I’m sitting in the backyard area of Sebastain’s house, on one of the patio chairs he has around a table. He’d come out and tried talking to me a little, but honestly I just kind of wanted to be alone. I was feeling like a shitty mother, and the only thing that would make me feel better was hugging my kids, but I couldn’t do that right now. So I was just sitting out here, watching the wind blow the leaves in the trees and trying to stop my aching heart. I glance up when I hear a chair scooting out and someone sitting down. I had expected it to be Sebastain to be honest, so I’m very surprised when I look up and meet eyes with Camilla. “Hello.” I say cautiously. She gives me a tight smile. “I heard you threw Serena around.” She asks, her eyes scanning me over. I grimace, but nod. I’m shocked when her face spreads into a smile. “I bet that felt good.” She says. I laugh a little, and shrug. I couldn’t lie, it was kind of satisfying to show her how I really felt about her. “She deserve
The week after the incident with Serena was weirdly quiet. Every morning I half expected to wake up with gum stuck in my hair or something, and I’d always check my surroundings when I approached the staircase. Didn’t want to end up getting pushed down by the bitter mother in law like I was in a cheesy day time TV show. Sebastian hung around me a lot, and I can’t lie, I kind of liked it. But he also was still going on dates with Camilla, which was bothering me more and more each day. If he didn’t plan on being with her anyways, why was he still hanging around her? He had told his mother he had no interest in her, but for some reason he was still entertaining her. One morning, I was sitting at the kitchen island, eating a bagel. Sebastian comes down the stairs and joins me, ruffling my hair a little as he passes by me to the fridge. “I have a surprise for you today.” He says to me. I turn around to look at him and raise a brow. He smiles a little and moves to sit beside me with a
I am more than aware I am losing Everly every day she spends with Sebastain. There was a part of me that hoped she would wait for me when I realized she was the one who would be staying behind, that the things he had done for would overpower the pull of the mate bond. But there was a bigger part of me that knew from the start it would be impossible for her to stay completely away from him, especially considering the whole reason he was keeping her here was to make sure he got an heir one day. There was no way he wasn’t laying it on thick with her to try and get back into her good graces.I could see it when I approached the pair with the twins in my arms. She looked guilty, and had taken a step away from Sebastain like she had been caught doing something. And the way he kissed her forehead when he was leaving? She hadn’t even tried to stop him or move away. It was hard to be mad about my assumptions, since I’d been the one to actually cheat when we were still together. I had to rem
“How was your day?” I glance up at Sebastian as he sets a cup of tea in front of where I sit at the table in the back area of his house.It was seven in the evening now, Killian and the twins had left a couple hours ago. Not before he reminded me plenty of times how we were meant to be together, and to not forget about what we have while he works to get me back.I had walked back to Sebastain’s slowly and quietly, just thinking about everything Killian had said to me today. “Oh… it was good.” I say carefully. I wasn’t actually with either man, but I still felt like I was two timing both of them. I definitely had feelings for both, and it came through when I was interacting with them. I couldn’t help it. “It was nice seeing the twins.” I add. “Yeah? Must have been hard to send them off.” He says as he sits next to me with his own cup of coffee. I roll my eyes at his obvious attempt to entice me into keeping them here with me. If the day ever came where I felt comfortable leaving my
The day it would be decided who would be staying with Sebastain and becoming his Luna was tomorrow. It had been three days since Sebastain and I had our little conversation, and I gotta be honest, it was becoming more and more clear to me I had upset him more than he’d let on.I hadn’t seen him at all the day after; apparently he’d been busy with committee work all day, and would be for the following days. Or so he said. I believed him at first, since the same members who had questioned my motives behind wanting Sebastain now were starting to pop back up. I had seen Serena leading them somewhere when they’d first arrived, I’m assuming to the guests' houses. She had been smiling and chatting them all up, ever in schmooze mode.But on the second night, I had left my room to use the bathroom around eleven o’clock. I hadn’t been noticed, but I had seen Sebastain and Camilla leaving, both wearing nice clothes, and their arms were hooked together. I still remember how it had felt when my
“I just… need more time.” Everly says to me, a worried look on her face. I can feel the burn of rejection in my throat, but I try to remind myself she had said she liked me. This wasn’t like before, when she straight up picked someone else over me. And she wasn’t asking to move into her own place like she had last time I’d lost my cool on her. I just kept trying to tell myself that these were all good signs. “Yeah, sure.” I stood up, feeling the need to leave before I pushed her too hard, or said something I would regret later like I always seemed to. I could feel the toxic part of my brain getting pissed, wanting to grab her and demand to know why she wouldn’t just admit she loved me. Doing that would erase all the work I’d been putting in to convince her I’m not a monster since she’s been with me this go around.I head back into the house, sighing heavily once I’m out of earshot of Everly. “Hey, everything good?” I glance up as Camilla comes out of the living room then, leaning ag
