I grab a glass out of the cabinet in Sebastain’s kitchen and set it on the counter. I move to the fridge where I know I'd seen a chilled bottle of vodka. It was already ten pm, and Sebastain wasn’t back from his time with Camilla yet. God, why the hell did that irritate me so much? I shake my head at myself as I fill the cup halfway with cranberry juice before topping it off with vodka. I scoff and drink the whole thing in one go, wincing a little at the burn of vodka in the back of my throat. Seems like you definitely care a little. “Shut up.” I mutter at my wolf as I pour myself another drink. My entire body tenses up when I hear the front door opening. I listened, my hand clenched tightly around the glass. I hear Camilla telling Sebastain something quietly, too quiet for me to hear. Sebastian says something back, and then I hear heels clicking up the stairs to the bedrooms. My eyes dart up to glare at Sebastian as he comes into the kitchen, stopping his tracks when he sees
“I don’t know why the hell you’re crying.” I run my hand through my hair, frustrated as ever but trying to keep my tone in check. Eli and Ella were both standing up in their cribs, big alligator tears leaking from their eyes and they screamed for something. They did okay during the day when they were playing and interacting with people, but at night they had been whiney every night since we’d gotten home. “Mama!” Eli demands, his tiny face angry and sad looking. I sigh, and shake my head. I had said I didn’t know why they were crying, but it seemed tonight was no different than every other night. They wanted their mother. “She’s not here.” I say, stepping forward to pick him up and hold him against me. He calms down a little, but Ella gets jealous and starts screaming louder. I picked her up too, holding one against each shoulder as they sniffed and slowly started calming down a little. I hold them tightly against me, my hand supporting each one under the butt as they lay their head
Lucas and I end up talking for a few hours, and decide on a few things. We’re selling the remainder of the packs businesses, and we’ll compile all the money and reinvest in something low risk and hopefully profitable. We’ll lay low on that front for a while, shift to hunting for as much of our food as we can to cut costs, while we stack some money again. After a while we’ll go back to reinvesting in other businesses for even more cash flow. We’re going to go and personally talk to the pack members that left under May’s supervision, and see what I can do to try and convince them to come back. I know it’s probably going to take more than an apology, but I was willing to put in the work if they would let me. The rogue problem had settled down a little, killing them on site seemed to have the desired effect. But there were still a few encounters here and there, including one this morning with some young wolves playing too close to the border. The kids were fine, because Lucas had been
I sit at the kitchen island, eating a bowl of cereal a little nervously. Three days ago, Sebastian and I hooked up. Thankfully, Sebstain had gotten called away to another pack that was having a conflict the morning after we did the deed, so I hadn’t actually had to face the consequences of my actions yet. But I’d certainly had time to think about what we’d done. I don’t think I’d ever lost control like that. I had completely given into my desires, and given myself over to Sebastain in a very no return sort of way. I sigh and set my spoon in my bowl when I hear voices outside. I hear the front door opening, and Sebastain saying goodbye to a few men I’m assuming he’d been traveling with. “I’ll see you guys later.” I hear him telling them as he shuts the door. I hear him groaning, and I think he stops to stretch in the entryway. I let out a sigh of relief when I heard him going up the stairs instead of turning into the kitchen. Maybe I wouldn’t have to face him just yet. I hear
To say Sebastian and I’s flirty actions had spurred his mother on was an understatement. We had successfully spent the morning together, checking out a house that needed repairs. I wouldn’t exactly call it a romantic outing, but we were still together at least. We had gotten a little caught up with the mother living there, listening to her tell us how her house had gotten ransacked and her living room wall had gotten almost entirely destroyed. Apparently a pair of rouges had somehow gotten through the border and all the way to where the pack houses were. That had pissed Sebastain off; he’d actually excused himself to go yell at some guards. He came back though, looking like he felt slightly better. We had personally made sure plans were put into motion to fix her house, since she had two young children who were depending on her to provide for them, and I sympathized with that.When we were leaving her house, however, walking back to Sebastain’s to get lunch, we were ambushed by Se
…Luna?” I shake my head a little as I realize I’m being spoken to. Which makes sense, because I was the one zoning out in the middle of my conversation with one of the pack guards. I had kind of maybe escaped a little this morning. Sebastian and I went to our own rooms last night, and I don’t know about him, but I slept like shit. I couldn’t stop thinking about what we’d done, again. Flip flopping between how good it had felt, and how much I wanted to do it again, to feeling guilt for having fun while I was forcibly separated from my kids. I had finally given up around five am, heading downstairs dressed. I might as well get going on my day if my mind isn’t going to let me sleep. I’d glanced the back of Sebastian in the kitchen when I’d gone down, and panicked. I’d run out the front door and sneaked away before I could even think about how childish I was acting.I mean, come on, I am a grown woman with two kids already, and all I had done is slept with my mate. My manipulative, c
