I fell into a deep sleep and found myself reliving some of the most horrid memories of life. First I was in the dungeon with Hannah again and she was beating me to the point the pain then it went numb. I still remember the thought of death and the taste of my blood pouring into my mouth. Then I switched to the smiles of Rogan at the waterfall and suddenly I heard Athena’s cackle. The cackle stole my whole word and then I tasted Hannah’s blood in my mouth before seeing Rogan disappearing into the trees. I felt myself trying to scream and begging for help but it went nowhere. The louder I screamed the more it felt like nothing moved and I just kept trying then I heard his voice, “Hey Kellina, just relax, I’m right here.” I woke up shaking and I must have been saying his name for him to react that way. I felt his arms wrap around me with a feeling of trying to keep me safe as he whispered in my ear. “I’m right here. You were just having a dream.” The feelings of sparks and
"What did you just say?” I knew I must have just heard it wrong but my body was heating up telling me differently, “I apologize perhaps I shouldn’t have just stated so I will ask but now the answer should be yes. Will you take a shower with me?” Rogan took a step forward and his eyes darkened and there was that flicker of silver that told me his wolf was also wanting the same thing. I looked around the room searching for someone to verify that we were hearing this all correctly but it was just me and him. “I uh....don’t know....uh.” He cut me off, “Kellina I need to know you’re safe after Corgan broke the bloody door down so it’s the only thing that makes sense is for us to be in the bathroom together and if we are going in together then I’d rather you just shower with me because neither one of us should be taking a cold shower and one of us would be if we waited on the other. It just makes the most sense, right?” Was he making perfect sense? What world was I li
The door creaked open and inside was the same setup as was in my previous cell. I could feel Kellina beside me breathing so heavily I was worried she would hyperventilate but when I turned to her she took a deep breath and then gave me the blankest smile. I knew it wasn’t real but she was there standing beside me as she always had. Part of me wanted to tell her everything right now that the kiss we had shared had filled in a thousand gaps in my memory and I knew now she was my mate but I couldn’t just yet because of the hold Athena had on me had to be released before I could even begin again with the beautiful white wolf with burgundy tangles of hair intertwined. I heard my wolf in my head. Mine it said and only that. I knew what my wolf wanted and so did I but the burning in my flesh from the fake mark Athena had given me had to be released because my whole self felt as if it would explode at any moment. I then turned to Athena’s true mate Erin and I couldn’t help but think ho
“He kissed her! He fucking kissed her!” I kept yelling in my brain as I raced up the stairs. I needed Rollo, I needed the Alpha and I was going to end this. I arrived at the door of the Alpha’s office and told the guard I needed the Alpha now, not a moment later Rollo arrived throwing his shirt on quickly. “Kellina my dear what is it? You don’t look okay?” Rollo checked me over and I knew he could see the bruises on my arm which out of just wanting to avoid the conversation I put my hands behind my back. “Rollo I need to talk to the Alpha now and need Corgan there.” “Corgan, what?” He questioned me but then stopped. “Okay, whatever you need my sweet girl.” He then turned to the guard. “You heard him go get Corgan now!” He barked and the guard jumped racing up the stairs. At that moment the door opened up and the Alpha stood there, “What the fuck is going on?” “I need to talk to you about the deal we made now please and” I turned to Rollo, “I need to make sur
No feelings, no emotions, just walking through life as a corpse. Feeling the only burn inside of a red hot flame burning your mind into tiny cinders of nothing. It’s everything and everyone that causes your despair, pain, and heartbreak. Your brain eating away with tiny nibbles because of the complaints you have against yourself. Slowly you make yourself uglier and more pathetic until there is nothing left but empty space where once was a normal human being. The pressure of continuing life becomes so strong that the only way to make it easier is to watch the blood drip out of your body. A long silver blade ignites your only final resolution. Naturally, hell is not the perfect face or the perfect body, and it is certainly not the perfect life. It is alone with the constant ache of a love that will never come to pass. There will be no fluffy marshmallows passing by your dark baren existence or beautiful ladies with long feathering wings granting wishes. Hell is like an inferna
I woke up to the sun rising above the hill taking in the beauty and my mind instantly went to Kellina. I imagined how I’d find her today likely crumpled up somewhere in that large room that once shared the love of Rogan and her. Many times she’d be in the closet buried in his clothes. I could tell she had cried herself to sleep once again and had landed wherever she chose. Although her powers had grown and she was stronger than ever before her body had sunken and the weakness in her heart was something felt by the entire pack. Her emotions were capable of affecting us all and the longer there was no sign of Rogan the longer she suffered. I had tried a million different things even providing her mood stabilizers, counseling, and allowing her to go on search missions that always ended up coming up with nothing. She was just as bad as the Alpha was now both lost in their own will to try to find Rogan. I was grateful that my mate killed long ago in the first Red Cresent Moon attacks di
