Kabanata 6

Crazy

"What the fuck are you saying? Ano bang nahithit mo ng ganito kaaga, Xavier? Sacrifice my what? Career? My friends? My Mommy? Are you fucking nuts?" Naibulalas ko nalang sa kaniya. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa mga pinagsasasabi niya. Nakakabaliw. Nakakalito. I don't even understand why he's saying this? Epekto na ba ito ng hindi ko pagpansin sa kaniya sa halos isang buwan matapos ng nangyari sa amin?

His jaw clenched. His green pair of orbs stared directly in my soul. Para bang inaarok niya ang buong pagkatao ko sa ginagawa niya.

"I mean it, Zaria Ismene. You're not leaving this place without being tied to me." Malamig nitong saad bago ako tinalikuran at iniwan sa loob ng banyo. What the fuck was that? Nababaliw na ba talaga siya?

Napailing nalang ako sa sarili at pinagpatuloy nalang ang pag-aayos sa sarili. After washing my face ay nag-toothbrush na rin ako. May dalawang toothbrush naman. Kulay itim at pula naman ang isa. Red is my favorite color so I decided to use it. Pagkatapos ng lahat ay kaagad na akong lumabas ng banyo.

I didn't saw Xavier inside the room so I get to wander my eyes around the room. At una ko pa talagang napansin ay ang tatlong painting sa itaas na bahagi ng king sized bed. It was me. The three painting was me.

The first one on the left was a painting of my face. Just the face. It was so detailed, maganda din ang pagkakagawa ng painting na unang inakala ko pa ay phinotograph lang. The third one on the right, was a painting of my whole body, but then, nakatalikod ako doon, pero kilalang-kilala ko ang sarili. I know the dress that I wore. It was when I attended my first ever event after debuting as a model. And the second one, which is in the middle and the biggest of the three... was a nude painting.

Putangina. That's a freaking nude painting of me! Siya ba ang gumawa nito? O pinagawa niya? Fuck! Alin man sa dalawa doon ay nakakahiya pa rin! And why would he put this on the top of the bed?! Nababaliw na siya?! Paano kung may ibang pumasok dito sa kwarto niya at makita iyan?! Edi nalaman ng lahat ang mga tinatago kong alas?!

Sa isiping iyon ay kaagad akong lumabas ng kwarto. Kaagad na sumalubong sa akin ang mahabang hallway. Nang maglakad pa ako ay sumalubong naman sa akin ang isang grand staircase. What is this place? Is this a mansion perhaps? Ang lawak kasi at ang daming kwarto. Oh well, the Consunji is a huge family kaya kailangan talaga nila ng isang mansion... o baka palasyo na.

Nang makababa ako sa staircase ay sumalubong naman sa akin ang malawak na living room. Halos malula pa ako nang makita ang naglalakihang chandelier sa itaas. The Consunji's are really... damn rich. Mayaman din naman kami, may ibubuga din, pero alam ko ring alikabok lang ang yaman namin kung ikukumpara sa pamilyang ito.

Pero... bakit ako nandito? Why did the bastard brought me here in the first place? What is he up to, really?

After minutes of satiating myself with the beautiful scenery of the living room, I managed to find the kitchen right after. And good thing I found the brute there. I found him topless and was only wearing a black boxers. Napasandal ako sa doorframe ng kusina at tinitigan ang kaniyang likuran. I couldn't help but to bit my lower lip everytime his muscles flex as he moved. His biceps... It reminds me of someone's biceps. Napangisi ako nang maalala ang isang Kpop Idol na nakasama ko noon sa photoshoot. We were both an ambassadors sa isang brand noon and we were asked to have a photoshoot together. Ang daming nababaliw sa biceps ng lalaking iyon. His name is Mingyu, if I remembered it right.

Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kaniyang pang-upo na umbok na umbok ngayon sa suot niyang boxers. I bit my lower lip. Mahina akong napamura sa aking utak nang mapagtanto ang aking ginagawa. This is fucked up. Okay. I admit, maganda ang katawan niya. He's freaking muscular with his muscles in all right places. Nakakapanghina ang tanawin kung tutuusin... but I must not forget that I am silently fantasizing a playboy, a womanizer. I must remember that he's the fire I shouldn't be playing with... well, not for too long.

