“Shit,” I moaned as I heard my phone ringing. I opened my eyes. Nabuhay ang dugo ko, like I was obliged to sing “The National Manthem” by Little Mix. “Don’t break your promise. Thou shall be faithful and honest.” Damn. If a doctor told me that I only have thirty-two seconds in my life, I would definitely listen to this perfect song.
“Yes, hello. What do you need in the morning?” I answered the phone without checking who called me but instead of a furious replied, I received a sexy chuckle.
“Blessed, it is already afternoon. You have classes by fifteenth.” I rolled my eyes after hearing my acting Mom’s command.
I groaned. “Can I not not not come to class, G?”
“Blessed, your professor told me that you already ditch two meetings. Dalawa na lang at FA ka na. Gusto mo bang mag-aral na naman for another year instead of graduating this sem? Get up, baby!” I could feel her hype towards me. George was my sub-guardian so her number was the one that was called perhaps. Wala naman kasi si Dad dito and since kilala ni Dad ang mga kaibigan ko mostly, he let that happened.
“I want to sleep more. We drank last night,” I excused.
“Oshlov is a heavy drinker and how does it happen that she is here with me on my break?” she sarcastically asked.
“Fudge, Oshlov. How the hell a demon doesn’t burn in a Catholic school?” I murmured, hoping Oshi heard that. Well, of course, I was on a loud speak.
“Fudge you too. You curse a lot. Father will kick you out of here,” then Oshlov laughed, George too and the guys’ voice. “Hurry up. Baka ma-late tayo,” she shouted.
I TSK-ED and rolled my eyes when I saw my friends laughing as they saw me walking towards them. “Paano ako male-late kung wala akong klase ngayon?”
“Sinong tanga ang hindi tumitingin sa sariling registration form?” Oshlov laughed while clapping her hands slowly. “Happy first day of no class class, Bitch—ow!” She was cut when I threw the thing on my hand to her.
“Careful, Blessed. That’s your phone,” George calmly warned me but I just gave them a glare.
“I don’t freaking care. You all tricked me.” Imbis na gatungan pa, nagtawanan na lang sila pati na rin si Stephen at Rashen na nasa kabilang side ng table.
“Come. Have you eaten a meal already? I will order for you,” George offerred and I just nodded, still annoyed at Oshlov’s face. So she stood and looked for my food. Naiwan kaming apat sa table nina Oshlov, Stephen, at Rashen.
“Where are the others?”
“They’re all in class, maybe, maybe not.” Rashen just shrugged.
I raised a brow. “And how `bout the two of you?”
“I did all the effort to have the same scheds like George. Break ko rin ngayon,” Rashen answered.
“I have the responsibilities as a best bud and to Tito Rayden so I also got the same scheds as them,” so did Stephen while giving me a relax smile.
“Hindi ba kayo nahihirapan?” I pouted. “You already are working at Tito Rayden’s firm tapos last and crucial year niyo na.” I turned to Rashen. “Full-time boyfriend ka pa kay George,” I added.
“Bakit ako lang? Full-time boyfriend din `tong si Pen, low key nga lang,” then he laughed and that made Stephen cough.
I wrinkled my nose. “Hindi ka nagsasabi. May girlfriend ka na?” I pursed my lips, trying to tease him as if I am a mother of a boy.
“H-hindi. W-wala ah!” he replied on a low voice. The usual Stephen Olivar. Maloko naman siya kapag night out and they said, he was really fun but I didn’t see most of it. Tuwing nakikita ko siya, may hold-back siya sa pagiging wild. Mukha naman siyang desente the way he moves, stares, and speaks. Also to notice, Stephen was a good-looking guy. Hooded eyelids suited his tantalizing brown eyes and his turned-up nose complemented his thin lips which he would lick from time to time. Idagdag mo pa na maganda ang built ng katawan niya. No efforts for gym yet he got the body a girl will drool for, though not me.
“Staring game ba `yan?”
“Hindi ko alam, Babe.”
Mabilis akong napaiwas ng tingin kay Stephen nang marinig ko ang tawanan nina Rashen at George na nakabalik na pala. Oshlov was looking at me seriously when I turned to her. My eyes asked her what’s wrong and she rolled hers precious eyeballs.
“Smells something fishy. Do you like Stephen t—I mean do you like Stephen?” Rashen asked which made me laugh.