I woke to the sense that she was near although I’d never seen her or mentioned a word to anyone. I was terrified that if anyone knew that I may have my true mate nearby that they would finally end this weird charade I’d been playing the Mystic Moon Pack for the last several years. It was ironic that she’d be her and I couldn’t help wondering if she could feel me too. I imagined a thousand times what she must look like but it didn’t truly matter because the odds of me ever seeing her were slim to none. I had thought about telling my little wolf Kellna but the idea of upsetting her or making her feel like anything less broke something inside me every time I came close to getting the words out. My poor little wolf was not the same as she was when I first saw her that sense of hope and resilience was lost since my old pack took her mate away and not just any mate the future Alpha which weakened the pack forever. I had been devastated myself when it all happened because it was never th
Every time I kissed her, every time I touched her skin, every time I was inside her I knew I shouldn’t be something plagued me to stop was it because I had never officially renounced my pack when I’d left? Or was it the woman he came to me in my dreams constantly pulling me towards her? I couldn’t tell Athena how I felt because when I did, I could see her heart breaking, and that killed me inside. After all, I was marked as her mate and she was marked as mine. Still, my mind wandered whenever I had a chance to be alone to think of that woman that was always in my dreams with her pale skin, and white hair except for the ends dripped in dark red with a body that any man would melt for. Who was she? In the end, it didn’t matter because my life was here now deep inside the mountain inside the caves. I needed to find more food and more supplies for our wolves. The children needed better education, we needed better health care for the elderly, and overall, our pack needed to learn an
“He kissed her! He fucking kissed her!” I kept yelling in my brain as I raced up the stairs. I needed Rollo, I needed the Alpha and I was going to end this. I arrived at the door of the Alpha’s office and told the guard I needed the Alpha now, not a moment later Rollo arrived throwing his shirt on quickly. “Kellina my dear what is it? You don’t look okay?” Rollo checked me over and I knew he could see the bruises on my arm which out of just wanting to avoid the conversation I put my hands behind my back. “Rollo I need to talk to the Alpha now and need Corgan there.” “Corgan, what?” He questioned me but then stopped. “Okay, whatever you need my sweet girl.” He then turned to the guard. “You heard him go get Corgan now!” He barked and the guard jumped racing up the stairs. At that moment the door opened up and the Alpha stood there, “What the fuck is going on?” “I need to talk to you about the deal we made now please and” I turned to Rollo, “I need to make sur
The door creaked open and inside was the same setup as was in my previous cell. I could feel Kellina beside me breathing so heavily I was worried she would hyperventilate but when I turned to her she took a deep breath and then gave me the blankest smile. I knew it wasn’t real but she was there standing beside me as she always had. Part of me wanted to tell her everything right now that the kiss we had shared had filled in a thousand gaps in my memory and I knew now she was my mate but I couldn’t just yet because of the hold Athena had on me had to be released before I could even begin again with the beautiful white wolf with burgundy tangles of hair intertwined. I heard my wolf in my head. Mine it said and only that. I knew what my wolf wanted and so did I but the burning in my flesh from the fake mark Athena had given me had to be released because my whole self felt as if it would explode at any moment. I then turned to Athena’s true mate Erin and I couldn’t help but think ho
"What did you just say?” I knew I must have just heard it wrong but my body was heating up telling me differently, “I apologize perhaps I shouldn’t have just stated so I will ask but now the answer should be yes. Will you take a shower with me?” Rogan took a step forward and his eyes darkened and there was that flicker of silver that told me his wolf was also wanting the same thing. I looked around the room searching for someone to verify that we were hearing this all correctly but it was just me and him. “I uh....don’t know....uh.” He cut me off, “Kellina I need to know you’re safe after Corgan broke the bloody door down so it’s the only thing that makes sense is for us to be in the bathroom together and if we are going in together then I’d rather you just shower with me because neither one of us should be taking a cold shower and one of us would be if we waited on the other. It just makes the most sense, right?” Was he making perfect sense? What world was I li