That night, I get dressed in the overly fancy getup my mother had given me to wear, and leave my room to get Camilla from hers. I glance longingly at Everly’s closed bedroom door as I knock lightly on Camilla’s. I wish I was taking Everly. Hell, I wish I wasn’t going at all. I wish we were going on a walk together, or curled up on the couch watching a movie. Even though I don’t think she would do that with me. A man can dream. “Evening.” I refocus as Camilla opens her door. She was wearing a skin tight shimmery blue dress that dipped dangerously low in the front. I shook my head a little at my mother’s obvious tactics. I wonder if other sons had to deal with stuff like this.“You ready?” I ask, looking her in the eye, mostly so I wouldn’t stare at her chest. She nods, and I hold out my arm for her. My mother has her in very high heels, and the last time we’d spent some time together, she told me never used to wear them so she was having a hard time walking these days. Even now I coul
The night ended up not being that bad. Adam and my mom “snuck” off somewhere about halfway through our little party, and the rest of us started playing poker. The more drunk we got, the more comfortable we got, and we ended up playing strip poker.One of the guys, Alan, had scars all over his body, which I saw when he was forced to remove his shirt. I ended up talking to him for almost four hours, drinking and asking him questions. Guys like Alan were my preferred method of advice seeking; leaders who have been through it, who have worked hard and bled for their pack. Camilla had gotten sucked into a conversation about her family's pack with the other committee members. I had tuned in when I realized she was telling them about projects she had been working on when she was forced to leave, and I started to wonder again about why Camilla was here. It sounded like she had plenty going for her back home.But that night, as I listened to her talking with passion about the cars she had b
“Killian?! Wake up!” I’m hovering over Killian now, gently holding either side of his face. There’s blood all over, his nose is definitely broken, and his eyes are swollen shut. Serena still hasn’t shut up about what a monster I am in the background, even though Sebastain had already been dragged off by a couple of his pack members. I wish she would’ve gone with him, because she was only adding to the chaos. A couple committee members were holding her back by the arms as she yelled at me what a manipulative piece of shit I was, and that if her son died, I was the reason. Adam was one of the guys holding her, and I could tell by the look on his face, he had no idea what to do right now.“Please.” I lean down to Killian’s ear, kissing it softly. My heart races in my chest when I hear him groan, and his head rolls to the side a little. That was proof, he was alive, and that’s all I needed right now.“Luna, we must help him.” I look up to the voice talking to me, my eyes wide and franti
“Ladies and Gentlemen!” I blink a little, trying to pull myself out of the whirlwind of thoughts going on inside my mind right now as Serena starts speaking to the gathered packs. “Today, we are witnessing the challenge of two Alphas-”I hear a voice clearing, and look up to Felix, who is standing in between Killian and Sebastain. Serena sighs, and rolls her eyes. “Two Alphas and a… him.” She waves her hand dismissively at Felix, but he just grins that evil smile of his and waves at the crowd. “For the right to rule over all attending packs.” I notice she left out the real reason this challenge was even happening, to see who would have me as their Luna. She was one of the ones I’d heard him talking shit about me to, so I don’t know why she even cared. She already knew how he really felt, right? I look up then at Sebastian, who is already looking at me. His dark gaze stares into mine, and I swallow thickly. He’s mouthing something at me, something I can’t quite make out. I tilt my h
“You’ll be over here, so you can see.” I nod at the pack member who led me through the crowd of buzzing people, all gathered to watch the challenge ceremony that was set to start in thirty minutes. All the normal pack members were standing in a loose circle in the middle of Sebastain’s pack lands, while myself, Camilla, and the committee members sat at the front in chairs they’d placed for us. Camilla and I were the only ones actually sitting, side by side now. The rest of the committee members were standing off to the side a little, talking amongst themselves.“How was your night?” I ask her as we both watch the pack members interacting, all of them excited for the fast approaching fight. I could practically feel the energy buzzing in the air. I glance at her, and notice her chewing on her lip a little, instead of grinning ear to ear like I thought she would be.“What’s wrong? What happened?” I ask. I had been expecting her to immediately start gushing about hooking up with Lucas,