“What? I was just observing things. I did not mean to stare at him. lol,” I responded and the couple just shrugged. Kinuha ko na ang pagkain na in-order ni George for me.
“Pesto pizza, Puttanesca and fresh juice. Are those fine, Blessed?” George asked for assurance so I smiled and thanked her. Tahimik akong kumain nang biglang nag-tap si Oshlov ng table dahilan para mapatingin ako sa kanya habang subo-subo ang last bite ng pizza.
“Your crush is here, Bitch.” I looked around to check Cydeo. Pasimpleng lingon na akala mo ay walang paki pero nang makita ko siya, my eyes gazed at him for a couple of minutes. Naghahanap sila ng food sa counters kasama ang friends niya on their yellow uniform. Damn, that handsome man. How could I not like him? Fudge this. “You look like a Puttanesca with the spices. Couz, you’re red!” Oshlov laughed, same as George. Napayuko na lang ulit ako at nag-focus sa pagkain.
“You really like him, eh?” George said in disbelief. “I cannot digest it, Blessed. How? I mean, no insult but you two live in different lifestyle,” she stated.
“Cydeo sits in a fancy couch and Ibiza rocks a messed up matress,” Oshlov intervened and laughed.
Bago ko pa maitarak sa ngala-ngala niya ang tinidor na hawak ko, nagsalita na agad si Rashen. “Babe, it’s almost two. We have classes,” paalala niya.
“Okay. Let’s go. Bye, friends!” George kissed me and Oshlov while Stephen and Rashen gave us a high-five.
Naiwan kami ni Oshlov sa table at nakita ko siyang palingon-lingon habang tinatapos ang pagkain ko. Napakunot-noo ako nang bigla niya akong tinignan nang masama kaya sinamaan ko rin siya ng tingin while sipping the last string of pasta in my mouth. “What’s wrong?”
“Cydeo is looking for a table.” My eyes widened and I immediately looked for him but disappointment crossed my eyes when I see them. “The thing is, he is with Mezka,” Oshlov added in a sad voice. I mentally rolled my eyes because I could no longer mess the table I just fixed. Iniurong ko na sa gilid ang plate ko at hihingin kay Oshlov ang phone na ibinato ko pero bigla siyang tumayo at nagsalita.
“Hi, Cydeo! Looking for seats? We have two here,” she stated with a smile. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Hoy, babae, nilalaglag mo ba ako? Umupo na ulit siya at bumulong sa `kin. “Pagkakataon mo na ito,” Oshlov smiled. Lumipat siya sa tabi ko para sa harap namin sina Cydeo at Mezka. Cydeo was in front of me. Shit.
Umupo nga sila sa harap namin at inilapag ang tray at gamit nila. Cydeo spoke, “Thank you?” He stopped. Hindi niya yata alam ang pangalan ni Oshlov. Sasagot na sana ako pero naunang magsalita ang girlfriend niya.
“By, she’s Oshlov,” she said, and I mocked her sweet high-pitch voice in my head.
“Ow. You know my name!” Oshlov was amused.
“Yes?” Mezka was unsure. “Same block kami ni Olivia. Friend niyo siya, `di ba? Magka-group kasi kami ngayon sa isang course. Minsan, napapansin ko yung notebook niya na may picture at names niyo tapos you’re noticeable talaga,” she explained. Olivia had such notebook? Napalingon ako kay Oshlov na napatango na lang na parang wala sa sarili at nilalaro ang straw ng shake niya.
“And you are...” Naningkit lalo ang monolid niyang mga mata na parang hinihintay akong magsalita.
My mouth was already half-opened to answer her when Cydeo spoke. “She is Ibiza Blessed Bartolome.” I saw him licked his lower lip which made me do the same thing unconsciously. Napatitig na rin ako sa mga mata niya na sa 'kin din nakapako.
Fudge! He knew my name! Fulname!
