…Luna?” I shake my head a little as I realize I’m being spoken to. Which makes sense, because I was the one zoning out in the middle of my conversation with one of the pack guards. I had kind of maybe escaped a little this morning. Sebastian and I went to our own rooms last night, and I don’t know about him, but I slept like shit. I couldn’t stop thinking about what we’d done, again. Flip flopping between how good it had felt, and how much I wanted to do it again, to feeling guilt for having fun while I was forcibly separated from my kids. I had finally given up around five am, heading downstairs dressed. I might as well get going on my day if my mind isn’t going to let me sleep. I’d glanced the back of Sebastian in the kitchen when I’d gone down, and panicked. I’d run out the front door and sneaked away before I could even think about how childish I was acting.I mean, come on, I am a grown woman with two kids already, and all I had done is slept with my mate. My manipulative, c
I returned back to Sebastain’s house after a couple hours of letting my wolf run around and hunt a little. I was mostly thinking of what I was supposed to do now while I let her stretch her legs. It made me feel... something that it seemed like my mate might be changing a little. After all, he was talking to May about wanting to cease his attacks on Killian. I didn’t figure everything out, but I came to the conclusion that I do in fact have feelings for Sebastain. I could keep denying it all I wanted, but every time I was around him it was like I went into a weird frenzy. I wanted his eyes on me and me alone, I wanted to talk to him, and touch him. When he spoke I listened, and when he moved I watched. There may still be feelings of hate in there for the way he ripped my kids away from me, but the passion I felt for him was starting to overshadow that. I also know I’m not quite over Killian yet. We went through a lot together, and literally have two children. I can’t let go of the
I’m sitting in the backyard area of Sebastain’s house, on one of the patio chairs he has around a table. He’d come out and tried talking to me a little, but honestly I just kind of wanted to be alone. I was feeling like a shitty mother, and the only thing that would make me feel better was hugging my kids, but I couldn’t do that right now. So I was just sitting out here, watching the wind blow the leaves in the trees and trying to stop my aching heart. I glance up when I hear a chair scooting out and someone sitting down. I had expected it to be Sebastain to be honest, so I’m very surprised when I look up and meet eyes with Camilla. “Hello.” I say cautiously. She gives me a tight smile. “I heard you threw Serena around.” She asks, her eyes scanning me over. I grimace, but nod. I’m shocked when her face spreads into a smile. “I bet that felt good.” She says. I laugh a little, and shrug. I couldn’t lie, it was kind of satisfying to show her how I really felt about her. “She deserve
The week after the incident with Serena was weirdly quiet. Every morning I half expected to wake up with gum stuck in my hair or something, and I’d always check my surroundings when I approached the staircase. Didn’t want to end up getting pushed down by the bitter mother in law like I was in a cheesy day time TV show. Sebastian hung around me a lot, and I can’t lie, I kind of liked it. But he also was still going on dates with Camilla, which was bothering me more and more each day. If he didn’t plan on being with her anyways, why was he still hanging around her? He had told his mother he had no interest in her, but for some reason he was still entertaining her. One morning, I was sitting at the kitchen island, eating a bagel. Sebastian comes down the stairs and joins me, ruffling my hair a little as he passes by me to the fridge. “I have a surprise for you today.” He says to me. I turn around to look at him and raise a brow. He smiles a little and moves to sit beside me with a
I am more than aware I am losing Everly every day she spends with Sebastain. There was a part of me that hoped she would wait for me when I realized she was the one who would be staying behind, that the things he had done for would overpower the pull of the mate bond. But there was a bigger part of me that knew from the start it would be impossible for her to stay completely away from him, especially considering the whole reason he was keeping her here was to make sure he got an heir one day. There was no way he wasn’t laying it on thick with her to try and get back into her good graces.I could see it when I approached the pair with the twins in my arms. She looked guilty, and had taken a step away from Sebastain like she had been caught doing something. And the way he kissed her forehead when he was leaving? She hadn’t even tried to stop him or move away. It was hard to be mad about my assumptions, since I’d been the one to actually cheat when we were still together. I had to rem
“How was your day?” I glance up at Sebastian as he sets a cup of tea in front of where I sit at the table in the back area of his house.It was seven in the evening now, Killian and the twins had left a couple hours ago. Not before he reminded me plenty of times how we were meant to be together, and to not forget about what we have while he works to get me back.I had walked back to Sebastain’s slowly and quietly, just thinking about everything Killian had said to me today. “Oh… it was good.” I say carefully. I wasn’t actually with either man, but I still felt like I was two timing both of them. I definitely had feelings for both, and it came through when I was interacting with them. I couldn’t help it. “It was nice seeing the twins.” I add. “Yeah? Must have been hard to send them off.” He says as he sits next to me with his own cup of coffee. I roll my eyes at his obvious attempt to entice me into keeping them here with me. If the day ever came where I felt comfortable leaving my
The day it would be decided who would be staying with Sebastain and becoming his Luna was tomorrow. It had been three days since Sebastain and I had our little conversation, and I gotta be honest, it was becoming more and more clear to me I had upset him more than he’d let on.I hadn’t seen him at all the day after; apparently he’d been busy with committee work all day, and would be for the following days. Or so he said. I believed him at first, since the same members who had questioned my motives behind wanting Sebastain now were starting to pop back up. I had seen Serena leading them somewhere when they’d first arrived, I’m assuming to the guests' houses. She had been smiling and chatting them all up, ever in schmooze mode.But on the second night, I had left my room to use the bathroom around eleven o’clock. I hadn’t been noticed, but I had seen Sebastain and Camilla leaving, both wearing nice clothes, and their arms were hooked together. I still remember how it had felt when my
“I just… need more time.” Everly says to me, a worried look on her face. I can feel the burn of rejection in my throat, but I try to remind myself she had said she liked me. This wasn’t like before, when she straight up picked someone else over me. And she wasn’t asking to move into her own place like she had last time I’d lost my cool on her. I just kept trying to tell myself that these were all good signs. “Yeah, sure.” I stood up, feeling the need to leave before I pushed her too hard, or said something I would regret later like I always seemed to. I could feel the toxic part of my brain getting pissed, wanting to grab her and demand to know why she wouldn’t just admit she loved me. Doing that would erase all the work I’d been putting in to convince her I’m not a monster since she’s been with me this go around.I head back into the house, sighing heavily once I’m out of earshot of Everly. “Hey, everything good?” I glance up as Camilla comes out of the living room then, leaning ag