I fell into a deep sleep and found myself reliving some of the most horrid memories of life. First I was in the dungeon with Hannah again and she was beating me to the point the pain then it went numb. I still remember the thought of death and the taste of my blood pouring into my mouth. Then I switched to the smiles of Rogan at the waterfall and suddenly I heard Athena’s cackle. The cackle stole my whole word and then I tasted Hannah’s blood in my mouth before seeing Rogan disappearing into the trees. I felt myself trying to scream and begging for help but it went nowhere. The louder I screamed the more it felt like nothing moved and I just kept trying then I heard his voice, “Hey Kellina, just relax, I’m right here.” I woke up shaking and I must have been saying his name for him to react that way. I felt his arms wrap around me with a feeling of trying to keep me safe as he whispered in my ear. “I’m right here. You were just having a dream.” The feelings of sparks and
My mind was reeling and pounding with the ideas of what I knew to be true. I felt more fucked up than I did even this morning when I woke up before I’d been set free to a certain degree. I pounced up to the room trying to ignore the sad moving body behind me. I couldn’t look at her and focus right now because I was still fucking angry about what I’d smelled. It was Erin, the wolf I halfway liked to be honest because he was tough and didn’t put up with all the bullshit like some of the other wolves. I even appreciated the way he was trying to get a handle on Corgan which was not an easy task. Fuck Corgan, what was that guy’s deal anyways? I know he was my brother and from everything I’d been told we were close so what the fuck was he on one about now? It felt like it was more than even just wanting to be the Alpha. He’d only come in and talked to me one time when I first got there, told me who he was, and asked if I remembered him. I know I was an asshole at the time,
I yelled with all my might and tried to grab Rogan’s arm to calm him but he threw me off in a rage. “Get the fuck off of me, this wolf knows what he’s done.” Erin was barely fighting him off at this point and I knew if something didn’t go Rogan was going to kill Erin right in front of me I screamed for others to come but even the guard Rave who came up was no match for Rogan at the moment. I turned to Corgan who was standing there stupidly laughing in his drunken state and grabbed him forcefully by his shirt collar. “You want to be the fucking Alpha! Then start acting like one you stupid dumbass!” His eyes shot up and stared and me in shock. I knew I’d never talked to Corgan like that before but desperate times called for it. “You really think I’m going to be with someone who will stand by and watch something like this! You are the only one that is strong as the fucking Alpha in front of you killing your friend so do something about it!” I finished off with a slap to h
There was barely a word spoken as we walked and she allowed me space to walk ahead of her without a word. I spent the entire night listening to the Red Crescent pack and knew those wolves like the back of my hand for the last few years they were all I knew and focused on. I could tell their subtilities if they didn’t want to tell me something but today there was none of that it was just the plain simple truth. I was where I was supposed to be and they all admitted to taking me away knowing that Kellina existed and was the true descendant of the red wolf. What's more, Athena was not my mate but had many different powers that were from dark ways that many didn’t know. She’d been gifted all of these lessons and information from her mother and father who also used them to trick the red wolves into their bidding and from those older wolves the memories of being tricked to kill Kellina’s own family. Until now there were so many fears about Athena that nobody would even consider go
I dashed ahead laughing as Gorm chased after me. I knew it wouldn’t be long before he caught up but I aimed towards our house. It was a small quaint house very similar to Laura and Rollo’s home but I loved the idea of having a home that was both ours! I ran through the picket fence and heard his breath catching up to me. “Woman you better get that door open quickly or I will have my way with you outside.” He said in a deep husky voice. I knew Gorm and knew he wasn’t kidding. I just had made it through the door and flung off my coat when his arms grabbed me pulling up so my feet were dangling and pushed his mouth onto mine in a passionate and forthcoming kiss. I giggled slightly and wrapped my arms around him. “What is so funny my love?” He pulled away looking into me. “Nothing is funny at all I just can’t help expressing my happiness is all.” I ran my fingers through his longer red hair marvelously at the sight of his strength as he still held me up in the air. With
The day and night were spent celebrating and talking a great deal to Rogan. I could not let this man that my Alpha loved to think she was something she wasn’t. I immediately pulled him to the side and told him everything I could including intimate details about Athena making me believe at one point that I was her true mate. Rogan about lost it at that point but I was lucky to have Critsy and other red wolves near to express the same to Rogan. It was difficult and damaging in some ways for him to hear. I knew Kellina could barely stand the hurt he was feeling by all of it but he had to know. So many red wolves had come to him and told him the truth of everything including going along with all of Athena’s ideas which truly did consist of allowing Rogan to believe they were true mates. With Critsy’s help, we had even been able to piece together the night that Rogan was taken and some of what happened after including drugging Rogan beyond consciousness and Athena using spells