I returned back to Sebastain’s house after a couple hours of letting my wolf run around and hunt a little. I was mostly thinking of what I was supposed to do now while I let her stretch her legs. It made me feel... something that it seemed like my mate might be changing a little. After all, he was talking to May about wanting to cease his attacks on Killian. I didn’t figure everything out, but I came to the conclusion that I do in fact have feelings for Sebastain. I could keep denying it all I wanted, but every time I was around him it was like I went into a weird frenzy. I wanted his eyes on me and me alone, I wanted to talk to him, and touch him. When he spoke I listened, and when he moved I watched. There may still be feelings of hate in there for the way he ripped my kids away from me, but the passion I felt for him was starting to overshadow that. I also know I’m not quite over Killian yet. We went through a lot together, and literally have two children. I can’t let go of the
I’m sitting in the backyard area of Sebastain’s house, on one of the patio chairs he has around a table. He’d come out and tried talking to me a little, but honestly I just kind of wanted to be alone. I was feeling like a shitty mother, and the only thing that would make me feel better was hugging my kids, but I couldn’t do that right now. So I was just sitting out here, watching the wind blow the leaves in the trees and trying to stop my aching heart. I glance up when I hear a chair scooting out and someone sitting down. I had expected it to be Sebastain to be honest, so I’m very surprised when I look up and meet eyes with Camilla. “Hello.” I say cautiously. She gives me a tight smile. “I heard you threw Serena around.” She asks, her eyes scanning me over. I grimace, but nod. I’m shocked when her face spreads into a smile. “I bet that felt good.” She says. I laugh a little, and shrug. I couldn’t lie, it was kind of satisfying to show her how I really felt about her. “She deserve
I sigh heavily, letting another file I’d built for a new potential Alpha fall into the trash can. This one’s name had been Andrew Powell, a long residing pack member with good combat skills. When I'd asked around about him, all anyone had to say was good things, and everyone seemed to know him. With that in mind, I had eagerly pursued him, and of course, he was just as eager to accept the challenge.He’d started off great, doing his best to make a good impression. Then it was like something changed, and he let the mask drop. He started acting like he already had the Alpha title, parading around telling everyone what to do. So this morning, I’d brought him into what I was currently using as an office, and told him he was no longer being considered for the Alpha position. Of course he had gotten pissed, started telling me I wasn’t even qualified to make this kind of decision, and that maybe he would just take the title without my blessing. At least I knew now I was right in my choice.
Was this how Everly felt when I had been unfaithful in our marriage? Did she too feel this sadness, this envy, this anger?All I could think about was hearing those words from her, “I’m pregnant. And it’s not yours.” Over and over again like a broken record.Pure, unfiltered rage courses through my veins as I stomped out of our house, swinging the door open so hard it cracked against the wall behind it. I ignored the stares from the pack members I’d had outside with Ella and Eli, and didn't stop to answer their questions of where I was going and if I was okay. The twins would be fine with them for a little, maybe better than if they were left in my care.Because I was anything but okay. My woman was pregnant with another man’s child, and I had a very good feeling on who’s it was. I could tell by her hesitation, the tone in her voice. It was that bastard’s, Sebastain’s. The image of them screwing pissed me off, and made bile rise in my throat. I didn’t even want to think about them
“Hey, babe. How’d it go today?” Killian’s voice says in my ear through my phone. I swallowed thickly at his question, clenching the phone in my hand so tightly I was scared it was going to break. This was the part I was dreading. Killian and I were just reconnecting, and now I was about to tell him I was going to be gone for some undetermined amount of time. Not to mention… There was a baby growing in me right now. What if I was gone for months? I would show back up with a swollen belly. That would be nothing if not jarring. I mean, it’s not like I had cheated on him or anything. But I still felt guilty, horrible even, at the life growing inside of me. “It was okay.” I say, then fall silent. I know he’s waiting for me to tell him more, what I chose to do, because I hadn’t even told him my plan. It was kind of a last minute call. That, and I’m too weak. He had hugged me with such warmth before I left, kissing my cheek and telling me he couldn't wait for me to come home. “Uhm. I gues