"Oh, you know her name!" Oshlov declared in a sarcastic way, na parang may ipinapahiwatig siya.Cydeo shrugged. "Yes. Madalas siyang usapan sa College of Commerce, specifically my blockmates, kaya hindi ko rin maiwasang makinig. Sorry if that offended you," he reasoned out. His voice made my knees weak. It was husky baritone which got me distracted. Napatingin ulit ako sa labi niya sabay balik sa mga mata niya. Damn, I was seeing an angel.Mezka giggled which caught my attention. "You're a campus crush pala. Before naririnig ko na yata ang names mo sa guy friends ko sa student council. You're a chic daw and now that I see you na, I proved that surreal. You are gorgeous nga talaga," she said with an excited voice. Nailang ako sa compliment na binigay niya kaya hindi ko alam kung paanong ngiti ang gagawin ko. "Anyway, paniguradong k
I excused myself from my friends who were all drunk and wasted. I felt like my urinary bladder would explode any moment kaya naman patakbo na ang lakad ko at nilalampasan ang mga nagsasayawan sa buong bar.Nakakabingi, magulo, siksikan, mausok, amoy-alak at maraming 'di kaaya-ayang pangyayari ang nasa loob ng lugar na tinuturing kong tambayan. This was where I felt comfortable. Dito ko nailalabas kung sino talaga ako.Having nasty bad things around you was not an issue, it was how you let it affect you and how you would deal with it. Ang hirap kasi sa tao, masyadong ma-issue at judgmental. They kept on looking what's outside. Minsan kung sino pa yung mukhang santo, sila pa yung hindi mo aasahang demonyo. Yeah, right. Been there, done that.Napabuga ako ng hininga nang mailabas ko
"What's the use of being here if you're on your ear piece, Ibiza?" Nabigla ako nang tanggalin ni Oshlov ang headset ko dahilan para mapataas ang tingin ko sa kanya, technically, sa lahat ng tao sa table. There were all looking at me."What?" I asked and looked at her. "What?" I repeated and immediately shifted the tab. Pinapanuod ko ang isang event kung saan naglalakad sa runway si Cydeo pero nang silipin 'yon ni Oshlov, nasa music na 'to kung saan nagpe-play ang "Only You" by Little Mix.Nakita ko ang pagdududa sa mga mata ng demonyo kong pinsan kaya inagaw niya ang left ear piece ko since she was on my right. Pinakinggan niya rin 'to na para bang kahina-hinala ang pinakikinggan kong kanta.Bago pa mag-chorus ay tinanggal niya na rin 'yon at ibinalibag sa 'kin na hindi ko alam k
Two days of having a secret-on relationship with Cydeo felt exciting. Para kaming mga bata na nagre-rebelde sa mga tao. Us against the world but in reality, it was me against Mezka lang talaga.Naging maganda naman ang takbo ng mga pag-uusap namin ni Cydeo. Habang tumatagal, mas nakikilala ko siya. I was starting to unlike him now. Nakikita ko yung flaws at imperfections niya na agad kong tinanggap because all of them were reasonable and that made him, normal and reachable. With that though, hindi ko na siya gusto kasi unti-unti nang nagiging totoo yung nararamdaman konglove.I sighed after closing the laptop I just used a while ago. Naiayos ko na ang orders at natanggap ko na ang mga bayad. Malamang sa malamang, asikasuhin ko na rin ang pagpapadala ng mga natirang branded bags sa stock ko. Ayaw ko ng nagtatambak ng
I whimpered as I felt someone cuddling me. Dinama ko ang init ng katawan nito habang nakangiti at hindi pa rin dumidilat. Pilit kong inalala ang mga nangyari kagabi hanggang sa matauhan ako.My eyes widened when I realized that the man beside me was Cydeo. Susubukan ko sanang gumalaw pero napatigil ako nang maisip kong, bakit hindi ko sulitin ang oras na yakap niya ako?I reached my phone on the bed side table. I smiled at the camera habang nakayakap siya sa 'kin at tulog na tulog.Gotcha!We already had a picture together on bed. I smirked with that thought and put back my phone on the table.Pumikit ulit ako nang mas humigpit ang yakap niya sa 'kin. I was wondering if Mezka and Cydeo already did that thing but Cydeo was respectful and Mezka was conservative.
