Lost Rogan's POV

  Every time I kissed her, every time I touched her skin, every time I was inside her I knew I shouldn’t be something plagued me to stop was it because I had never officially renounced my pack when I’d left? Or was it the woman he came to me in my dreams constantly pulling me towards her? I couldn’t tell Athena how I felt because when I did, I could see her heart breaking, and that killed me inside. After all, I was marked as her mate and she was marked as mine. Still,  

my mind wandered whenever I had a chance to be alone to think of that woman that was always in my dreams with her pale skin, and white hair except for the ends dripped in dark red with a body that any man would melt for. Who was she?  

 In the end, it didn’t matter because my life was here now deep inside the mountain inside the caves. I needed to find more food and more supplies for our wolves. The children needed better education, we needed better health care for the elderly, and overall, our pack needed to learn and work towards preparing themselves for the worst. Athena was positive the Mystic Moon Pack with all their resources would come for what little we had and we just weren’t prepared. I had tried to go out and find different places for our pack to live and thrive but it was too dangerous as every time I tried to go or was ready to leave Athena had to call me back because she could sense the dangerous pack was near. It wasn’t right they had so much while we had so little. I needed to find other ways to find the pack. I headed to the larger space inside the mountain where we held our sparring sessions.  

 At least here I knew exactly what I was doing. I wasn’t sure about everything else in the pack but here I knew that I could contribute. I was about to the opening when my head began to ache. I held my head tightly and closed my eyes seeing her trying to enter my mind once again. The woman was trying to summon me again. Every time I began to see her when I closed my eyes it was because my head ached. I threw my fist into the cave wall desperate to feel anything else besides the pain inside my head.  

 “What’s wrong are you having a headache again my love?” I turned to see Athena coming towards me and did my best to smile and nod indicating she was right. Her hands went to my head rubbing my temples and I put my arms around her waist. “I wish we could figure out what caused these headaches. I’m trying to figure it out.”  

 “I know you are and I appreciate you for it.” She smiled and then kissed me deeply. Her touch was different at first, I never felt like I wanted it but the longer she touched me I could think of nothing more. I fell into the kiss and grabbed her ass squeezing it tightly.  

 She looked around and raised her eyebrows. My hands pulled at her very loose dangling dress sure enough as my hands went up her hips, I knew she wasn’t wearing any underwear. She knew exactly what I was thinking and quickly unzipped my pants unleashing my erection to the world. I did a double take to ensure nobody was in the crevices of the cave and then grabbed her legs gently resting her body against the cave wall and putting myself inside her. Pumping quicker and faster than ever before each thrust harder with her gasps of excitement I could not resist. We continued like this until I could feel her orgasm all over my dick then I knew I could pump with a few last thrusts and came as well.  

 “I do love these surprise encounters” She laughed and before I could release her, I could feel her suckling at the mark she had given me. It was not as pleasurable but I knew she loved to do it so I stood there a bit longer allowing it. I wanted to tell her these encounters were not always what I wished from her but for my mate to know that I ached for something more would be heart-wrenching for her so I kept the words to myself and instead held onto her.  

 “Athena I really must go we are about to start sparring.” I pushed her gently away smiling at her and rubbing her cheek.  

 “Oh, you and that sparring it is not going to save us if the Mystic Moon pack wants what is ours. Surely you know this.”  

 “I don’t understand why they think everything we have is ours but we will be prepared to fight for it. Besides,” I motioned around the dark dismal cave dwellings lit only by candles. ‘It is not that we have much so I don’t know what they think we have for them.” I winked at her kissing her one more time quickly and realizing at least my headache had dimmed.  

 I assembled the men that I had begun training and threw myself into that. It was too difficult to think of anything else because the truth of it was, I didn’t know who I really was. The Red Crescent Moon Pack had found me and cared for me when I was near death. When I awoke there was no memory of where I’d been but from what I’d been told it was obvious I was a Rogue Wolf that had either denounced my pack or been forced to leave. As luck would have it, it was all fate because I discovered quickly that I felt something deeper for Athena and became her mate. It was still frustrating and it felt like there was a big block on my brain not allowing me to remember where I’d been or who I once was. However, nobody had tried to look for me and even if they had tried it wouldn’t matter the Red Cresent Moon pack was mine now and we were on the run from the very dangerous and powerful Mystic Moon Pack.  

 It was my idea to hide in the caves after trying many areas and getting too close to being caught by their many search parties. It was a perfect spot high in the middle of the mountain somehow, I knew of these caverns or at least knew where to look. Perhaps from my days of going rogue. The dampness of the caves and the height kept our scent at bay and there was water provided by the cave walls. The difficulty was food and supplies but we were able to send out small hunting parties to gather food and other things. Still, I was worried this wasn’t a stable choice and perhaps it would be better to reach out and come up with some kind of resolution with the Mystic Moon Pack however Athena who was the Alpha of this pack refused to compromise as she feared they would change the way of life for the pack. Still, I wasn’t sure what else was left for our pack to do.  

 I knew I just needed to be grateful to be alive and safe because it wasn’t the norm for this pack to take in outsiders. I wasn’t sure why they had but Athena being my mate sure did seem to help the situation. Still, even now I could feel eyes and whispers around me wishing me to go because I wasn’t a part of their way. That is why I continued to try and improve the pack by training and searching for resources in the cave walls. I was hoping somehow, we could find some kind of vegetation that was edible and would grow inside so our pack wasn’t constantly on the verge of starvation. I wasn’t sure if my efforts were really enough though because when I looked out the pack still didn’t want me here.