Chapter Fifty-Four-Killian's POV

“I don’t know why the hell you’re crying.” I run my hand through my hair, frustrated as ever but trying to keep my tone in check. Eli and Ella were both standing up in their cribs, big alligator tears leaking from their eyes and they screamed for something. They did okay during the day when they were playing and interacting with people, but at night they had been whiney every night since we’d gotten home.

“Mama!” Eli demands, his tiny face angry and sad looking. I sigh, and shake my head. I had said I didn’t know why they were crying, but it seemed tonight was no different than every other night. They wanted their mother.

“She’s not here.” I say, stepping forward to pick him up and hold him against me. He calms down a little, but Ella gets jealous and starts screaming louder. I picked her up too, holding one against each shoulder as they sniffed and slowly started calming down a little. I hold them tightly against me, my hand supporting each one under the butt as they lay their head