Fabrics were too fancy to the point that aesthetic cool lights reflected in every swift of the models' bodies. People who will walk in the show were all wearing heavy and pop makeups, even their bodies had highlighters that will make them glow on stage.As a club goer, I suited myself while grooving with the beat. The ambient sounds will give you a clue to what event you had entered, futuristic-water fantasy theme. I looked around and the runway amused me. The designs weren't just made of crepe papers, celophane or home linings that everyone used to see in amateur modelling shows. I nodded when I realized something, hindi basta-basta ang event na 'to. Maybe that was the reason why Cydeo really wanted to be part and featured in this event. He wouldn't be here if this will not give any credits to what he is aiming for. Kaya nga hindi na rin ako nagdalawang isip na suportahan siya at
Stephen introduced us to a new bar. Nagkaroon daw kasi doon sa bar before ng problema and he said that this one was more reliable and convenient. He was also the friend of the owner kaya iyon mismo ang nag-tour sa 'min. Kabubukas lang nito at malakas ang place. Maganda ang design, hindi dragging. Hindi mukhang pang lasing na agad ang ambience.We sat at the couches. Oo, marami. Bale apat na semi circle, nakapaikot ito sa isang oblong wooden table. Sa left side ako, katabi ko sa kaliwa si Cydeo at katabi ko naman sa kanan si George at Rashen na nakaupo sa kabilang couch. Sa tapat namin, si Olivia at Rasda. Sa kabilang couch naman, si Connor at Stephen. Stephen and Connor also ordered for our drinks though Cydeo already said that he will handle the expenses tonight.Mabilis ang service nila. Naihatid nga sa 'min kaagad ang vodkas, b
I let the noise of the crackers in my mouth filled the dull mood of the night which complemented a strong canned liquors that I was drinking. I looked at the package and smirked. Oh, this never failed me. "The best," I even murmured as if I was a commercial model of a certain brand of potato chips.I immediately smiled sweetly when I saw Rashen running towards me. Pansin ko rin ang pagmamadali niya. Napakunot din ako ng noo nang makita ko ang pagtagaktak ng pawis niya sa gabi.I spoke as he stopped near me. "You, okay?" I hesitated.Tumango lang siya. Lumapit siya sa 'kin at tumabi pa. Pinagpag ang usok na ibinuga ko at masama akong tinignan. "Sinisira mo baga mo," he smirked. "Pati atay pinapatay." He looked at my side. Nandoon ang limang canned liquors na ubos na tapos may lima
I instantly vibed with the song the moment I stepped in the bar George had told me to barge in. I even popped my chest and walked in rhythm based on the beat. My hands kept on snapping as I tried to look for my friends when, in fact, I could barely see people at this moment. The flickering neon lights dominated the whole room. Sinubukan ko silang hanapin sa kumpulan ng tao at nang mahagilap ko ang mahabang table kung saan may limang nagtatawanan, napangiti ako. Wearing a only a oversized sweater over my two-piece swimsuit, I joined them. Mabilis akong umupo sa tabi ni Olivia na mukhang pawis pa. I pointed her with a confused look while glancing at the two couples in front of me. "Halos sabay lang kayo. May inasikaso rin 'yan sa bagong libro na ilalabas ng team nila sa isang project kaya late," Oshlov initiated to answer me. "Galing ka sa—" Bago pa maipagpatuloy ni Stephen ang sasabihin niya ay tumango na ako saka ngumisi nang makita ko kun
The click of the glasses as we tossed for the celebration gave enough excitement to how the things I planned would work out. Everyone was filled with joy as they joined me in one of the happiest moment of my life. From doctors, pharmacists, co-workers, staff, interns, and the friends I gained in the field within the years of doing my projects and planning to build my own laboratory, they were all invited in the bar where I chose to celebrate this good news. Walang mintis at kumpleto sila. "Grabe, Ma'am. Parang dati lang nakikita pa kita sa hallway na busy sa pag-roam sa ibang class dahil tumatakbo kayong council president sa college of pharmacy." I couldn't help but smiled as one of my staff reminisced that moment of my college life. "Sana tuloy-tuloy na! Congrats, Ma'am! Finall
"French macarons. Isang box. Strawberry lahat."The cashier titled her head as she took my order. Pati tuloy ako ay napakunot-noo sa reaksyon niya. First time yata nitong makakita ng babaeng bakat ang nipples sa black silk camisole na spaghetti strap at mini skirt na fur ang tela."Excuse me." Akma kong tatanggalin ang mask kong kulay itim din nang bigla na siyang matauhan."Okay po, Ma'am." She immediately punched my order.Habang hinihintay ko siya, hindi ko maiwasang makinig sa mga empleyadong nagtatrabaho rito at naghahagikgikan. Lunch break naman kaya walang kaso at nasa pantry sila.Pero mabilis nang napataas ang kilay ko nang marinig ko na sila nang maayos.