I walk back to Sebastain’s place, my arms crossed and my mind whirring with thoughts of what I had just done. I definitely should not have just hooked up with Killian. But it’s like I couldn’t help myself. Hearing Sebastain call me simple, laugh at me with his mom and dumb committee members like I was some immature little girl, it just made me so mad. I wanted to get back at him, and even though I didn’t plan on running to him and rubbing it in his face, I still felt a weird sense of satisfaction from what I’d just done. I walk in the front door, heading upstairs to my room, rather than heading back to the party still going on in the backyard. I hadn’t really been in the party mood before, and I definitely wasn't now. I sigh, and walk to my bed, collapsing onto it with a heavy sigh. These past couple days have been draining as hell. My body and my mind are tired of working overtime, and I can feel it really sinking in as I lay there in the quiet dark of my room.I wish everything
Nothing had ever felt as right as holding Everly in my arms at that moment. Feeling her hot breath on my neck as I grinded my length into her, her fingers clutching at my shoulders as she gasped and moaned my name. I hadn’t gotten to be with her like this in way too long, and while it hadn’t been the thing I missed the most about her, I can't lie and say I didn’t crave this a little. “Fuck I missed you.” I groan into her ear as I grab her tightly under the ass, her back hitting the tree I had her pinned against with every thrust inside of her. “You smell so good…” I mutter as I bury my face in her collarbone and kiss her warm, soft skin. My mind was blank, thinking only of how good it felt to be buried inside her again, her wetness leaking out onto me with every motion. I could feel her thighs clenching, the heat of her body radiating off her. Why did I ever give this up? Why did I ever think May was better than her? “Killian… I’m going to…” she gasps, her grip on me tightening eve
I walked quickly through the pack grounds, towards where I knew Sebastain and the other committee members were probably drinking whiskey worth more than my left kidney. No way they would be caught drinking cans of seltzer with lowly common pack members. Sure enough, the lights were on in the guest house Adam was staying in, and laughter was spilling out of the slightly cracked windows. I guess since Adam was the head of the committee, they always came to his house. I walk onto the porch about to enter, but stop with my hand on the knob when I hear Serena saying my name. “There’s no way Everly has it in her to run a pack of this size efficiently. I don’t know why you keep entertaining this.” She says in a snotty tone. I can feel irritation rising in my chest, but think to myself, Sebastian will stand up for me. He won’t let his mother talk about me like that when I’m not even in the room to defend myself. “Just because she’s a little simple doesn’t mean she won’t do a fine job.” I
As it turned out, the packs were actually pretty good at getting along. I suspect it had something to do with the ridiculous amount of alcohol that was being consumed by every single person here tonight.Both Killian and Sebastain had brought home giant sized deer for us to cook that night, so we ended up making a bonfire thirty or so feet away from Sebastain’s house. The deer had been skinned and sliced, and now you could grab a piece, a skewer, and roast your meat over the fire. When everyone had first shown up, things had been very tense. It was kind of like a middle school prom, where the boys sit on one side and the girls sit on the other. Except the split was between the two groups of wolves. Ashton had actually been the one to break the tension a little, and I had a mental note to send him a bottle of whiskey or something after, because without him, I’m not sure what would’ve happened. Him and his group of ducklings had shown up a bit later than everyone else, but only beca
That night, we decide to have a party with both Sebastian and Killians pack. I had gone over to the house the committee members were staying in with Sebastain to discuss Felix’s challenge. They were are understandably shocked, and a little confused as to why Sebastain even accepted the challenge. They talked for way too long about it, but in the end, Sebastian said he couldn’t back out now even if he wanted to. The challenge had been laid out, and he had accepted of his own free will. The only way out was submission or victory. I again found myself worrying about who Felix really was as the committee members expressed their concern over Sebastain fighting him. Where did this guy come from? Why did he get kicked out his pack? Why did Serena and all the other committee members seem so apprehensive about Sebastain going up against him? What did they know that I didn’t? Lucas and Camilla had been the ones to suggest it (wonder why) and at first I’d been kind of against it. It had seemed
“We’ll need to move the ceremony outside, with the rogues joining in now there won’t be enough room outside.” I tell one of Sebastain’s pack members as I walk to the meeting hall with them at my side. They nod, and break away from me to hurry off with their new instructions. I don’t know how his pack had learned about the new challenger so quickly, considering it'd happened all of an hour ago. But as soon as I’d walked out of Sebastain’s house, the guards had immediately approached me, asking if it was true that Sebastain had been challenged by the rogue King. Then when I had started walking to the meeting hall to see if any of the committee members were lingering around, one of the event organizing pack members had approached, asking if the space we had planned to use for the ceremony would still work. They were who I was talking and walking with now.I hadn’t been able to find Sebastain again, I’m assuming he’d probably turned into a wolf and was tearing through his land somewhere,