Three days later…For some reason, Sebastian’s pack land looked different to me this time around. It seemed less foreign, for sure. I had lived there for a while, and spent plenty of time wandering around. Less intimidating, maybe, now that I knew there was no scheming man waiting around the corner. I walked behind Adam and a couple other committee members who had tagged along, a woman named Marlin, a man named Thomas. This morning, Adam and them had shown up at my door, and told me we would be travelling here today, to announce my decision to the pack and appoint a new Alpha if my choice was to leave. He told me I could have them fight me or each other, do a poll, whatever I felt was the best call to pick the new leader. Sebastian didn’t have an official Beta, so while that would normally be the first logical choice, unfortunately it wasn’t an option this time around. Strangely enough, none of them had asked what I was going to do yet today. Adam kept eyeing me, like he was doubti
Since returning to Kilian’s pack things had been… different. I was happy to be back with Killian and our kids. We were finally together, able to raise them side by side. I wasn’t having to look over my shoulder because I had to be on guard all the time, and Killian was paying me more attention than ever before. Apart from that, there were a few more serious things going on. For example, Sebastian’s pack was left without an Alpha. The committee members were breathing down my neck, telling me I either needed to relinquish my position over to someone else, or step up and take charge of the dozens of wolves looking for a leader. And don’t even get me started on Felix’s pack. They weren’t in my top list of priorities, I can't lie. Most of them had run off, only a few of the new members who had been forced into Felix’s pack had stuck around. Honestly, I had kind of been hoping Sebastain would show back up. I would be more than happy to hand his pack back over. I didn’t want it. I hadn’t
The ride back to Killian’s pack was mostly quiet; he’d ask me something every once in a while, about the twins or his pack. But I think we both had a lot on our minds. I know I did. The car had dropped us as close to the pack lands as it could, and we walked the rest of the way. “God, I’m glad to be back in these woods.” Killian said as we walked along. He had his face tilted to look at the tops of the trees, and was smiling a little for the first time in what felt like forever. It was kind of cute, the way he was acting like he was literally being recharged just by being in his woods again. “What are you smiling at?” He asks me, bumping his shoulder against mine a little. I shake my head, and look up at him. “Just… happy we both got to come back here together.” I say. “Did you miss this place at all?” He asks, looking down at me. I nod a little. “Yeah, I guess I did. Or really I missed the good memories I had attached to it.” He nods along. “Like… Do you remember that one nigh
A lot had happened since I had beaten both Sebastain and Felix. Most of which I wasn’t currently letting Killian in on. It’s not that I didn’t trust him or think he wasn’t capable anymore, but I knew he was hurt. And I knew only half of the pain he was feeling right now was physical. First of all, May reared her annoying ass in again. It makes sense, as she had been spotted previously hanging out with Felix, and had been acting suspiciously close with him before. But I was a bit surprised when his body was taken away by his pack members, and she surfaced through the crowd, like she’d been there the entire time. “Look who’s leveled up in the world.” she had sneered at me as she glared down at the unconscious Felix. She looked at me bitterly, like I had taken something from her. She had gone on about how this and this were supposed to happen, but now everything was ruined since I’d stuck my nose into everything. She said I was in the way, like always, and should’ve just learned my
I always thought Everly had such a pretty side profile. I remember when I first started getting to know her, I would stare at her across the courtyard at our college, just watching her read or talk to someone. I liked the curve of her lips, the way her lashes brush the tops of her cheeks when she blinked.That’s what I was thinking about as I watched her talk to the doctor who had been taking care of me for the past couple of days. I was being released. My injuries weren’t all the way healed, but I was good enough. The doctor had actually said that. I wasn’t upset about it or anything, I was ready to get out of here as it was. I was still in Sebastain’s pack. Or I guess, Everly’s pack. We hadn’t actually talked too much about that little fact yet. I’d tried to bring it up a couple times, to find out what exactly happened. I knew the outcome of everything, but I still felt like I was missing a lot of important details. But whenever I did bring it up, suddenly Everly had to pee so
Failure. You lost. Pathetic. You don’t deserve to be Alpha. These words are the only ones that fill my head as someone carried my unconscious body like a sack of potatoes. I didn’t know who it was, if they were taking me to finish me off or help me, but I didn’t care. I can’t believe I lost. My mind can’t quite put everything that happened in order, not yet at least. I remember the beginning of the fight, flashes of Everly’s anxious face watching me get my ass kicked. I remember… getting knocked down. Lots of yelling. But I’m not sure why… I couldn’t pick out what they had been saying. Sounded like a woman, calling someone a monster. But who would be yelling that, and why? And I remember opening my eyes for a moment, and seeing Everly kneeling above me, blood on her chin, and her eyes so, so worried for me. Why was there blood on her chin? “...you gotta open your eyes buddy.” Whoever that is sounds familiar. Lucas? He was the only one who would call me something like “buddy.”