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6TH HEARTBEAT

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JORDI ADKINS

Once upon a time, there was a teenage gay boy named Jordi Adkins who made the biggest mistake of his life yet. He got drunk and wasted at a house party and woke up the next morning with that naked mistake.

Well, shit, that teenage gay boy was me and that’s the shittiest thing that has ever happened to my shitty life. It took me the whole weekend to let the reality that I hooked up with Xavier Rockwell sink in. Getting wasted at that stupid house party was clearly a mistake on my part. However, I’m not going to put all of the blame on me. Xavier’s a total douchebag for letting it all happen and he’s clearly part responsible. One second he’s just making my life a freaking nightmare and the next thing I know; he just made his way inside my ass.

“Jane, if I give you five bucks right now, would you dare to slap me?” Sitting right next to Jane, I just made this weird offer that made her cinch her eyebrows on me.

“Are you okay, Jordi?” She turned her focus on me giving me that usual worried tone of hers before eventually touching my forehead. “Are you having a fever or something?”

“I’m fine, Jane.” I replied nonchalantly swatting her hand off of my forehead.

“I’d do it.” Nikki chimed in.

“Okay, do it!” I turned towards Nikki presenting my face all for her to slap.

I just feel like I haven’t woken up from a very horrible dream. I couldn’t believe the actual fact that something happened between me and that douchebag Xavier Rockwell. Yes, I do agree that he’s quite hot but that doesn’t change the fact that he’s the last guy that I’m going to lose my virginity with. Plus, I’m no longer virgin, that’s the other thing that I couldn’t believe.

Nikki didn’t waste any time and slapped me in the face but it wasn’t the hardest slap that I knew she could do.

“Shit, Nikki. Don’t tell me you call that slap a bad bitch slap? I didn’t even felt a thing.”

“Oh, you really want a bad bitch slap?”

“Yes, please! Give it to me, Nikki! Give me that bad bitch slap!” I begged.

“Okay, let me have a ritual first.”

Nikki took a step back, rubbed her hands together, swung her arm three times before eventually slapping me.

“FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKK!!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs eventually getting all of the attention of people in the hallway. “Damn, girl. That was it!”

“Do you want another one?” Nikki asked but I already knew I’m good. “I think half of my face just turned red.”

“Yeah, let me slap the other half so it would be even. It would look like you have a semi-permanent blush on.” Nikki added and it’s relatively difficult for me to discern if she was being serious or if she was being sarcastic about it.

“Nope, I’m good.” I shook my head.

“Okay-dokes.” Nikki nodded in agreement while Jane stood looking perplexed by the current situation. “Anyway, Jordi. You kind of bailed on me last Friday night. Where the hell did you go?”

“I...” I paused not wanting to recall whatever happened that night. It is a memory that I want to start to forget even though I don’t really have much of a clear memory of it. “I-I went home. You know, I have to be home by midnight so...”

“Oh, yeah. We got ourselves a gay Cinderella.” Nikki declared.

“Gay Cinderella? Did you like left your shoe or something?” Jane chimed in for the first time in minutes and the first thing that came out of her mouth was utter stupidity.

Nikki and I just gave Jane the death stare before eventually walking away and going straight to class.

The day rolled in and much to my dismay, things doesn’t feel normal at all. I saw Xavier in his usual chair and we shared a quick eye contact that only made me feel utterly confused. It was crazy that I felt a jolt in the pits of my stomach from that quick second of eye contact. Things just became bizarre and I should feel happy that throughout the day, he never tried to bully me. I don’t feel like my day was that much complete without him hitting me or whatever it is that he does to me. It sounded toxic but I really do feel like it.

I know I should be delighted and grateful that I accidentally made him stop from actually bullying me.

The week became unprecedentedly peaceful for me which should be the best thing following that unexpected hook up. I should be glad about the plot twist but the only people who are happy about me were Jane and Nikki. They noticed how Xavier couldn’t even speak a word when I around and that he’s not even trying to poke fun of me. Xavier’s friends Darren and Nixon had their eyes on other weaker people which was another plus, I guess. Those two never really got off my back but Nikki and Jane could really handle those two minions.

Friday came quicker than I thought and still, Xavier never tried to come near me or even insult me with his mean words. I found myself eating lunch with Jane and Nikki and things started to shift.

“Don’t you think it’s weird that Xavier got off of your back that easily?” Jane inquired before eventually shoving a forkful of salad in her mouth.

“Yeah, I noticed that too. It’s a bit strange, don’t you think?” Nikki nodded and looked over at me.

“I...I don’t have any idea what you two are talking about.” Deep inside me, I was going a little bit nervous.

“I’m happy that he stopped poking fun at you and it’s not that I want him to continue bullying you but it felt really weird like he’s onto something...” Jane continued. “Uhm, what’s that word that they use?”

“Deepshit?” Nikki answered Jane’s query.

“That one.”

“Jesus, you two.” I heaved out.

“Did something happened between you two?” Jane followed up looking carefully into my eyes.

“W-what?” I started to have a small panic attack on the inside but I know I need to be calm and placid on the outside. “N-nothing happened between us. I don’t know what you two are talking about.”

“For real. Why are you sounding defensive, Jordi?” Jane asked which made me realize I was really being defensive.

“No, I’m not. I’m done with this conversation. I think I’m lucky and I’m glad that Xavier stopped poking fun at me.” I lashed out letting them know that I didn’t want to talk about Xavier any longer. I haven’t gotten his name out of my thoughts all throughout the week and now, even my friends are intrigued about the drastic changes.

“Anyway, I heard Kylie Jenner’s releasing a new shade of lipstick.” Nikki began unconsciously changing the topic and getting the heat off of me just as I wanted.

“Oh my god, really?” Jane squealed expressing her excitement for a new lipstick.

These two are really obsessed with lipsticks and every beauty product that famous people releases when they themselves are more beautiful even without makeup. I bet when Rhianna releases a new product, they’d be squealing over it.

To be brutally honest, I’m not really a huge fan of makeup and this is coming from an out and proud gay person. How fucking ironic is that? Perhaps, it’s all because make-up products really do irritate my skin. Jane, Nikki and I played with them the first time that they came at home and after that first time, I had a severe allergic reaction. My mom was worried about me and I was afraid that she might find out that I just played with makeup. I ended up lying to her. I told her it’s probably because of the tempura that we had ordered and ever since then, shrimps became banned at home which sucked because I really do love shrimps. I should’ve just told her it’s because of the broccoli because maybe then, broccoli would be the one banned instead of shrimp.

After lunch, I was walking on my way towards the restroom when someone suddenly pushed me inside the same janitor’s closet. I never got to see who it was and although I have a slight clue, it was pretty dark inside.

“Who the fuck are you?” I cursed out loud grabbing the guy’s hand cold and sweaty hands.

“Hey, it’s me.” The voice whispered and I immediately knew who it was.

“Xavier?”

He turned on the lights and I was right. I was staring at Xavier motherfucking Rockwell, the guy who used to beat the shit out of me.

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