"What if the lady isn't really the Beast and the Prince Charming is really meant for her?"Nakangiti akong pinagmamasdan ang nagbabardagulan kong mga kaibigan. Tawa sila nang tawa kahit na nagsisigawan at nagbabalyahan na sila. Napakaingay namin dito sa bar, buti na lang ay pagmamay-ari ni Stephen.I looked at him. Sakto namang napatingin siya sa 'kin tapos kumindat pa. I made face. "Lagot ka kay Oshlov," I mouthed to him without a sound. Napailing na lang siya habang natatawa-tawa sa tabi ng pinsan ko.His hands snaked around the waste of my cousin. Napatigil tuloy si Oshlov na nakikipagbangayan kay Olivia tungkol sa Beauty and the Beast, lasing na naman kasi ang princess namin. Oshlov smiled at Stephen and kissed him. Katapat ko lang sila kaya naman huling-huli ko a
I stepped on the gasoline as I felt the excitement to meet him on a date—on our Second anniversary, aside from the dating and courting time. May halong kaba pero mas pinangungunahan ako ng pagkasabik. I smiled, seeing the flowers placed on the shotgun seat of my car. Magugustuhan kaya niya ang surpresa ko? Naiwan kasi siya sa condo dahil maaga akong umalis para bumili ng bulaklak at pagkain. Napailing na lang ako.Panigurado. Wala naman akong ibinigay na hindi niya nagustuhan, at lahat naman ng tungkol sa 'kin, tinanggap niya.I sighed while my eyes were on the road. Years after years, maraming nagbago. Mas nakilala ko kung sino ako noong minahal ko nang buo at totoo ang sarili. At that process, kasama ko si Cydeo. He helped me to love myself more. He helped me to choose the things that will make me happy and, at the same time, will create a good harmony with ot
I stepped on the gasoline as I felt the excitement to meet him on a date—on our Second anniversary. Yes, I was already spending two years with him aside from the dating and courting time. May halong kaba pero mas pinangungunahan ako ng pagkasabik. I smiled, seeing the flowers placed on the shotgun seat of my car. Magugustuhan kaya niya ang surpresa ko? Naiwan kasi siya sa condo dahil maaga akong umalis para bumili ng bulaklak at pagkain. Napailing na lang ako.Panigurado. Wala naman akong ibinigay na hindi niya nagustuhan, at lahat naman ng tungkol sa 'kin, tinanggap niya. I sighed while my eyes were on the road. Years after years, maraming nagbago. Mas nakilala ko kung sino ako noong minahal ko nang buo at totoo ang sarili. In that process, kasama ko siCydeo.
I immediately touched the sound of silence as I turned off my soundtrack playing in my ears.I couldn't hide the smile that I was wearing after I passed my hardbound thesis manuscript to the thesis coordinator.I could finally get my diploma soonest.My heart still keep on giving a 'tump' effect on me as I walked out of the research center.I thought I just released all the negative vibes and my electrons loosen up.Electrons?Where did I get that?I laughed alone while shaking my head.I collected my thoughts and sighed when I puzzled and contemplated the premonitions and hunches I have right now.It had been two months after graduation.I haven't seenthem
When love failed, two reasons may arise.Either you love the right person at the wrong time or you love the wrong person at the right time.I thought, which one are we there with Cydeo?It's just as wrong but it's more frightening to think that maybe ... maybe it's not there.Maybe I loved the wrong person at the wrong time.I soaked myself in the water.I clung to the water while continuing to cry.There's nothing I can do if I don't feel the pain that has accumulated in my chest.How come the only person that saves me from sadness became the reason of my pain at this moment?How come the person that gives me sunshine in the days became the storm in the dark?How come the only person I thought would
After putting my matte lipstick on with the shade of nude, I looked at myself at the mirror.I smiled as I praised how my tanned skin and white fitted dress complemented each other to have a good color appearance.The dress wasn't just plain, its long sleeves and the abdominal part were see-through while the back part was opened.I was also wearing nude boots with five-inch heels which made me feel more comfortable with my outfit that was really perfect for Cydeo's event."Are you ready?"I asked him, while I was still wearing the earing he bought me.I noticed that he had been careless behind me for a while.I could also see in the reflection of the mirror how wrinkled his face was."I think I misplaced something," He murmured but still, I heard it.