and tried to fix my hair before I got to my feet. I went to Katherine's room, forced a smile and told Ashton we're leaving."I'll be back in the morning," I added as I closed the door behind me.With heavy steps, I went out of the hospital down to the parking lot. Cold air pelted my skin, the night deep. Dull lights seeped across the lot. Spotting the car few miles away, my legs ever so slowly walked me closer to it. I stood at the passenger door and sucked in a breath. Fear constricted my chest, I didn't want us to fight more.I'll just try and keep silent for now.Exhaling a deep breath from my lungs, I finally unlatched the door and sat down in the seat. Silent
Last Updated : 2023-02-24The Death of Me Chapter 45 - Water is thicker than blood
Alex's POVCold wind rushed and tangled in my hair, it hit my skin and chills raced through, going deep down till they reached that wild muscle beating at my chest, they engulfed it from all sides, wrapping it in a cold blanket, trying to clog the veins from pumping all that blood, trying to numb it from feeling everything so deep.Silently, I stood by the car's door, waiting for my breathing to even, waiting for that fog wrapping around my brain to fade away. I just needed it to stop because I can't make sense of all these feelings brimming at my chest, I just can't...I never was able to. I can't deal with this pain, because it's much more than anything I ever felt.It's intense.It's physical.I can feel every cell in my body resisting through it, trying to fight before it loses control and just collapses. I fisted my hand, doing my best not to lose my shit, trying to keep from coming unglued right here in the middle of the day.I let one feeling take over my senses, the only one th
Last Updated : 2023-02-25The Death of Me Chapter 46 - A cornered soldier
Two weeks later...Alex's POV"Oh..look how cute he is," I said as my eyes fell on Chase, his eyes were closed and his head resting on Ashton's chest, peacefully sleeping.Cara turned to me and her eyebrows pulled together, "Ashton or Chase?"I shot her a glare to which she innocently shrugged as we made our way further inside the hospital's hall. Ashton's head was turned to the other side, his hand resting on the back of Chase's head, gently stroking it. At the sound of our footsteps, he turned his head and his eyes fell on us. They flicked back to Chase when he stirred in his arms.When we stopped right by their side, Chase's eyes slowly glided open and he looked up at us. He brought his small fist to his eye and rubbed at it, he sniffled and more tears gathered in his eyes. I immediately bent down and took him in my arms, he willingly came, his arms found their way around my neck and he rested the side of his head over my shoulder. I ran my hand through his hair and softly asked, "
Last Updated : 2023-02-26The Death of Me Chapter 47 - I don't entirely hate you
Cara's POVMy heart skipped a beat or maybe two. It flattered rapidly as I grabbed his wrist in my hand, my fingers wrapped themselves so tight over his skin refusing to let go. My head cocked up in shock, my eyes wide; disbelief, fear, anger, and too many other mixed emotions clouding them.I jerked my head with a harsh shake. My teeth grinding against each other trying so hard to keep my fear from spurring forward. Raging brown eyes stared down at me and his lips pressed against each other before his throat bobbed and he swallowed hard, trying to shove it all back down as always.Steady air left his nose before he ever so calmly said, "Get out."I shook my head, my fingers only tightened over his wrist telling him that I am not going anywhere. The muscles of his jaw worked, he tried to pull his hand out of my grip but he couldn't. I have never held into something that hard; as if I am clinging onto the last thread of hope binding us together.He jerked his face away for two anguishe
Last Updated : 2023-03-01
Latest chapter
The Death of Me Bonus Chapter I
Katherine's POV"Here is number one," Alex said as he handed me Lilly.I gave her to Ashton before I turned around and received the second package, "And here is number two," He added as he handed me Max and his bag. The little boy settled between my arms without making any noise. He rested his cheek over my chest as he played with the piece of bread in his tiny hands, chewing on it and making a mess over my clothes and his."Is that all?" I asked, my eyebrow raising and Alex nodded, "As far as I know, I have only two kids," He said, his eyebrows pulling closer in utter terror, "I hope there isn't more of them out there.""We all have our doubts about that," I said and he shot me a glare.His eyes flickered to Max in my arms and they softened right away before he inched closer and kissed his cheek. He ran his hand over the boy's soft hair and Max looked back at him, smiling as he let out that happy baby noise that makes my ovaries explode.I pouted at his cuteness and tightened my arms
The Death of Me Epilogue
Five months later...Cara's POVI pressed my palm over my bump when I felt my belly tightening and my muscles stiffening. I walked forward shaking that uncomfortable feeling away.My stomach and back muscles contracted painfully and I slammed my eyes shut.Breathe in. Breathe out.Phew.If you think that I am gonna have the baby right now, well I hate to burst your bubble, but you're wrong. I've been having these amazing false alarms all over the past week.I lost count over how many times I dragged Alex to the hospital. Poor thing, I gave him way too many unnecessary heart attacks.Five days has passed since my due date and my baby is not planning on coming out. WHY? Just why?I've never felt more uncomfortable.I walked into the kitchen and my eyes fell on Katherine preparing the meal with Ashton assisting her. She's so lucky, Alex never helps me. Sigh.Ashton's gaze went to me and he smiled, "You're still pregnant?" He asked amused.Is he making fun of me?He is, isn't he?That son
The Death of Me Chapter 62 - How the story ended
Cara's POVLove is a pretty powerful drug. When you feel it, you really feel it.It can suspend time, making the whole world seem still except for you two.My mother once told me that there's a vast difference between love and true love. I never understood it, not until now.True love knows no depth. It's an endless tunnel that sweeps you up in the whirlwind and you're never quite free from it. It stays with you and it gets you addicted like nothing else. There is no breaking free after, no moving on.True love isn't ordinary. It doesn't come around often and that's how you'll know it's genuine.I thought I knew what love is when I first met Alex, when he took my hand in his and I fell into his arms, like I was always waiting for it. It felt like a fairy tale at the moment, it was magical..in a way.We had our ups and downs back then, but it was simple. We were just two lost people, learning how to fall in love. It was new for us, to open up and let our guard down, we weren't used to