I immediately shook my head and sighed. Fire's too dangerous to play with. Masusunog ako sa oras na hindi ko pinigilan ito. And I don't want to get burn. At least not with someone who I'm sure isn't ready to get burn with me.

"Xavier," Malamig na tawa ko rito. I made sure that all the emotion in my voice isn't visible anymore. He immediately turned to me, his face lightened up as soon as he saw me walking towards him. Naisara ko ang dalawang kamao ko nang makita ang namumungay niyang mga mata.

"Babe," He called me with his soft voice. Soft voice, huh? I guess he's really that persistent to lure me. Grabe makasuyo e. "Do you wanna have your breakfast now? I cooked for you."

Napabuntong hininga ako at napailing. "You know that I don't have time for this, Xavier. All I want right now is to go back to my place and get change, so I can go to work. That's all I want." At katulad ng nangyari kanina ay nagdilim lang ang mukha nito. Mas naging mabagsik ang mga mata kompara kanina, but I'm not afraid. Not even a bit. I think I'm getting used to this side of him now.

"What did I told you awhile ago, Zaria? Didn't you understand that? I told you that I am not letting you go unless you tie yourself to me."

"Nababaliw ka na ba? Paano mo nasasabi ang mga salitang 'yan na parang gustong-gusto mo talagang magpakasal sa akin?"

His jaw clenched. Kumunot ang noo nito at mas lalong tumalim ang tingin sa akin. "I want to marry you!"

I scoffed. "Nalilibogan ka lang, Xavier, pwede ba! Kung hindi mo ako iuuwi, pwes ako nalang mag-isa ang uuwi. Kaya ko ang sarili ko, at huwag mo na ulit akong isali sa mga kabaliwan at kalibugan mo!"

Inirapan ko siya at mabilis na tinalikuran ngunit hindi pa man ako nakakalayo ay mabilis na nitong nahawakan ang aking kamay at kaagad akong hinila palabas ng kusina. My eyes widened. Sinubukan kong alisin ang hawak niya, but the bastard was too strong for me. Hinila niya ako hanggang sa pumasok kami sa isang kwarto kung saan may malaking veranda kung saan kitang-kita ang magandang tanawin sa harap. This wasn't the room where we both slept in. This one's bigger and more open. And the bed is huge too, but in canopy style. This room screams more in victorian style... which I loved the most.

"Do you fucking see it?" Binuksan niya ang veranda at kaagad na sumalubong sa akin ang preskong hangin sa labas. Rinig na rinig ko na ngayon ang bawat hampas ng alon sa dalampasigan. "We're in a fucking island, Zaria. We're alone here. I made sure of that, so you can't have your way for escape."

Putangina. Putangina.

Kung anong ikinaganda ng tanawin ay siya namang pagkasama-sama ng pakiramdam ko. Para akong nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig habang nakatitig sa dagat. Walang tao. Walang ibang tao kundi kami lang dalawa dito sa islang ito.

Fear consumed my whole being as I thought about my mother. I am not afraid of anything. I am not afraid for my career either, but my Mom... No... I have to go back for my Mom.

"Let go of me, Xavier..." Nanginginig kong saad. Dahan-dahan nang naproseso ng isip ko ang mga nangyayari at lahat ng mga ginagawa niya. This is... kidnapping. Walang ibang pwedeng itawag dito kundi iyon lang!

"No. You're not leaving me, Zaria. Ever." Matigas na bulong niya bago sinakop ang aking baywang mula sa likod. I shivered when he planted soft feathery kisses on my neck. "You're mine. You're mine, Zaria."

A fear fell from eyes. "Baliw. Nababaliw ka na, Xavier."

"Crazy, yes. I've always been crazy for you, Zaria Ismene. You just didn't noticed it because you were too busy hating me, and now that I have you in my arms..." He stopped and then caressed my tummy which made my insides shiver. What happened to him? What the fuck happened to Xavier?

"I will surely get rid of the hate you are feeling for me. Hmm? Babe? Do you understand that? You'll love me. You'll go crazy for me, like how I am to you..."

He will get rid of the hate... Is he sure about that? Kasi ngayon palang umaapaw na naman ang galit ko para sa kaniya.