The Death of Me Chapter 61 - The Death of Me
Alex's POVI never believed in fate or destiny.All the soulmates and meant to be crap, they never made sense to me. The concept that no matter what we do, the outcome is sealed, that we are just puppets in the grand scheme of things...That concept is ill.But what is scarier is that people actually believe in it.They say what's meant to be, will be.That in the end, everything unfolds the way it's supposed to. As if destiny is not the choices we make.I just don't believe in that.Yeah, I believe that I fell in love, but I believe that I chose her, I believe that it was my choice...not something written in the stars all those years ago.It was my choice.Like I chose to be with her; now, I am choosing to leave her behind.I am choosing to move on.For the very first time, I am choosing to be selfish.On a heavy exhale, I stood up, for a moment I gazed at her. I couldn't help but think that what we had was so beautiful, it was everything I ever wanted. She was my everything. But all
The Death of Me Chapter 60 - Our Story Ends Here
At the day of the incident...PART TWO05:30 amEmma's POVFear.Fear is shackles, it is a knife in the gut slowly twisted, it is a constant hammer on the head.Yet fear is also just an illusion, but not an amusing one brought about by a conjuring trick. It's like the ghosts of a child's nightmare - a fragment of our own imagination. A lie.Whenever fear and I crossed paths, I walked with confidence right past it.For years and years, I didn't feel it because I believed that there is nothing to fear but fear itself.But all of that changed now.All my defenses evaporated as my eyes locked down with his. They were a deep, earthy brown - the color of the earth after torrential rains.He smiles at me. It is soft, so soft, a contradiction with the cruelty in his eyes."Emma," He whispers, my name parts his lips ever so gently. He was never gentle.The fear sits quietly, eroding the person I was born to be. What starts as a contortion of my stomach becomes a feeling of being smothered by a
The Death of Me Chapter 59 - The One and Only
ONE YEAR LATER...NEW YORKCara's POVLoving someone is one of the biggest chances we ever take.I consider it unfair, because it's rarely a conscious decision we make. It's something beyond our control.That love, it either blossoms slowly and gradually grows, or it hits us hard, shocking us with its sudden intensity.Sometimes it's a cure.And other times it's a curse.In my case, it was both.It was the one thing missing from my life, the thing I needed the most but when I finally had it, like a drug, I couldn't live without it.Falling in love, it was inevitable.This...all of this was inevitable.It was bound to happen. I couldn't avoid it, no matter what, I couldn't run from it.It's weird, but I always had a feeling that something this bad would happen one day. I always sensed a storm brewing at a distance, waiting for the best moment to strike and ruin us in its wake...and the sad thing, it actually did.The storm wrecked us. Took parts of us. Changed us.That storm, it broke
The Death of Me Chapter 58 - The Final Battle (PART TWO)
Alex's POV"Can I ask something?"Oh, it speaks.I didn't answer right away, I can feel her eyes on me as I drove us to our destination. Without turning, I nodded my head, ushering her to carry on, although, I would've preferred this drive to be silent."Would you...Would you really do what you said on the phone?" The amount of fear in her voice almost made my chest tighten, "Would you hand me over to your father like that?"I turned to look at her, my brow arched as I asked, "Do you want the truth?" She immediately nodded her head, eager to hear the answer.I looked back at the road ahead of us, "Yeah, I would." I honestly said, "If it wasn't for Nikolas, who I am pretty sure will literally kill me if I did it, but if it wasn't for him, I would've just handed you to him in exchange for my daughter."I felt her shift in her seat uncomfortably, her voice shook a little, "Are you going to do that now?"I turned to her, to see the lone tear streaming down her cheek and I shook my head, "
The Death of Me Chapter 57 - The Final Battle (PART ONE)
Alex's POV"Hel...Help?" She stuttered, conflict reigned in her gaze, questions, worry, and blatant confusion. Her eyes drifted between us, trying to take it in, her hand plastered against her chest as she asked again, "You...you want my help?"See, even she is surprised."It's Frank," Nikolas said, her wide eyes went to him, "This is gonna include him knowing that you're still alive, but don't worry, it's safe, I wouldn't do anything that would put you in danger."Her legs moved her backward, the force of the news hit her a little bit. She seemed to regain control when she looked at me and lightly shook her head, "I still don't understand."I found my voice again and said, "He has my daughter," I swallowed hard, "And we can't find him, we think...well, Nikolas thinks that if he knew you're alive, he'll show up and that will take us one step closer into finding her." I explained, emotions pushed at my chest and I carried on, "If you don't wanna do this, no one is gonna force you, we-"
The Death of Me Chapter 56 - Desperate times call for desperate measures
Alex's POVFlames of fear licked through my body, kindling the madness the thought of losing her created in me, and my gut twisted into the tightest knot.What does he want from my little girl?If he wants the baby dead, then what does Lilly have to do in the middle of all of this?"Who did this?" Liam asked the guy, but the young man was already slipping away, the liquid oozing down his shirt took a darker color. Liam shook him, "I said, who did this?" His voice bellowed in the hallway, slamming against the walls and returning back as an echo."Who else do you think?" My voice didn't sound familiar to my own ears; Liam turned to me, his gaze drifting from the dead guy, "It's my dear father, who else would do something like this?"His brow raised before he got to his feet, "Well, I can think of one other person who would do something exactly like this." The words harshly tumbled out, his hand curling into a fist, anger taking over his eyes. It's weird, seconds ago he was the one tryin
